Depression

“Depression, we are saying, is not a disease; it is a natural response to certain types of emotional introspection”. – Human Givens 2003, J Griffin and I Tyrrell

The end?

Yesterday or so I realized I am really depressed and that it is probably not going away by just waiting it out. Or maybe it does, but I feel so bad and have felt so bad for so long that it is about time to do something. And I don’t like professional help like professional help, but yesterday or today I finally decided it is about time to talk with a professional and see if he or she can do something to help me get out of this depression.

And I don’t really want to talk about depression right now, and I guess it is not a really inspiring subject, but it is an important ‘stand in the way’ for me to achieve success, so I guess the subject deserves a place in the site.

Main reason to create this page, and make it a page and not a post, is that I want to link to a site that I think is helpful to people who are suffering from depression and want to get out of it. I just found out the site has some kind of program and decided to start is.

So here is the link: depression treatment.

I have been working the program for a few days now and I think it has helped me already. I was disappointed though finding out the program is not for free. I presumed it was government funded or something, but it isn’t. However, I was pleasantly surprised finding out there are options for people who cannot afford the price of the program, so I am able to continue.

I just copied the link to this page in a comment in Facebook to a friend who posted that she suffers from depression. And (of course) I opened this page to see what is here, and I realize the page needs quite some update. And I don’t want to spend a lot of time on that now, but I am about half a year from when I created this page and I think my depression has subsided substantially. I don’t even know if I would call myself depressed right now, even though I had a thought about suicide today. But I am feeling a lot better, and many things seem to have contributed to that. Not in the least my counseling sessions in IWS and the trip I made end of 2016.

And it is September 2017 now and it seems my depression, or some kind of imbalance in body chemicals, is fully ruling my life again, yes, in a very negative way, as recently I hardly worked, even though I have many things to do, want to do many things.

Not fully sure what to do, as it just seems to come and go at random, like nothing I do or not do seems to make any difference related to falling into depression again.

And some practical issues make it very hard to work on the depression program and listen to tapes I often use for self healing. Excuses? Well, maybe. But then again, that is what depression is all about, not being able to do things that I know may help me. And maybe finding ‘excuses’ for that. Ah, if you have been depressed or are depressed you know what I mean I guess.

The beginning?

And I don’t want to end this page negative, as I know e.g. the online program mentioned above (depression treatment) helped me a lot.

Opportunity?

Recently I started listening to videos on YouTube from Eckhart Tolle and I like his idea of evolving consciousness, even though the word ‘evolving’ confuses me, as it implies change, it implies something like time, where to me consciousness would be just ‘forever’.

Anyhow, I just encountered a video about depression and anxiety of Eckhart Tolle, so I wanted to share it here, even though I am just listening to it now; or more like half listening to it now as I am writing.

While searching ‘eckhart tolle depression youtube’ I saw he made more videos about the subject of depression and I guess I will listen to that later, but for now I will just share the link of the first video I found: Eckhart Tolle about depression.

Referrals

I just found a nice article related to depression and wanted to share it somehow: https://medium.com/the-mission/mastering-depression-and-living-the-life-you-were-meant-to-live-a9b4e357ddd9. What made me want to share it was the following, as I think I am using that in my dog training activities:

When you mind is swirling with fear and crazy thoughts and negative energy do this:

  1. Stop and do nothing.
  2. Wait for a clear signal.
  3. When you get a clear signal move forward.