Today I felt a bit overwhelmed by emotions, negative emotions. Or were it feelings? And I have no clue why, although that is not fully true, as I guess behind everything is still the relationship with my partner that I want to improve. Or maybe just things I need from him. And they say you shouldn’t need things or something, you should take care of your own emotions. But somehow I still doubt that. As in the end everything is still about relations, relations between people. Because what is a human alone? And what’s the use of everything if you’re alone?
But of course that’s what it’s all about. As I believe that indeed we were made to God’s image or whatever phrase is used in the bible. And the problem of God, of being conscious in the end is just being alone, having no one to talk to, being just conscious. And I guess that’s why we’re split up. As at least that kind of solves the idea, the feeling of loneliness. But of course the problem of being split up causes conflict, causes differences. But yes, that’s what I (capital I) wanted, that’s what God wanted, as that’s the only way of not being alone.
But today I felt alone. Or needy. Or vulnerable or something. And I couldn’t get going, even though I did the things I had planned for today. But I didn’t feel future, didn’t see future, didn’t feel progress, didn’t see progress. And right now I still feel uncomfortable, not really knowing what to do, where to go.
And as the Law of Attraction states I just got more of it, more problems, more negativity, like the internet not working again, even though just now, right now it kind of came back, on both connections.
So today noting inspirational I guess, nothing of real value. Just some sharing of feelings, just sharing I’m in the place I don’t want to be, a place full of negativity, delay, closed valves, feeling stuck being stuck and not able to communicate and not even getting what I want and need.
You know these days? Are you willing to share? And how to get out of it? Or maybe just stay in it and just let it be, just accept sometimes there are no answers, as I wrote to someone yesterday, who I presume was or still is in a very dark place.