Lately I have been listening quite a lot to talks and interviews from and with Jordan Peterson. And lately I have been pretty desperate about what to do next, as I don’t really have goals anymore it seems. And one of the things Jordan Peterson teaches is to set a goal, some goal, some life goal. And I don’t have anymore it seems. Yes, I wanted a lot, as I am very ambitious, but then life happened and life has hit me pretty hard in my experience. So I kind of gave up on some things, including life goals. And I changed a lot, a lot in a direction I don’t like, especially related to love life. As until like half a yea ago or so to me I wanted sex to be related to love, to relationship, to things like that. But recently it seems I am mainly looking for sex, not for love anymore, even though I somehow try to stay faithful to someone. But the last doesn’t feel good and another thing Jordan Peterson is teaching is to be truthful. Ah, and I used to be truthful and some kind of good guy, but also that got lost in the way how my life turned out.
So then, why write this post? Well, it seems one thing Jordan Peterson is teaching has been making sens for a few days now: make sure or try to make today better than yesterday. Or try to make tomorrow better than today, no matter in what small increment, even one percent or even a part of a percent would do, as per his teaching. So somehow I picked up on that and somehow that seems to work, at least for one or two days now. And I don’t fully know how I did it, but somehow I picked something up from what Jordan Peterson is teaching. As for a few weeks already my dog Arf has a very nasty wound, a very nasty infection on his paw, on his toe. And no matter how much I did my best to treat it and prevent him from licking it open, until yesterday he was able to lick it open again and again, even after one or a few days of healing. But yesterday I kind of decided to just make Arf, make (the healing of) his wound my priority. So I did. And I kind of decided I wanted to do better today than yesterday. Or make tomorrow better than today, no matter in what small amount.
And amazingly, somehow it seems to have worked, as today his wound seems to have started to close and it seems I was able to somehow control his licking. Or he just realized I was dead serious on dealing with this issue, so he was less likely to lick.
And what made me start writing was watching the end of the movie The Recruit. I never realized before how the movie really ended and today I saw some more intriguing details in the end. One of the things that struck me today that the character James Clayton doesn’t want the character Walter Burke to die, no matter what had happened. And yes, I guess we can mostly or always understand people or movie characters, even if they do wrong, and yes, I guess we don’t want people to die, no matter what they did wrong, although there may be some exceptions to that. Ah and strange to see that today is the birthday of Al Pacino, the actor who plays the role of Walter Burke.
And no, I am not Jordan Peterson. I am not that conscientious, finishing a text fully, checking a text fully, until it cannot be improved further. I just post, so this is just it for now, even though of course I would like to improve this post and many other posts and pages in this site. But it seems just not to be me to do that, at least not now.
But today was better than yesterday for me, in many aspects, and it feels like more than one percent, maybe even ten percent. As I also did some cleaning up, no matter how little.