I woke up early this morning which amazed me and it made me very happy. Something seemed to have changed. Maybe it has, as someone once told me my 49th year would be special, I would achieve success that year. Well, did I? I guess I did as I had an enormous personal development in my 49th year, although I had expected success in the form of material things. So I guess I was successful last year.
So I was very happy waking up at seven am and decided to enjoy my time a bit and still lie down for a while in bed.
And then suddenly I found all those negative thinking patterns coming back. Then suddenly I thought again about all the plans I made last year, all the decisions I made last year, all the plans I had last year. And it seems nothing has really worked out yet.
So I started reading again in the two books that inspire me most at the moment. And yes, I do believe many of the things written there. But they don’t seem to apply to me at the moment: I don’t feel desire at the moment, I lost the belief at the moment. I have no clue about how plans should look like. I have no clue on how to create my Master Mind group. I have the feeling I’m giving a lot, but it seems nothing is coming back. So am I just taking and not realize it? Or am I just different?
And how can I inspire you right now?