I’m a bit in complaining mood and a bit lost with the Law of Attraction. And I’m a bit lost with all the self help type sites I signed up for in relation to this site, to the site Inspiration for Success. You see, I wanted to do something different with this site. Not doing the active selling of products like many of those sites do that i signed up for. You see, as of the moment I get like five or ten e-mails per day that really provide some useful information, some inspiration, something that makes me feel like clicking on the links, reading more. But at the end of the day all those e-mails seem to be focused only on selling something, same like all the ‘free’ items I can download or read. And don’t get me wrong, nothing wrong with that. And maybe it’s the only way or the best way or something to have a successful internet business. But I wanted to do something different. Writing with passion to inspire people, and then indeed, when these people, when you, would really feel to have gotten something from me, have achieved something because of me or because of this website, I would have liked or would like that you would indeed pay me.
But it seems that’s not how life works, or that’s not how business works, or that’s not how internet business works, or that’s not how the internet works. And then indeed it seems I’m not a businessman, maybe too much of an idealist, a dreamer. And it also reflects in my business, in my personal life.
And then they talk about giving. That the only way you can ‘get’ something is by giving. Or by helping other people achieve what they want, get what they want.
And they say that you reap what you sow, that you get back multiplied what you sowed.
So I must have given very little, or have sowed the wrong things. And yes, looking back at my life, maybe I took too much. I had all the holidays and the fun earlier in my life.
But somehow it doesn’t add up. I still don’t believe I’m that bad that I can’t even support myself, let alone the people who depend on me, who are around me.
And they say it’s all about passion, about doing what you love, doing what you’re passionate about. Well, most of my life I did the things I liked to do. And I guess I did it with passion. And also the last few years I think I ran my business with passion. I liked the work I did, the things I wanted to achieve with my business. And it all fell apart. And I know a bit why, but I still don’t fully understand why it all had to fall apart, why it was not appreciated what I did. And yes, I made mistakes, big mistakes, but still, it doesn’t feel fair.
But indeed, who said life is fair? And in a way I do believe it is.
But it’s time for something better, to enjoy life again, to go out with friends, to have some time off and go out, have a holiday, relax. But I don’t see how and as of now I still don’t see a way out, although I started again and won’t give up.
But it’s not easy.