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Mac

Mac Well, not sure what to write about right now and even a bit unsure whether I would write a post anyhow as in today’s team meeting it became clear that it is time that the site gets a better structure and better content (pages) and not just ‘posts’ as I write them, basically even with the thought of ‘just writing content’.

So maybe just indeed write something about dogs as a friend of mine and i were talking about earlier today. And it was weird to find out I didn’t know how much of a dog lover she is, even though how I saw the last few days how much she likes Iwa, our little mini pincher. So we started talking about dogs and of course I asked her if she knows the Dog Whisperer, which of course she does. And then I found out she has a dog herself, Mac, of which you find a photo on this page. A very sweet dog it seems to me, and as i heard also very spoilt, but I can imagine that looking at the photo.

So we talked about dogs and it was funny to see how Iwa sat on her lap, liking it, like getting the attention and also not liking it.

And then somehow we started talking about business, which people often say I should mix with private. But to me that’s very hard as I just like the things I do business wise, something like ‘anything internet’, from building websites to Internet Marketing and Search Engine Optimization, where in my opinion people often mix especially the last two, but also overestimate the design of the first.

But that’s not really what I wanted to talk about, business. But somehow I also do, as in my experience business also affects your private life. If business is good, you can do more fun things in your private life, at least I think most people would agree that you have more options if business is good, if you’re earning money. And if business is bad, you may have less money or no money at all, so have less choices in what to do or where to go.

So is this a business post or a private life post? Well, I guess more of a business quote. And actually that’s also why I often end up talking about business. As I just need more exposure for my business, for what I’m good at, for what I have to offer. And as my private life is suffering a lot from not having enough business.

So yes, this is a business post, a sales and marketing post..

Nothing lasts

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“Nothing lasts”, that is what the documentary I was just watching about Tom Ford ended with. And I was watching, or kept watching, as I am still kind of jealous of people who are successful in life, or appear to be successful in life. And yes, I often measure that in fame and money as that are things I don’t have and would like to have. Or at least more of that. So also, yes, the negative emotion of jealousy came up again I guess, as somehow I am jealous of those people who are famous and/or rich. And it seems those often go together even though I know that’s not true, or not always true. And begin that famous is probably, or almost certainly NOT what I want as being that famous probably means you don’t own most of your own life anymore, although somehow I do want to be that famous, like that famous that I would be known all over the world. But after that, after being there you can’t go back, you can’t go back to being private again. After that probably all over the world people would recognize you, so you wouldn’t be able to move around anymore, kind of anonymous, which in the end I prefer.

So I guess it’s about the money in the end. That’s basically what I miss most, what I want most. Just enough so I wouldn’t have to work anymore, or at least wouldn’t have the feeling I have to work. And somehow I know this doesn’t really add up, as most of my life I have worked hard and it didn’t really bring me money, especially the last ten years. Last year I think it was even the opposite, or at least the second part of last year, as my working actually has cost me money as my business was losing money. So if I hadn’t had this customer that didn’t pay I might have had more money now. So money and hard work are not always related, although I still believe that it pays off to work hard, or at least that hard work is one of the things that brings in money in larger quantities than if you wouldn’t work hard. But there is more to it, as I know that most of my life I worked hard and long, and it didn’t bring me the money I am talking about. So there is something more that is needed to get money from work. Or a lot of money from working hard. And I’m not fully sure what that is, but I think it has to do with personality and character and/or also with inspiration, with working inspired, in an inspired way.

So how to go on now, as I don’t know how to inspire you to make more money if that is what you are looking for in this page. As I still didn’t figure it out yet. And that’s also one of my problems with ‘success’, with ‘successful people’. Because it’s so easy to talk about success, how to do it, how to get there when you’re already there. But what about those people like me, and probably you, otherwise you might not read this far, who didn’t make it, didn’t make it yet, neither to success or fame or whatever they want or wanted in life. That’s still one of my biggest problem with success stories and telling other people how to do it, how to get there. This even applies to Think and Grow Rich, as of course the stories and samples in the book are somehow self fulfilling prophecies: this guy or girl got what he or she wanted and did this and that. And this one didn’t because… Yes, because of what? Isn’t there some element of luck? And no, I don’t really believe in luck, same as in all those books and what all those gurus tell us. I do believe there is something to being successful, getting what you want in life. But then still, why am I not there yet? I think I did and do all the things that are needed to be successful and I still don’t have my Pajero and I still don’t have enough money to retire, to do what I want without worrying about money, without worrying how I will survive next month.

But somehow that’s the same for everyone. And somehow that’s also what Tom Ford says, what I referred to at the beginning of this post: nothing lasts. So it doesn’t really matter what I have or who I am (in the eyes of the world, in the eyes of others). Nothing lasts.

Amazing

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Jollibee Yesterday I went to the mall and while in the mall, looking for somewhere to eat or while eating, suddenly it hit me how abundant life indeed is for almost every human being, but how more for me. You see, I have no money left in my bank account so I used my credit card, meaning someone was willing to give me money, even though I don’t have anymore myself. And I only took something like EUR 200.00 while my credit limit is something like EUR 2,500.00, so I could have gotten and still can get a lot more. So I felt rich with my PHP 10,000.00 that I got from the ATM, even though of course I know there are some drawbacks with this thing. But again, that is negative thinking, so yesterday I tried to look at the positive side and I really felt rich, really lived in the moment and I still do. So I got this PHP 10,000.00 from the ATM and realized how much equipment, capital, work, etc., etc. is behind this simple transaction. Because someone has put that money in the ATM so I could get it out. And someone is maintaining records somewhere in a computer to make my Credit Card work. Also people have built those programs and this infrastructure to make that all work. And I had and have nothing to do with that. It all happens without me, without me even really knowing, without me mostly even realizing. And it is not only now, but it also has a long history of people doing things, as those machines and stuff can only be built with metal and stuff, where metal making was invented long, long time ago. And all those programs have been built on other, more basic programs, also long time ago. And the infrastructure like cabling and buildings and whatever more you can think of has also been built, being created over a long time. So many, many people are being and have been involved in this little transaction of mine.

And it goes further, as I went to Jollibee, the Philippine fast food branch similar to McDonalds (well, just the one that I know best, no offense to similar fast food chains). So when I stood in line I realized that everything there was also amazing and that many, many, many people were and are involved in my simple little meal. People had built the building in which this branch is located and someone had decided to open this specific Jollibee branch. And many, many people have been involved, have been working to grow or create the food. That food has probably taken months to ‘grow’, or even years if you think about the cow meat produced for the meat in the hamburger. But on shorter term deliveries have been made to this specific branch and the food has been prepared by the people inside. And I looked at the paper wrapper around my hamburger and realized that had also been produced and someone had folded it around my hamburger.

So I ate and when I left I realized someone would clean up my mess after I left and people would clean the store during or after opening hours. So yes, again many people were, are and will be of service to me, even after I have left, mostly without even knowing, without realizing.

So yes, its really amazing what we all created. And it’s just there and we just use it, mostly without realizing, mostly just taking it for granted.

Negative thoughts

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This is day 29 of my thirty day Law of Attraction program and together with e.g. what i found in Think and Grow Rich I am starting to realize how many negative thoughts I am thinking most of the time. And I am starting to see what a powerful destructive force that indeed probably is. And it is so hidden and it is so linked to what I have been taught, to what we have been taught all my life, all our lives. And it’s all about what i, what we, ‘should do’ and ‘shouldn’t do’. It’s all about ‘the law’, whether from my upbringing or whether the real law in society or the things that are commonly considered ‘good’ or ‘bad’.

You see, for most of what I want, what I desire, the first thing I’m thinking is something like ‘I cannot afford that’, or ‘that’s improper behavior’ or ‘that’s against the law’ or ‘my parents considered that wrong’ or <fill in whatever you are thinking>.

And don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying what we are taught is wrong or that the law is wrong or that my parents were wrong or something like that and I don’t want to promote criminal behavior or something. I’m just noticing how many negative thoughts I am producing around all kinds of things. And yes, ‘thoughts are things’ and they produce results. So if my thoughts are negative, if your thoughts are negative, I’m quite sure the produce negative results.

And I notice it’s so hidden, it happens on such a deep level, so deep in my subconscious brain. And today to me it started with something like “I shouldn’t use my credit card to get money as there are a lot of charges involved” (and this will get me into further financial trouble). And this is basically true. But then I realized that there is no more food in the house and that there are people depending on me. But on a more deeper level, I believe that the world economy is stuck because the money is not flowing anymore. So who says it’s a bad thing in general that if the bank charges me a lot for getting this money that it has a negative effect. And behind this are some other negative beliefs, like ‘banks are bad and abuse me with their charges’. Is that true? Maybe, but also maybe not. Most money earned by banks I’m quite sure is used to pay their employees or pay other people, and yes a lot may also go to places I don’t like or agree with or you don’t like or agree with. But who decides what is a good place and what is a bad place? So in this case I just don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing that money I control, a choice I make would have an effect that I like in the broader sense or an effect that i don’t like.

You know, I’m starting to believe that indeed everything is so connected and that we really can’t know what actual effect our actions have. Or what is actually ‘good’ or ‘bad’ in the end.

So for now let’s examine every thought and just think about it whether it is a negative thought or a positive thought. And at least focus on the positive thoughts, not the negative ones. And yes, i think we all know deep inside what is a negative thought for us and what is a positive thought for us.

Doing nothing

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Doing nothing”, that was my intention for today related to my place mat exercise. And this meant something like leaving everything to the Universe, so that’s what I wrote down on the other side. But somehow I realized you cannot do ‘nothing’. That’s not how humans are built. So even while doing ‘nothing’, just lying a bit on the couch as I just felt tired and didn’t really feel like doing anything physical, of course I was still thinking, and breathing, and I guess a lot of other things a human does when doing nothing.

Ah, and I’m really in complaining mood, down mood, even though I thought I had left that behind as I felt so happy recently. So yesterday one of the things I wanted to achieve in one of my segments was feeling bad, which to my amazement didn’t really happen. I felt kind of bad the moment I wrote it down, but somehow later on in the day I started to feel good and when going to bed as far as I remember I really felt good again. So I didn’t achieve my goal with that and of course I was kind of happy with that.

I learned from it thought that sometimes it’s just good to write your feeling down, to just feel bad if you feel bad. And maybe this something about the ‘forcing’ humans, or at least I, often feel I do. When feeling bad I am trying to force myself out of that. And often that doesn’t work.

And I realize I’m not really inspired writing this post. And I guess you can also read that between the lines. And somehow I also know what’s the background as I have so many things I want to do, so many ideas in my mind I want to make into reality. And somehow that’s frustrating as the only thing I just need is money to live, money to survive. And it feels a bit like all my efforts somehow are good, feel good, but they just don’t bring in, or at least didn’t until now, just the money to survive.

So what is this with money, what’s wrong in the world that I can’t do what I feel I’m good at, that I can’t seem to use my talents for other people, that I can’t serve other people in a way that they appreciate it enough to allow me to live the life I think I deserve and need. Don’t they just see what I do, what I can do? Don’t they just see how good I am at the internet and programming stuff? Don’t they see how I’m trying to do things good, perfect, ready for the future, maintenance friendly?

Apparently not, but somehow I also feel that I should just continue doing what I do, believe in myself, and that somehow, some day, people see how good I am at what I do and that they can benefit from the way how I do things.