I have been thinking a lot about this site lately. Like what’s is purpose and how to continue with it. And the good thing is I’ve learned an awful lot from it. And it ranks now on position four or so for the phrase inspiration for success. And it ranks on the first page of Google for inspiration success. And a similar position for the phrase inspiration to success. And from a search engine position perspective, from an internet exposure perspective that’s not bad, actually very good. Especially if you take into account that most of my posts were kind of personal experiences, often also complaints and not really inspirational texts. And the same applies to the pages. And I do have kind of a team, but they don’t seem to do much, they’re not really into building this site into something useful, something big. At least I don’t see much action, e.g. putting some kind of decent content in the site, either in quality or quality.
And I guess it’s kind of logical as in the beginning I was kind of desperate to have a team, a Master Mind as I presumed that was my biggest weakness. So my team is not the best team in the world. It doesn’t consist of “winners”. And yes, as Napoleon Hill states in Think and Grow Rich I’m starting to realize what it means being a leader. And indeed, I’m starting to see and feel that indeed it’s the leader who fails if the team doesn’t perform. And it’s not easy you see, being a leader. I always thought it was about fame and money and being looked up to and being celebrated and such. But it’s different. At least for now for me it is.
So indeed, it’s my project, it’s my dream, it’s my vision and I’ve been trying to pass that responsibility to the team. And you cannot do that as there can only be one leader and he or she has to lead, has to set the goal and the pace and make the plans and decide and especially in this case has to inspire the team has to inspire other people, even if he or she feels down and doesn’t know anymore. Because there is no one else who can take that role. So I guess I have to be grateful that the project is not moving as I think it could or should and that the team is not really moving. As it just makes clear that I’m not doing the right thing. Or it’s not really about ‘doing’, that’s also what I’m starting to see.
So yes, I’m tired as I have been many times in my life. Tired of how things were going. But somehow I’m not as tired as before as indeed, if I want to be the leader, if I am the leader, it’s up to me how to change it.
So still, things are falling into place somehow, even in some areas of my life I’m at the lowest level ever. But that’s not important. Regardless of that I can still be a leader and maybe I should hide these things a bit more as they may even pull the team down. And yes, I believe in honesty. I even considered that as one of my highest or even the highest value I had and have. But too much honesty is not always the right thing. And I don’t mean that I should lie or something. But there may be a reason I’m in Asia, where people are much more careful in what to tell or not to tell. Or what to do or not to do. And not be so direct about it.
So what’s next. The main issue I have is that in order to make this site, this project Inspiration for Success work, a lot of work has to be done. Research needs to be done on the subject of inspiring people and on the subject of success. And articles need to be written. And tools need to be made. And before that I think some planning needs to be made, by the team. It should be discussed where this project, this site is going. What do we want to offer. And then, maybe the biggest issue, how are we going to be paid.
And that’s part of the origin of the site, even though I sometimes deny it to myself. Part of the origin of the site is that I want to be rich, filthy rich. And I thought, and still think, this site could be a means to achieve that. And next to that I want to mean something in the world. I have some messages to the world. Because I think things can be better, better for many people. So I need a platform where I can share my ideas, my messages to the world. And this site can be a means to that. And I even prefer the project, because ‘the project’ means to me something like ‘going out to the world’, ‘tell the world’. And it is weird, as that would at the same time fulfill my need to travel and to be in the spotlight. And then last but not least I want to inspire people. I want people like me, especially younger people, to end up different, better than me. As I feel like I had no one who inspired me, no one who supported me, where I often read that most famous and/or successful people had ‘someone’ in their life that made their ‘break’ possible. And I had no one. So I”ll make my own brake, I’m making my own break now. But I want it easier for other people, for people like me when I was a teenager, or when I was a student, or when I was in my first job, or maybe my second.
So yes, it’s a weird mix of things, of ‘give and take’, of ‘give and receive’. But that’s what life seems to be about, about balance. But life is also about abundance as especially recently I see how abundant nature is, how much ‘waste’ there is. And the simplest thing to see this abundance, this ‘waste’ is the Rambutan tree in our garden. It bears so much fruit that we can’t even eat it and we even don’t manage to give away fruits to friends and not having more than enough for ourselves to eat.
So yes, there is abundance. The Universe is abundant.