I have been reading more about the thirty day Law of Attraction program of Abraham Hicks. And one side of me says ‘just another self help program that made the person originating it rich and famous’. But another part of me says that there is a lot to focusing on the positive, focusing on abundance and prosperity. And maybe the main thing that lets me believe that ‘working hard’ will bring prosperity is not true is that most of my life I have been working hard, harder than average. And it didn’t bring me success, it didn’t bring me prosperity, it didn’t bring me happiness. At least not in the end.
Yes, I had good jobs and earned a lot. And during those days I was financially well of, quite well of. Not rich, but more than average rich, especially as i am gay and had a partner who also worked, so we were in the ‘double income no kids’ group. So yes, basically we were well of and I was happy with it.
But looking back something didn’t add up. As I had to work hard and do all kinds of things that didn’t suit me as a person to keep my job (= my income) and my partner. And because I was doing those things ‘forced’ in the end I lost everything. Yes, that’s what I believe now.
And the same thing happened again to me last year. Again I worked hard to have an income and keep my partner. And again it was not enough. And again it didn’t add up.
And don’t get me wrong, I did like my jobs, my work and I loved and liked my partners. But something didn’t add up and it seems those Law of Attraction type thoughts make more sense than ‘work hard and you will get’.
So no, I don’t have the answers yet and I still feel i’m in a very shitty situation. But I’m going to give this positive thinking, this ‘feeling’, this ‘vibrating’ stuff a chance. As the ‘working hard’ stuff didn’t work out for me, never.
And indeed, also logically, rationally the whole thing of ‘work hard and everything will be OK’ doesn’t add up. Look at nature and everything. Nature is all about abundance, about ‘waste’ about too much of everything.
So there is enough, there must be enough, also for me, for me to do the things I want to do, for me to enjoy life.
To be continued…