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Starting again

For quite a few days I wanted to write here again already. But I didn’t know what to write, so I kind of postponed. But today I thought, well, let’s just start, same like the sharing in my Twelve Steps group. At first I didn’t have so much to share and was often finished within the time allowed, but lately I just talk and mostly I just keep talking. And also there, I just start, not knowing what I want to share. I only know participating in my Twelve Steps groups and sharing helps me, makes me feel better, as I noticed if I don’t share, it makes a difference.

And looking back this whole Inspiration for Success thing was about sharing, was about wanting to be heard. And I still want to be heard, want to achieve something. But more and more it is about me, about sharing myself, sharing my thoughts, helping me, and hopefully also someone else, you.

So one of the thing I encountered today was this:

“Wikipedia describes guilt as “a cognitive or an emotional experience that occurs when a person realizes or believes — accurately or not — that he or she has compromised his or her own standards of conduct or has violated a moral standard and bears significant responsibility for that violation.” The purpose of guilt is to enable us to make amends or right what we did wrong. When we wallow in guilt however, or think of ourselves as bad people, then we have moved on to toxic shame which is mostly unhealthy and unproductive.” – Anon

And the main reason is that I am feeling an enormous amount of guilt. And I asked something like what the purpose of guilt is. And this was the answer someone gave.

Another thing I encountered today was the daily, or regular e-mail of Leo Babauta. And I won’t copy it here, as I think it is too long, but you can just read it at Meditation according to Leo Babauta.

And I don’t know what to write further, so maybe I’ll write here later on, maybe not. But at least I started again, and that feels very good.

It’s okay

The last one or two weeks I almost fully left my planning, my daily to-do list. And somehow it feels right, especially as I had not planned a lot, or at least that is what I thought.

And yes, somehow I still follow it. And yes, I will pick it up soon. But somehow I am still myself, my impulsive chaotic self that also knows what to do and not to do. And yes, I needed a break from that strict following of my planning, doing the things I planned to do every day.

And still, I have the feeling something changed, I changed. As somehow I still do the things I have planned to do. Except some things I didn’t do.

Sounds strange, but it feels right. And that’s what I learned from Abraham Hicks, that procrastination can be a very good thing. And I think it was, the last few days, weeks. And it will pass, and I will have learned, again.