I feel tired. And that’s weird as I have not been working hard the last few days. But maybe that’s also what makes me tired. I’d rather be busy. But I’m not, in a way, although of course there are plenty things I could do. But I’m not inspired in doing any of those things and partly related to what I learned recently that uninspired action doesn’t pay off I’m careful doing things that I don’t feel like doing.
I also feel more like organizing things and thinking what to do than actually doing things. So it’s also not true that I’m not doing anything. I’m just trying to find the right way of moving, moving forward. And I know this may sound like excuses and procrastination, but it’s not. I am starting to believe more and more that uninspired action doesn’t work and that sometimes being patient is the best thing you can ‘do’.
What frustrated me today however a bit was that one of my team members told me he was busy, too busy. And I was happy with what he told me, with what he was busy with. As all the things he mentioned were indeed ‘valid’ things to be busy with. And things worthy of doing. And also things that would be hard to be done by someone else.
So I’m thinking about how to organize things better, for me, for my team, for my work and maybe even for the rest of the world. As I think we can do better, balance the work better so everybody would be more happy. And everybody would get ‘more’.
As I’m not happy not having enough work, work I consider useful. And my team mate is not happy having too much work, a situation I also know from other times.