My partner always wanted me to change. And I never understood. And maybe he meant something else than what I understand now. And maybe I am not realistic. But I think I did change, and I did change in a positive way. As before with expensive things I often thought (and said): we can’t afford it. But right now I am much more careful and today’s test drive with a Subaru or maybe even buying one is more of a step on the road to my dream car, a black Mitsubishi Pajero, highest diesel type with manual transmission than something ‘I can’t afford’ or something ‘impossible. So even if I don’t have any clue where to get the money, not ‘even’ for a Subaru or any car at all, I did enjoy our visit to the local Subaru dealer and today’s testdrive with a Subaru XV.
And I enjoyed these visits especially as I realized that Subaru still builds cars in a non-conventional way, with a boxer engine and four wheel drive and only available with gasoline engines. And especially while watching the engine bay a few days ago I had the feeling these cars are really built with love, unlike many other cars available in The Philippines who mostly look like efficient work horses. And driving it today made me realize that the car industry had really matured since I was a teenager as this car I was driving today was smooth and simple and still fun. And it was all even for free. And yes, it made me kind of realize again that I am supposed to drive cars, enjoy cars while driving, as I kind of play with them, they do what I want to do.
And yes, you may think I’m crazy, but indeed, looking at things in a positive way, just enjoying what’s there without really thinking about ‘buying’ or ‘owning’ or ‘money’, made me feel very happy. And i’m sure the people around me felt that.