Today I couldn’t really get going and I couldn’t really figure out why, as actually things are getting better, at least business wise. I got some new requests and some small orders. And while thinking, kind of roaming around restless, lying down again, reading a ‘day’ from the 30 day program of Abraham Hicks I realized that my main issue is that my basic needs are not met, I mean the basic needs according to Maslov’s hiearchy o f needs, like food and water, which I thought was the lowest level. And I thought the second was sex, but according to the image I just found it’s a bit different than I thought.
And reading a bit further I see the model is also disputed, which of course is kind of logical, as it’s just a scientific hypothesis. Some more information can be found on Fundamental Human Needs.
So while writing I realize there are many theories around, so maybe let’s just analyze my personal needs and the feelings around it. And what’s the result. And preferably of course some kind of a solution, as I don’t feel OK, I don’t feel happy and that’s been going on for quite a while, looking back even most of my life.
So let’s think, what’s bothering me most. I guess what’s bothering me most is that I depend on others for many of my needs where I can’t find ways to make others fulfill those needs.
And the most frustrating thing behind that is that I have been trying all my life to fulfill the needs of others while I can’t even find ways to fulfill my own needs. And somehow this all goes back to something like my belief of lacking something like ‘people skills’. As that’s what people have been telling me all my life and that’s what I’ve been experiencing all my life. And the biggest issue with that is that i don’t have a way out, don’t see a way out. Because those ‘people skills’ you either have or you don’t. And I’ve been trying to fake them all my life, trying to ‘do what is right’ towards people in order to meet ‘the worlds needs’ as that’s what seems to be required to get what you want, fulfill your needs. And until now I didn’t manage, things even got worse, slowly but surely. And there comes in some other belief, something else what people say, and that’s that I need to ‘change’.
And rationally this all doesn’t make sense. And somehow I think this all is also the tragedy of being human, of human life.
But somehow I still believe there must be some way out, there must be a way to live a happy, fulfilling life where I am happy and where my environment is happy with me and I am happy with my environment.
And I know I’m not the only one, otherwise there wouldn’t be so many ‘self help sites’, ‘self help books’, psychologists, psychiatrists, etc., etc.
And otherwise this site, this project wouldn’t even exist. But my main issue is still that I’m not happy, that I’m not successful, that even somehow still fall deeper down, although somehow something seems to have changed recently, somehow there has been some ‘shift in energy’. But not enough and right now I still feel bad. And I still don’t see a way out.
And according to my team and according to all those ‘self help guru’s’ and movies and documentaries and books I need to come with some solution here, otherwise my article is incomplete, otherwise this site, this blog won’t be successful. And I guess from a readers point of view they are right. Or not? Wouldn’t there be a crowd who would still like to read my stuff, my complaints, my problems, my philosophical thoughts, etc., etc.
And I don’t want Inspiration for Success to be just another self help site. So yes, I guess somehow I have to go my own way, somehow I have to keep writing my own style, my own stuff. As apparently all those other sites and books and whatever also don’t have all the answers.
Yes, reading those articles and the advice is useful and often makes you, makes me feel better. But the more I read this stuff I’m starting to believe that in the end the only purpose of those sites, of those books of those e-mails I get every day are only a way to keep me, to keep you ‘hooked’.
And of course that’s also what I’m doing, what I want. Of course I also want you to read my stuff, and keep reading, and in the end preferably giving something back. But over time indeed, I realized more and more that basically I want to give, not receive. Except indeed the Universe doesn’t work that way. Somehow there needs to be balance. And somehow that’s what I feel, that’s what you may feel. That there is something out of balance, that the give and receive process is out of balance.
So let’s try to balance it.