Well, I think I learnt a lot about leadership yesterday. Major thing seems to be to take charge and make clear what is expected from team members. And thinking further of course being clear about what the direction is (of the project or venture or whatever). I guess this is behind the ‘power’ thing that kind of felt negative to me when I was thinking about leadership. But it’s not really about power in the sense of the fear related stuff, but it seems to be more about being clear about direction and what is to be expected and, as I’m starting to find out now, about consequences if you are not complying.
And that’s a sensitive subject again to me, consequences. As there is some very negative feeling in me related to ‘consequences’.
And now I feel a bit stuck on how to continue with this post as the title is leadership, but somehow leadership is related to fear within me. So it seems my perception about leadership and power and things like team or teamwork have some very negative vibrations about them. And it appears that is all about me, I guess about my experiences with leadership (=being the boss) in the past. Like bosses have power in a negative way.
Not sure where this comes from, but I guess it goes back to how my father treated me (or how I reacted to it). I know these things go back very, very far.
So maybe what is happening now is very good. Maybe I can finally let go of the negative feelings around leadership. And it all makes sense if I relate it also to the things Napoleon Hill writes in Think and Grow Rich about leadership.
And so maybe I can take my leadership role now in various aspects of my life. As I think I’m starting to understand why it all went wrong where I wanted to or was expected to take the lead. With my thinking of leadership as in ‘following from fear’ of course I instilled fear with my followers or staff members or team members (in Inspiration for Success). And that’s not what I wanted, but I guess unconsciously this whole thing played out like that. And of course I lost my followers.
So time for a new start, in business, in private life and in Inspiration for Success: being the leader as a leader should be: lead the project or the team in the right direction in the right way. From knowing where to go and inspiring people to join in that journey.
So let’s see how we can do that in this project further, creating something to inspire people. Maybe indeed first from this website, even though it’s not fully clear to me how.