I am still a bit in doubt how to continue with my posts. Main reason to continue writing my quite negative posts is that I believe in the end those pages will attract people in a similar situation like me, so the people searching for success, wanting or needing to be inspired for success.
Of course I hope that when people find those posts I have already moved on and live a much better life or hopefully the life I really want, think I deserve and need. For now that is not the case and maybe that is also good because if will make me write more about my current situation, my ‘down period’, so people, you, will know that it is really possible to go from here, from where i am now, to the life I really want and need.
So maybe just tell you guys what I actually feel at the moment, what is actually happening. Maybe just tell you that last year, the beginning of the second half, my partner left me, my business went even further down the drain and I literally felt I had nothing left anymore, nothing even left to live for. What made it even worse was that ten years before I was in exactly the same situation: my partner left, somehow in a similar way, I had lost my job and couldn’t find another and I not enough money to sustain my lifestyle, so couldn’t afford my house anymore.
So I was devastated and didn’t know what to do anymore and even considered suicide as I had nothing left and found I had not friends even, and no support network. And this time not even any serious financial backup, at least no money I could touch which I did have ten years ago. And no government support also as I live in The Philippines.
Somehow during that period someone gave me the book Think and Grow Rich, together with two other books and somehow that book impressed me. Not because of the ‘rich’ as my partner leaving me was a million times worse than having all the money in the world to me as to me love and relationship are the main things in life, not money or anything else.
So I started from the book and wrote my ‘main desire document’ and started from there. And found that many weird things started to happen, including me now believing that indeed ‘anything is possible’, literally anything. However, it has been a weird journey from then to now and the worst was that things started to become worse, much worse the end of last year until the beginning of this year. It is only recently that I am starting to believe that something positive is coming up, even though I am still very much emotionally distressed.
Anyhow, enough for now about this story I guess, although there is another related post in my mind for a few days now. A post about why I am where i am now and indeed, I think I recently started to realize how it all works.
For now my little inspiration for people in a similar situation like me for more than half a year now is to not give up, even if things are even getting worse. I’m not there yet, but somehow something positive is happening, so that’s what I want to share to inspire you: don”t give up.