Today we went shopping to a supermarket and again I was amazed with the abundance we can see all around us. And as my credit card still works we were able to buy all the things I wanted. And it was strange, as before I used to think about that I didn’t have enough money, didn’t have enough income and that kind of ruined our shopping. And I never understood my partner at that time. And maybe I’m stupid buying all this stuff today while I have no clue where to get the money to pay for it when my credit card is due. But no, I don’t think so, as I’m starting to see what the ideas of the Law of Attraction are about, or at least the ideas I got related to that from the 30 day law of attraction program.
You see, one of the things i realized was that it wouldn’t really make any difference whether I would worry about where to get the money or not. We need the stuff anyhow and also buying a few more things or a few more things of a more expensive brand won’t really change anything in our financial situation. And before of course I knew this also rationally. But I didn’t feel it and therefore often was very worried and negative going shopping. So besides not having the money, or not enough, or not enough in my perception, I just made things worse by focusing on that. So before that often ruined my day, my shopping, my mood, the mood of my partner and many more things.
And today was different, which was weird, as actually I’ve never been in a worse financial shape than now and I still don’t see any improvement in that either. And don’t get me wrong, I don’t like it and it does affect my life in a negative way in some way. But unlike before I am now starting to refuse to let it ruin my life, ruin my day. And this means also that I see many more positive things around me, like today again I saw the abundance in the supermarket, all the products that are there in quantities I or my partner and I or the people in our household even together with friends could never consume. And again I saw many people behind all this, the service staff and a bit of the supply chains behind all this, behind the ‘providing me my food and other daily needs’. And I can only see a small part, as while thinking about these things there are thousands and thousands, maybe even ten thousand or more people involved in providing me with the stuff we bought today.Those few boxes and plastic bags with household stuff like foods and toilet stuff and cleaning stuff.
And again, don’t get me wrong as I don’t know where this goes with my life and my finance and if this law of attraction stuff (crap?) saying something like that with more positive vibrations I attract more positive stuff. But while writing this somehow it does already. As there are visiting more people this house recently for example, and that’s one of the things I wanted. And I don’t have so many fights with my partner anymore.
And no matter what, no matter this little tiny voice in my mind somewhere saying i’m stupid with this overspending, I do feel happier and I did have a happier day seeing more positive things. And is it really overspending? I work hard enough and I would love to pay all the dues I have. But the work is just not paying enough (yet?) and other money is not flowing in yet, so indeed, why not have a more positive mindset and be happy. What can be wrong with that?
Yesterday I went to the mall and while in the mall, looking for somewhere to eat or while eating, suddenly it hit me how abundant life indeed is for almost every human being, but how more for me. You see, I have no money left in my bank account so I used my credit card, meaning someone was willing to give me money, even though I don’t have anymore myself. And I only took something like EUR 200.00 while my credit limit is something like EUR 2,500.00, so I could have gotten and still can get a lot more. So I felt rich with my PHP 10,000.00 that I got from the ATM, even though of course I know there are some drawbacks with this thing. But again, that is negative thinking, so yesterday I tried to look at the positive side and I really felt rich, really lived in the moment and I still do. So I got this PHP 10,000.00 from the ATM and realized how much equipment, capital, work, etc., etc. is behind this simple transaction. Because someone has put that money in the ATM so I could get it out. And someone is maintaining records somewhere in a computer to make my Credit Card work. Also people have built those programs and this infrastructure to make that all work. And I had and have nothing to do with that. It all happens without me, without me even really knowing, without me mostly even realizing. And it is not only now, but it also has a long history of people doing things, as those machines and stuff can only be built with metal and stuff, where metal making was invented long, long time ago. And all those programs have been built on other, more basic programs, also long time ago. And the infrastructure like cabling and buildings and whatever more you can think of has also been built, being created over a long time. So many, many people are being and have been involved in this little transaction of mine.