Yesterday I decided to let go of my planning and discipline and fully enjoy a day and spend time with my partner. And also today I was not able or willing to go back to what has suited me so well for the last few weeks. And I don’t feel guilty about it as I know I’m going to pick it up again soon, probably tomorrow.
What is more worrisome is that this morning I felt very tired and couldn’t get out of bed, couldn’t get my day started. And it appears it is mostly or fully physical. And I don’t like that as I somehow believe, want to believe in the ideas of Abraham Hicks, the idea of the Law of Attraction. So it seems I am calling this tiredness I feel upon myself. And that makes me feel guilty. And that doesn’t really help make me feel better.
And this depression type feeling is very hard, as when I’m in that mood it is virtually impossible to get out of it, even though rationally I know e.g. that during the day, after I get up, things will improve, mostly. Although the last didn’t really happen today as right now I still feel very tired and it’s even very hard to keep my mind with the writing as I’m kind of feeling like almost falling asleep.
So what am I resisting? Or is this all bullshit and I am just physically ill, just have my hay fever as I had most of my life.
Ah, well, yes, even for these cases Abraham Hicks has some solution. As he teaches something like if you are in ‘that place’, in a place where you don’t feel very well and can’t seem to get out of it, it is just best to look for the feeling that is still ‘the best’, but then related to that situation.
So let’s try that and just stop now, here and just look for the feeling that is ‘the best’ I can reach right now. And that would probably be just to watch some TV and do nothing really.
Enjoy your day!