I feel like I’m still in a bit a weird situation that somehow I create myself:
- I know what I want, but it will take (quite) some time and effort to get there.
- I found a way to do small things every day and finish them.
- I noticed that I am able to finish all the small tasks I put to myself.
The main issue I’m dealing with right now is that I cannot see a direct connection between the small steps I’m making and the main goal I want to achieve.
What I also notice is that I often cannot find a proper ‘reward’ when I have finished a small step. I also notice that I’m sometimes satisfied after finishing a small task, but often also not.
So I’m very successful at finishing small tasks, where most of these tasks I think are in the direction of my goal, but I don’t feel satisfied.
I guess the answer lies in ‘planning’, but I found I’m not very good at that yet.
Maybe the main issue is that I did not found a way to deal with things that are beyond my control. Things that I feel may make all the small steps ‘useless’.
Another thing is there is an awful pile of ‘unfinished business’ to deal with. I decided to put it aside for now which I think is a good decision, however, it’s still there and somehow it’s still bothering me. Some progress also there though, as it’s not really growing anymore and I am working on a decision to try to make it smaller in very small steps.
And still, I believe virtually anything can be achieved.
So what’s the real issue here?
Thinking further, issues seem to be ‘too much to deal with as of the moment’ and ‘finding a way to relax while on the way, at the beginning of the road, with a lot of unfinished business from the past’.