“I am planning better now and am finding the right way of taking action in a relaxed way”.
In the end I will not share my desire document, but what is stated above statement is part of it. And again, the moment I wrote it, it was something impossible to me. And while writing this, this post, I am starting to realize that it is becoming part of me, has become part of me. So again, creating a desire document and reading it aloud regularly, in the beginning, or irregularly, like today, is something unimaginably powerful.
As today I was at the end of everything as my goal was that everybody, especially me, would be happy today, tonight. And I had no clue how to reach that. So even when the party tonight really started I was kind of desperate, as my own happiness was nowhere to be seen, even though I had talked to some people about what was bothering me. But somehow I didn’t feel good about it as I was scared that it would turn people off, would spoil their experience, their happiness tonight. Still, I was so full of what was going on and I didn’t like that I couldn’t keep my mouth shut. And I guess in the end that turned out to be the good thing, especially as I guess I talked to the right people who appeared to be understanding.
Still, somewhere tonight, just before the beginning of the party I still didn’t feel alright and wanted to withdraw, run away. And somehow I ended up in the bedroom and went back to things like goals. And of course my goals are in my desire document and my desire document has become kind of the guideline of my life. So even though I didn’t feel anything like ‘desire document’ I decided to still read it, even though I didn’t really feel it.
And just like mostly, or virtually always, or always in this type of situation my desire document gives me some kind of direction, some kind of peace, some kind of goal. So also tonight.
As even though I didn’t really feel the stuff that is written in it, it always give me something to hold on, there are always parts of it that I can feel and relate to.
And every time I read it, power is added to it. And power is added to me. Somehow it boosts my self confidence, always, no matter how bad the situation is. And I think one of the most powerful things of a desire document is not changing it, no matter how bad things get. As I see it slowly become reality and slowly all the ‘buts’ and ‘ifs’ don’t seem to belong there anymore.