I am more and more amazed with myself, as it seems I am having more and more self confidence and seem to know myself much better than before. And strange, to put the label ‘visionary’ on yourself, as to me visionaries are very important successful people and I am not, or at least not yet. And also you don’t put positive labels like ‘visionary’ on yourself as ‘doing normal, then you do good enough’ as the Dutch say (and I am Dutch and grew up like that).
But I am more and more confirmed that indeed I am a visionary, like today a friend even confirmed that. And before I always wanted to be a manager, as I thought that was a leader, and as I thought as I know now, that is what I was supposed to be as that is how I feel and felt. But people didn’t see me as a manager and as I know now I am not a manager, at least not a good one. And I am not sure I am a leader, but I guess in the end at least the term visionary fits and knowing that makes me feel much more comfortable as now I don’t ‘have to’ be a manager or a leader. I can just be myself.
So what my partner always said and apparently saw is that indeed I didn’t know myself well enough. And everything around me seems to confirm that my new role, my new title fits me better than anything before. As somehow people are starting to listen to me, are starting to take me seriously. And the strange thing is that my ideas are more crazy than ever, even more crazy than I could ever imagine. But somehow it fits, somehow I am, I have to be this crazy guy with these crazy ideas. And I am not ashamed of that anymore and I understand more why people have difficulty understanding and following these things. As they are just built differently, built to be a manager, or maybe a worker or a leader. And not a visionary, not the crazy guy.
And yes, all of this makes me much happier. And it shows.