I’m in day 16 of my thirty day Law of Attraction program and it seems I’m attracting many things I don’t want. Our internet is not working properly and not only one connection but two, as we have two internet connections. This completely doesn’t make sense, although the cause and result may be related somehow, probably are. And we just found out our refrigerator doesn’t work properly anymore, or doesn’t work at all. Also doesn’t make sense as it’s not that old, something like five years, and in my experience a refrigerator lasts ten years or even many years more. We even have a small one that’s probably twenty years old.

So what does this all mean? Probably nothing, but it has a very bad effect on my mood, and my mood wasn’t that good already deep own as I still didn’t find work, or at least enough work to just support myself and our household doesn’t need that much money in Western standards. Something like EUR 1.000,= or USD 1,300.00 or so is enough for us to survive and even have things like a TV card for our satellite TV and some ‘rum and coke’ in the evening and such.

So I’m kind of lost what to do. And according to the Law of Attraction I probably shouldn’t do anything as I’m completely not inspired to do things. So maybe I just keep doing the wrong thing like trying to do it all myself and not trust ‘The Universe‘ or whatever.

So should I write this post? Not sure, but it still makes me feel successful if I do the tasks I intended to do and one of those is to write a daily post here, send an inspirational quote once a day except on Sunday, write my blessings in my Dutch blog and write a post there also.

And recently I basically finished all the things i intended to do for the day and I prefer to keep doing that as it also makes me feel kind of successful. But today that is or was not easy, as there were some internet related things that are very hard to finish without a decent internet connection, although I think I figured out now how to use one of our connections properly which is also why I am able to write this post now. And i also figured out I think why both connections don’t work or don’t work properly. It seems to be a combination of things starting with just bad wireless signals for both connections. And this may have just one cause, something like a change in the environment related to radio signals. That still doesn’t explain why our refrigerator broke down, but even that my be related to some kind of change in the environment (or my vibration of course if you think in terms of Law of Attraction.

Anyhow, so what’s inspiring about all this? I have no clue and mostly I just write what’s in my mind as you may know, although I do have some higher goals with this website. But what if there is just not enough money flowing your way like in my case? It’s just no fun. And I’ve figured out it has indeed nothing to do with working hard or something as I’ve worked hard most of my life. Working clever maybe, but I’m quite intelligent, so that also can’t be the thing that affects ‘enough’ money coming your way.

And I changed my mind about money recently, so I’m not really worried anymore. But my/our debts are getting bigger and bigger and as of the moment I think I even have to use my credit card limit to just pay our daily needs (which was in my mind for quite a while already, so in terms of Law of Attraction it may not be that weird what’s happening). But at least I’m not borrowing anymore from the place i borrowed before and which I think now was kind of a mistake even though I don’t know exactly how I should or could have done it differently, looking back.

And I’m getting a bit drunk now as I just started my second ‘rum-and-coke’, so I’m not sure if it’s still all interesting what I’m writing, but they say drunk people speak the truth, so I guess I do now more, even though normally I’m not really lying or something. Often I just don’t say things i maybe should say and I figured out that’s also kind of lying.

So anyhow, I have no clue where to go from here financially and I really need some money for my daily needs and for the things I’m dreaming about and I think I (and Abraham Hicks) think I should have. I did plant a lot of seeds though, so I hope one or some of them will finally start to grow and also make it possible to at least support myself and my partner, pay back my loans (you have no clue how much I hate lending money) and finally get my Pajero, my cruise, some holiday and just some other enjoyable things.

Anyhow, I like to work and I know a lot about web programming and Internet Marketing, so you would really make me happy to put some work my way related to that. And in the end I don’t even mind if I get paid or not as I just like to do it, so if I can help you with that kind of stuff please let me know.

Ah, and I found something weird. I always try to serve my customers and do everything they want as I think that is how a business should work. So I presumed i could also find some people or businesses to do some job I need done. And I just can’t find anybody. It’s related to Search Engine Optimization and I get a million offers for that every day by e-mail. But when I send my little request they can’t do it. Weird.

So if you have something to do for me I can help you with, and yes, i also can’t do everything, like the job I tried to outsource, please let me know. To me it’s still better to do something for someone else than to work on my own projects like Real Estate Philippines that I started today, that don’t really have value, at least that’s what I think.

Enough for today I guess, and even if it’s not inspiring for you, writing all this made me feel better, so at least someone got better from it.

Thanks for reading!

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