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Breakdown

I think the thirty day program is not as accidental as I thought as the daily stuff seems to relate what is happening to many people and indeed might have happened to Esther Hicks when she made it, presuming she made the thirty day program.

A recent valuable suggestion was:

Well you reach for the thought that feels best of what youve got to work with.So the crazy out of your mind though doesnt feel good. The mad thought feels doesnt feel as good but the not so mad thought is the best you can do. So you reach for the thought that feels best where you are. – Abraham Hicks

And that’s a bit what I was encountering yesterday and more today. I was just down as things don’t yet turn out as I wanted or expected them to be. And I couldn’t find a way to be really happy, be really enthusiastic or something. So I didn’t really knew where to go and this text helps as it indicates quite logically that you can’t go from ‘completely unhappy, unsatisfied’ to ‘completely happy and satisfied’. So this thinking indeed gave me a bit of peace.

And it seems the most important thing indeed is to shift to the positive side, no matter what and no matter how little. And as you may know I’m still struggling with ‘positive’ and ‘negative’, but that’s also exactly what the teachings of Abraham Hicks say: there is no positive without negative. How can we ever know what we do want if we don’t know what we don’t want.

And indeed one more thing about these things, these teachings and that’s what I felt today. I indeed believe that it is of no use to do whatever you can think of if you do it from a negative mindset, although as of the moment I am still in quite a negative state of mind and am still writing this post.

But indeed, while writing now too long I feel writing further goes nowhere. So I’ll leave it with this, but I hope it is useful to you.

Happy and tired

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Well, I’m in a weird phase at the moment. Many things kind of came to a stop in kind of a ‘finished’ state, like ‘nothing more to do’, like ‘I’ve done my part, no ‘someone’ or ‘something’ needs to do the rest. But while writing maybe that’s what my whole process of the last year, or even of my life until now was all about. I’ve done so many things, ‘fought’ so hard for all kinds of things, mainly success or money and recently relationship. And now slowly I have something like ‘I’ve done enough’.

So maybe indeed let the Universe handle things now a bit more. Maybe indeed I do deserve a bit of rest. And no, I don’t want to stop working, doing things, hell no. I’ve been there around ten years ago and when I started working again around eight years ago I was so happy having some purpose in my life again. So no, I still want to do things. But as of now I don’t know exactly for whom or what, but I do know I planted many seeds, so hopefully something comes out of it. Or actually, logically speaking, something ‘must’ come out of it.

Anyhow, actually I just wanted to let you all know that today I was really happy. It was one of the first times i roamed around in the mall and in City Hardware enjoying all the stuff there, even though i don’t have the physical money at the moment to buy anything, although I could still use the credit limit on my credit card. But that’s not the point. I was just happy seeing all this abundance, just wanting it, just allowing myself to want it. And it felt so good. And I realized that I have been limiting myself, that I have always thought like ‘it’s too expensive’ or ‘I (or you) have to work hard for it’. But I’m starting to realize that’s not true. No one can work for all the abundance that is in the world today. No one could hardly ‘make’ one simple little thing that is for sale in shops. So it’s not in how much you earn or something. We and all people before us and maybe even ‘nature’ before us made it possible that we have all those things today and can just go to a shop and ‘buy’ it.

So I’m starting to believe more and more that it’s about finding ways to distribute all the stuff we are capable of making (and owning, using). And maybe indeed just ‘allowing’ ourselves to want it, to own it, to find a way to ‘get it’, ‘receive it’.

And I’m still not fully sure how that ‘receiving’ exactly works, but there is much more to all those things I read related to things like Law of Attraction than i initially thought.

To be continued…

P.S. And yes, I somehow felt tired today. But not so much anymore. So I’ll write about that another time.

Leadership

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Well, I think I learnt a lot about leadership yesterday. Major thing seems to be to take charge and make clear what is expected from team members. And thinking further of course being clear about what the direction is (of the project or venture or whatever). I guess this is behind the ‘power’ thing that kind of felt negative to me when I was thinking about leadership. But it’s not really about power in the sense of the fear related stuff, but it seems to be more about being clear about direction and what is to be expected and, as I’m starting to find out now, about consequences if you are not complying.

And that’s a sensitive subject again to me, consequences. As there is some very negative feeling in me related to ‘consequences’.

And now I feel a bit stuck on how to continue with this post as the title is leadership, but somehow leadership is related to fear within me. So it seems my perception about leadership and power and things like team or teamwork have some very negative vibrations about them. And it appears that is all about me, I guess about my experiences with leadership (=being the boss) in the past. Like bosses have power in a negative way.

Not sure where this comes from, but I guess it goes back to how my father treated me (or how I reacted to it). I know these things go back very, very far.

So maybe what is happening now is very good. Maybe I can finally let go of the negative feelings around leadership. And it all makes sense if I relate it also to the things Napoleon Hill writes in Think and Grow Rich about leadership.

And so maybe I can take my leadership role now in various aspects of my life. As I think I’m starting to understand why it all went wrong where I wanted to or was expected to take the lead. With my thinking of leadership as in ‘following from fear’ of course I instilled fear with my followers or staff members or team members (in Inspiration for Success). And that’s not what I wanted, but I guess unconsciously this whole thing played out like that. And of course I lost my followers.

So time for a new start, in business, in private life and in Inspiration for Success: being the leader as a leader should be: lead the project or the team in the right direction in the right way. From knowing where to go and inspiring people to join in that journey.

So let’s see how we can do that in this project further, creating something to inspire people. Maybe indeed first from this website, even though it’s not fully clear to me how.

Prosperity

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I have been reading more about the thirty day Law of Attraction program of Abraham Hicks. And one side of me says ‘just another self help program that made the person originating it rich and famous’. But another part of me says that there is a lot to focusing on the positive, focusing on abundance and prosperity. And maybe the main thing that lets me believe that ‘working hard’ will bring prosperity is not true is that most of my life I have been working hard, harder than average. And it didn’t bring me success, it didn’t bring me prosperity, it didn’t bring me happiness. At least not in the end.

Yes, I had good jobs and earned a lot. And during those days I was financially well of, quite well of. Not rich, but more than average rich, especially as i am gay and had a partner who also worked, so we were in the ‘double income no kids’ group. So yes, basically we were well of and I was happy with it.

But looking back something didn’t add up. As I had to work hard and do all kinds of things that didn’t suit me as a person to keep my job (= my income) and my partner. And because I was doing those things ‘forced’ in the end I lost everything. Yes, that’s what I believe now.

And the same thing happened again to me last year. Again I worked hard to have an income and keep my partner. And again it was not enough. And again it didn’t add up.

And don’t get me wrong, I did like my jobs, my work and I loved and liked my partners. But something didn’t add up and it seems those Law of Attraction type thoughts make more sense than ‘work hard and you will get’.

So no, I don’t have the answers yet and I still feel i’m in a very shitty situation. But I’m going to give this positive thinking, this ‘feeling’, this ‘vibrating’ stuff a chance. As the ‘working hard’ stuff didn’t work out for me, never.

And indeed, also logically, rationally the whole thing of ‘work hard and everything will be OK’ doesn’t add up. Look at nature and everything. Nature is all about abundance, about ‘waste’ about too much of everything.

So there is enough, there must be enough, also for me, for me to do the things I want to do, for me to enjoy life.

To be continued…

More Master Mind

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Yeah, yesterday I got hit very hard by a friend of mine. And I don’t even know him that well, but I think I can call him a friend now as he just told me the plain truth in a way that i understood. Not many people do that, so I am really happy that I found a new friend, at least I hope he won’t let me down after I disappointed him.

So it seems connecting to people is not my strength, maybe even is my biggest weakness or one of my biggest weaknesses. And I don’t understand, because “I’m just me, just like everybody else”. But they also say that everybody has this side where are things he just doesn’t see, just doesn’t understand and doesn’t even realize it.

So what to do now, as my friend told me to focus on my strengths, on what i’m good at and not to bother so much on learning things I’m not so good at or focusing on them. But i also know that I can learn and that areas where I’m not good at I can become good at. Long time ago my boss told me that I”m not service oriented, which I didn’t understand. Later on another boss told me I’m so much service oriented. And I know maybe I gave part of me away in that turn around, but still, it was and is a compliment to be called service oriented while before I was not.

So I guess I’ll look for a middle way, like focusing on my strengths and indeed do the things I’m good at which I just did today. And it made me happy and I was happily surprised that after giving the best I could I was tired and was able to rest, could allow myself to rest, which I didn’t do for a long time.

So what’s inspiring in this quote? I guess just to be yourself and be happy with it, with your strengths and weaknesses. And indeed maybe focus on your strengths and make other people happy with it and not worry too much about your weaknesses. But that doesn’t mean you can’t improve also on your weaknesses. Just don’t be hard on yourself, especially don’t be too hard on yourself. We’re all just who we are and that OK, that’s OK enough, that’s just good, that’s just fine.