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Internet 2014

One needs a lot of persistence when creating a post from an iPhone as that is what I am doing right now as both our internet service providers seem to have given up to provide us with proper internet using a fixed wireless connection. This is very weird to me as one provider has provided us already with a proper connection since 2006, but it seems in 2014 they can’t anymore. And the other one was not as good, but in general faster, but they also gave up and even disconnected us waiting for new technology to be installed which will probably will take months. I’ll try the same with my customers and I’m quite sure within a week I won’t have customers anymore. In the mean time not sure what to do as running an internet company and blog daily without internet is not easy. And this again is what they call progress, but to me still embarrassing to the industry as even having a backup connection doesn’t seem to be enough. But yes, the post is there but the whole thing is not really inspiring to me.

All the same, all branded

I am in Dumaguete now and it used to be a very laid back provincial town. And I am in a branded internet cafe with very irritating advertising on the bottom of the screen.

So I’m just going to leave.

And I did and I think it was kind of offensive to the staff, against Philippine culture. And I’m not sure if the staff got the point as I just kind of ran past them mumbling something about being annoyed with the advertizing.

But apparently Infinite Intelligence had something else, something good for me, even though I was quite stunned the person who I have been talking with for a few hours right now just left after I went to the bathroom. And I didn’t even get his name and was not able to give him my business card, my contact details. So yes, weird, but that’s how Infinite Intelligence often works, in ways you don’t understand, but that in the end serve some purpose.

So I left Robinsons mall very quickly after my being annoyed with the advertising on the screen in Netopia, which is actually a famous brand and yes, the type of professional business I want to have. And this whole thing made me think more about being successful as described by Napoleon Hill and the way that is being implemented by many companies at the moment doesn’t seem the way as intended, like serving customers, serving people.

So what I see around me are all big brands, big companies having all kinds of procedures and policies in place and having employees who are supposed to work like robots implementing and following all those procedures and policies and having little room for ‘person-to-person’ interaction. And maybe The Philippines is worse in this respect than e.g. The Netherlands, the country where I was born, but I also have noticed this more and more in The Netherlands and surrounding countries, that there are mainly procedures and policies and laws being implemented and that there is no more room for making decisions by people, basically making any business type communication and negotiation impossible.

And that’s what I don’t like, being treated like, well like a part of the system, like a request being handled, maybe even like a problem being dealt with. And I’m not sure what the ‘handling’ staff think about it, but when I ask most of the staff of those organizations implementing those procedures and policies while servicing clients also don’t like it. As also at HSBC where a few days ago I couldn’t deposit a check for a bank-to-bank transfer from my account at RCBC Savings Bank to my account at HSBC. And yes, their reason was very valid based on preventing of white washing practices. But from a human point of view it was very weird as I was there in person with a check in my name from an account to my name with a Philippine drivers license in my name. So any reasonable thinking employee would know that this transfer was just a transfer from my own account to another of my accounts in another bank. And yes, theoretically it probably could be a transaction in a money laundering scheme, but taking that the check just had an amount that would add my balance to my minimum balance and I even explained to the staff that that was the reason and that I didn’t want to have so much cash with me, which is also understandable. And no, I don’t carry my passport with my visa stamp in it all the time, as normally I wouldn’t need it and try to avoid the risk of losing it. So yes, I do bring my drivers license that fits in my wallet and also confirms I’m a Philippine resident as you can only have a Philippine drivers license if you are a resident.

Anyhow, I’m still not sure how to improve the system, as my mistake in the check was a real mistake that should be filtered out by a procedure. Although even there, as stated in my earlier post, who would care about one peso in the end if it is an obvious mistake (or wasn’t it?).

But while writing this, again, I feel like in all this consumer type business has become too anonymous, too much about presuming people have bad intentions instead of just serving customers in a human, person-to-person, personal way.

And it seems that organizations, the large organizations that have proceduralized everything, seem to forget that people have the ability to think and have the ability to make good decisions. And the people, the employees, seem to have forgotten also that they can think and make decisions, and oppose to the procedures that are just too much, or maybe more oppose to the too strict implementation of those procedures.

Looking forward to your thoughts on this, or maybe you can at least talk about it, as we are all involved in this, as an employee, customer or otherwise.

 

Iwa

Be careful with what you hate or don’t want:

Iwa

You may get it.

Sweet isn’t she?

Music

Recently I started playing music again, mainly because for a year or so now we have a sound system again after the other sound system broke down. And everything I use it I think of that I/we can’t actually afford it and that buying a 3D TV again was kind of stupid, but still, I enjoy the TV and the sound system a lot, or actually the sound system as I always liked to play music, loud music.

And recently I often play music from my student years, but also from the nineties, which I consider actually my best time as then I traveled the world and we went long weekends to Berlin and Paris and such. And somehow that was a good time, even though also then I had problems, especially during my student time I had big problems. And in my relationship, when I traveled the world, there was also some deep underlying problem that finally caused the relationship to collapse.

And playing the music brought back memories, together with just enjoying the music and some new insights like how much ‘organized effort’ is behind just one recording, behind one CD, behind a tour of a band. And how different times are now, how different I am now. And somehow I miss that time, as things were much clearer, rules were much clearer, life was much clearer. In the eighties and nineties I still had just my dreams on times getting better, getting better jobs, getting more money, things improving over time. And that was also my perception of life, that if you just did your best, if your intentions were (are?) good, that everything was just OK, everything would just be OK.

And right now I don’t know anymore. I don’t really know anymore what’s right and wrong. I don’t really know anymore what I’m supposed to do from a worldly point of view. As ‘work’ and ‘money’ or ‘wealth’ were supposed to be just a part of life, were just things you didn’t really think about, even though I had some bad experiences with work. But at that time my ideas didn’t really changed. I believed that if you just pushed through and just did your best, in terms of this site if you just followed the Principles of Success, everything would be OK, at least in the material world. But it isn’t it wasn’t. Somehow the rules changed. Somehow life is different now than at that time. And I still can’t figure out what and how and what I’m supposed to do or even could do to get those things back that I enjoyed and kind of dreamed about, still dream about.

And I have the feeling I’m complaining again as many people seem to experience with me. But that’s not my point. I’m just trying to find my way in life, just as you are trying to find your way in life and life doesn’t suit me, doesn’t fit me, as probably it doesn’t suit you, doesn’t fit you, although of the last of course I can’t be sure. As many people still somehow seem to fit in and don’t struggle as much as i do. But I’m not sure.

And my partner is always complaining that I’m talking about ‘me’. And other people also do. And what I’m reading in most articles and self help books and quotes is that you first need to focus on others, first help others. And that seems to work as most of the people writing that stuff seem to be successful, at least more successful than I am. But it just doesn’t feel right, as to me it mostly feels there is not enough coming back to me, that I’m giving and giving and giving and there is not enough coming back. That the balance is gone. So maybe indeed follow what some people in the same range of articles and blogs and quotes say, that you should also take care of yourself. Or think of what the bible state, love the other the same as you love yourself. It does not state love the other more than yourself or take care of the other more than you take care of yourself. And that’s what I often do, at least that’s how it feels to me. That I do more for others than I do for myself. And that I do more for others than they do for me, where I somehow deep inside believe there should be balance.

But while writing this I also think again about what was in my head when I started to write this article. And that was that when listening to my music tonight I realized that in that simple playing of music an awful lot of stuff is going back to me,  is given to me. The effort of the writer or writers who wrote the song. The effort of the band or the singer to sing the song and play the music. The whole history of TV making, CD making, computer making, internet and whatever else is involved in playing this music from my hard disk. That all is available to me, is coming to me, coming back to me.

And that’s awesome. And at such a moment I want to give back. But then it seems nobody wants what I have to give, what I can give. And then I’m kind of back to square one in my thinking, in my guilt not being able to afford all those things. But on the other hand, it’s just there and somehow it’s given to me, no matter how and what. So better enjoy it.

Clarity

Nice, having one of the team members visiting, for two reasons. The first because I just enjoy philosophizing a bit in general and of course about Inspiration for Success, about what I want to achieve, in life, for the world. And second because this was the time to ask him why he and the other team members don’t spend any time on the project anymore, at least not any visible effort. And part of the answer was because the project doesn’t pay now, there is no financial return as of the moment. And that amazed me a bit as I though I never promised any quick return and certainly no money as I thought each of the team members knows or could have know I don’t have money to invest, at least not for this project, even though it may be even the most important project in my life as of the moment.

And on my question why he has not fulfilled his promises, like writing monthly a certain amount of content, the answer was basically the same: I am not being paid for this, so this has low priority. And this answer amazed me a bit as to me a promise is a promise, while to him apparently a business promise (with contract and payment and such) is a promise and a non-business promise is, well, I don’t know, but something that can be broken relatively easy. And this surprised me, as to me a promise is a promise, whether business or private. And I don’t make so much difference between business and private.

And somewhere during the conversation we came to talk about some business problem I have, which has some similarities with the team issues in Inspiration for Success as I don’t understand why the customer doesn’t make a decision, while in my opinion he is putting his business in danger by having a kind of undefined situation with his website, basically meaning I could cut him off any moment if I want to, which would put him in a very difficult position as his business is, at least in my opinion, in a large part dependent on his website. But somehow he doesn’t seem to realize, where e.g. my team doesn’t seem to realize that my commitment on receiving one million dollar for each of the team members on or before October 19, 2014 was and still is a very serious statement and commitment, which in my opinion was also my ‘giving’ part of the business deal for their effort for Inspiration for Success, especially for their activities, their promises for contributing regularly to the website.

And suggestion of my team member today related to my issue with this customer was just to make a clear statement and ask him to make a decision as I am fully lost what this customer wants from me while I have the feeling I gave him everything and more and have the best solution for him, while at the moment his is even shopping around for other solutions, which business wise does not make any sense to me for all kinds of reasons (and I think I know what I’m talking about here). But maybe my team member was right, maybe it is just not clear to him where he stands. Maybe I was and am not clear enough.

And the same may apply to my team, to my team members. Maybe I was not clear enough about my statement about the one million dollar each, where today I heard they probably didn’t believe it. And yes, I can imagine they don’t believe it, but my statement was very serious and my related desire document was also very serious, even though the last few weeks, months I didn’t read it aloud anymore. But yes, today’s conversation made clear I need to take these things seriously again myself. And be more clear what I want and what I stand for.

So also question to you: are you clear and do you know what you stand for? And do other people know?