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Change in energy

A few days ago I read about a (spiritual) change in energy someone felt. And I think I can also feel it, I also felt it the last few days, the last few weeks. Something seems to have changed for the good, in the world. And it doesn’t change in one setting, it doesn’t change from ‘bad’ to ‘good’ in one switch, in one instant. As the last week I felt kind of terrible and it just started to change back to ‘good’ yesterday or the day before. And yesterday and today I also still didn’t feel fully OK, especially after waking up.

Fish

But tonight, while doing my ‘IFS‘ things I slowly started to feel the peace, the sounds of nature, the insects within the quiet, the things here that are so beautiful, that make this place kind of into heaven. And I still miss to share that, share that again. But now from a positive perspective, from peace, from ‘positive being’ and not from fear and worry as I used to do before. And it’s weird as I have no clue how to get there. I know now more what I want, more than ever. But practically spoken it is further from me than ever at the same time. ‘Reality’ tells me, or better ‘people’ tell me that I need to be real, that I need to be practical. And maybe I should, maybe I’m just heading towards more trouble, more towards things I don’t want.

But somehow I think more and more that I should stick to what I want, to my dreams, not give up, but be persistent, be patient. As I see more and more who I am. And that maybe I’m just a dreamer, someone who doesn’t (want to) see ‘reality’. But where would we be without dreamers, without dreams. We would still walk in animal skins or maybe even be more like animals, like apes. We would not have our daily food and other needs being given to us, and that even applies to virtually all poor people as who in the world still caters for 100% for their own food and clothes and other basic needs? And we wouldn’t have gone to the moon and there wouldn’t be cars and planes, let alone medicines. So yes, the more I think about it, the more I read about it, everything, literally everything we see around us, literally everything we are started with a dream, a thought. So should I stop dreaming, should you stop dreaming, even if it’s about things that people tell us is not ‘reality’. But we create reality, reality consists just of beliefs that have been practiced (Abraham Hicks) or the choices humanity and Infinite Intelligence or God or the Universal Consciousness made, choices you and I make.

So let’s keep dreaming. And in my own experience the more I dream, the more I want(ed) things for myself, the more I also realized in the end I (also) want to give. Yes, I want to stay in this house and yes, I like the house also because I like to show off with a big house. But I also want to share the place, invite friends, family, maybe even strangers as the place is so beautiful and it’s typically a place, a house to share. And yes, I want a big car, a black Pajero, big and that type because it’s expensive and I want to show off. But the more I thought and think about it I mainly want a car so I can move around again and visit friends or go to the beach with the dogs and (sometimes) with friends, just to enjoy, enjoy life. And to just go to the city, to be able to roam around easier, for business and pleasure. And yes, some money, not money for the money, but just money to buy new shoes and new clothes and some new stuff for my partner. And to repair the house as it’s so sad to see such a beautiful house fall apart, a house where there have been so many parties and so many people enjoyed the view and each others company. And yes, some money to just buy the food and drinks to create those parties, as at the moment I’m too embarrassed to invite anybody, in the house as it is and without proper food and drinks worthy of the house, and of course of the people.

And some simple things like a camera. Just a simple one. Not for myself as I don’t like taking pictures. But just to be able to take some pictures to share on this site, like the water system pictures I need for the first real proper page I made and I can’t finish right now because I can’t make the pictures I want to put.

And I feel guilty now, as asking things like this is ‘not done’, especially not for yourself. What crazy world do we live in, that we limit each other for ‘having’ things. What’s wrong with wanting a Pajero, or even a Rolls-Royce, but the last I don’t even want. Or wanting a big house or, indeed a lot of money. Why do we deny these things to each other. These things we all want. Where did we ever create the idea that it’s ‘bad’ to want things, material things. And why would we need to ‘earn’ these things through ‘hard work’. Again, the more I think about it it’s just crazy. Neither of us is even able to create a simple breakfast on his or her own. That is why we organized the world into what it now is. And this is the first time in history I believe we, as humanity, have the (technical) knowledge and ability to produce virtually anything that anybody would want or need. And we stick with this outdated ‘earning’ and ‘work hard’ thing.

I am dying to give my services to people, to develop websites and web applications and do some internet marketing so things can be ‘found’ on the internet by people looking for stuff or information. And all around me I see companies, shops, dying to sell their stuff. Supermarkets are full of food and anything else what anybody could even imagine. And, I think I’m repeating myself, most of the things I see around me I don’t need and don’t even want. So the idea of scarcity, that there is not enough for everybody is just a thought, just a perception. And it may be true there is not enough, as I don’t know figures about needs and wants of people and production capacity available or needed to produce all of that.

But even if it is true I’m quite sure technically we could produce, create everything anybody would want or need. So yes, I’m really to believe in these ideas about abundance, that there is enough for everybody and that that all can be done without harming other people or the environment.

So let’s find a way out of this mess, this way of thinking of ‘scarcity’ and the idea that people are greedy and want ‘everything’. I’m quite sure most people are like me, and don’t want everything that’s availalbe in supermarket or anywhere else.

How I want to give service and how I want to be paid

I have been thinking a lot about how to be paid. And related to that of course about how to give service and what service to give. And I decided that I want people, I want you, to pay me the amount you think my service is worth to you, to people. That’s all. And that’s how I want the business model, the payment model of Inspiration for Success to be. Just pay us what you think it’s worth, what makes you happy to pay.

And I think that’s a good payment model as I would know if I am, we are, giving good service to you. And as of the moment my conclusion is that I’m not giving good service to you, to the world as not may people go to our site and as far as I know not many people have paid.

But keep in mind there’s a catch, because if you came this far in this post it means I have been writing something of value to you. So if you’re not happy paying me for the value of my effort writing this post, building this site and doing the other things we have in mind for the brand Inspiration for Success, then please stop reading right now. As if you would continue reading there would be value here, otherwise you would have stopped reading and left the page. So then it should make you feel happy to give something back to me, to pay me.

And I know this is not how the world works right now, at least not for me and probably also not for you. Because I have the feeling we’re living in a world of ‘give and take’ and not in a world of ‘give and receive’. And I think we can do better. Because I also have the feeling I have given a lot. And I didn’t receive much. Meaning either I didn’t give any service to you, to other people, or they didn’t see what I gave them or they don’t appreciate what I did and do.

So if you came this far I would like to ask you what you consider the value of these few paragraphs for you. Is it one cent? Ten cents? One dollar maybe? Or even more if I gave you some idea or made you move? Or you were just enjoying what I have written here? Or you think it’s just bullshit and just think I’m crazy?

And I don’t mind the answer, or actually I do, because if would help me build my life, build this site, build my business better. But keep in mind, if you came this far in this post there must have been something of value here. So it might make you happy to give something in return.

What’s next

Yeah, what’s next. No real customer requests today. And while writing this I realize that somehow there is an enormous abundance in the world of people wanting to do something. As I’m quite sure all those people demonstrating e.g. in Syria are just looking for jobs and I guess most people don’t want a job only for the money, but also want a job to have something to do. Or not? Maybe I should check some statistics for that.

So how can we organize better that we can do the things we love to do and give that effort to others and the other way around? I mean, I have plenty of time and a lot of drive to do things and I’m quite sure there are a lot of people who would like to receive the things I can do for them.

So how can we find each other?

Google, and people

Well, not easy to get a web project like Inspiration for Success mainly is at the moment going. The website is about five months old and has no real traffic which I kind of expected, but not really this bad. You see, the main issue with websites and building them right or for the right audience is also getting feedback. And until now I/we don’t get much feedback, neither in the form of friends commenting nor in the form of people visiting the site, let alone people leaving comments.

And I know the site, especially the pages part is not of high quality yet. And maybe I underestimated the competition on words like ‘inspiration’ and ‘success’ and the ‘looking for self help’ type texts as I think I wrote in the form of my blog items.

And I also know that if I push through, if we push through, in the end we will be successful in building this site, in doing other things to inspire people. As that is what I needed and need so badly, someone or something inspiring me, as i feel like I never really had that. And I guess there are many people like me, having no supportive father or family. And please don’t get me wrong. I don’t feel supported the way I wanted to, the way I think I needed support. It doesn’t mean my father or family was not supportive. They were, but not in the way I needed it.

So here I am, writing again my daily post, and not really feeling inspired, let alone inspiring.

So what would inspire me? Well, I guess very simple. Just some feedback, any feedback, either comments in the site, but you can also e-mail me: guus@inspiration-for-success.com.

Breakdown or breakthrough?

I’m in day 16 of my thirty day Law of Attraction program and it seems I’m attracting many things I don’t want. Our internet is not working properly and not only one connection but two, as we have two internet connections. This completely doesn’t make sense, although the cause and result may be related somehow, probably are. And we just found out our refrigerator doesn’t work properly anymore, or doesn’t work at all. Also doesn’t make sense as it’s not that old, something like five years, and in my experience a refrigerator lasts ten years or even many years more. We even have a small one that’s probably twenty years old.

So what does this all mean? Probably nothing, but it has a very bad effect on my mood, and my mood wasn’t that good already deep own as I still didn’t find work, or at least enough work to just support myself and our household doesn’t need that much money in Western standards. Something like EUR 1.000,= or USD 1,300.00 or so is enough for us to survive and even have things like a TV card for our satellite TV and some ‘rum and coke’ in the evening and such.

So I’m kind of lost what to do. And according to the Law of Attraction I probably shouldn’t do anything as I’m completely not inspired to do things. So maybe I just keep doing the wrong thing like trying to do it all myself and not trust ‘The Universe‘ or whatever.

So should I write this post? Not sure, but it still makes me feel successful if I do the tasks I intended to do and one of those is to write a daily post here, send an inspirational quote once a day except on Sunday, write my blessings in my Dutch blog and write a post there also.

And recently I basically finished all the things i intended to do for the day and I prefer to keep doing that as it also makes me feel kind of successful. But today that is or was not easy, as there were some internet related things that are very hard to finish without a decent internet connection, although I think I figured out now how to use one of our connections properly which is also why I am able to write this post now. And i also figured out I think why both connections don’t work or don’t work properly. It seems to be a combination of things starting with just bad wireless signals for both connections. And this may have just one cause, something like a change in the environment related to radio signals. That still doesn’t explain why our refrigerator broke down, but even that my be related to some kind of change in the environment (or my vibration of course if you think in terms of Law of Attraction.

Anyhow, so what’s inspiring about all this? I have no clue and mostly I just write what’s in my mind as you may know, although I do have some higher goals with this website. But what if there is just not enough money flowing your way like in my case? It’s just no fun. And I’ve figured out it has indeed nothing to do with working hard or something as I’ve worked hard most of my life. Working clever maybe, but I’m quite intelligent, so that also can’t be the thing that affects ‘enough’ money coming your way.

And I changed my mind about money recently, so I’m not really worried anymore. But my/our debts are getting bigger and bigger and as of the moment I think I even have to use my credit card limit to just pay our daily needs (which was in my mind for quite a while already, so in terms of Law of Attraction it may not be that weird what’s happening). But at least I’m not borrowing anymore from the place i borrowed before and which I think now was kind of a mistake even though I don’t know exactly how I should or could have done it differently, looking back.

And I’m getting a bit drunk now as I just started my second ‘rum-and-coke’, so I’m not sure if it’s still all interesting what I’m writing, but they say drunk people speak the truth, so I guess I do now more, even though normally I’m not really lying or something. Often I just don’t say things i maybe should say and I figured out that’s also kind of lying.

Mitsubishi PajeroSo anyhow, I have no clue where to go from here financially and I really need some money for my daily needs and for the things I’m dreaming about and I think I (and Abraham Hicks) think I should have. I did plant a lot of seeds though, so I hope one or some of them will finally start to grow and also make it possible to at least support myself and my partner, pay back my loans (you have no clue how much I hate lending money) and finally get my Pajero, my cruise, some holiday and just some other enjoyable things.

Anyhow, I like to work and I know a lot about web programming and Internet Marketing, so you would really make me happy to put some work my way related to that. And in the end I don’t even mind if I get paid or not as I just like to do it, so if I can help you with that kind of stuff please let me know.

Ah, and I found something weird. I always try to serve my customers and do everything they want as I think that is how a business should work. So I presumed i could also find some people or businesses to do some job I need done. And I just can’t find anybody. It’s related to Search Engine Optimization and I get a million offers for that every day by e-mail. But when I send my little request they can’t do it. Weird.

So if you have something to do for me I can help you with, and yes, i also can’t do everything, like the job I tried to outsource, please let me know. To me it’s still better to do something for someone else than to work on my own projects like Real Estate Philippines that I started today, that don’t really have value, at least that’s what I think.

Enough for today I guess, and even if it’s not inspiring for you, writing all this made me feel better, so at least someone got better from it.

Thanks for reading!