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Listening and understanding
My partner keeps hammering on me that I don’t understand, that I lack understanding. And he keeps telling me that I’m wrong, that I’m doing it wrong and that I need to change. And that the whole problem is ‘me’, something like me being me.
So what to do, what to do next. Lately I have been ‘allowing’ him to be him more according to the teachings of Abraham Hicks. So I’m not complaining so much anymore about things he does and things he wants. But deep inside I keep hearing this little voice telling me “yes, but what about me?”. As somehow it seems and feels like that I’m allowing my partner a lot more than myself. And it drains me, it drains my energy. But also according to Abraham Hicks it is indeed me who has to change, or at least I read something like “…it’s not her…”.
And somehow all of this goes back to beliefs, to my beliefs, like “you reap what you sow” and “who does well, will meet well” and things like that. And maybe the beliefs “you can’t change the other person, but you can change yourself” and “if you want to change the world start with yourself”.
All very wise and nice sayings, but I can’t do so much with them, at least they were somehow not confirmed in my life, or maybe they were, but not in a way I like and I don’t know what to do to change it, to change my life. But again, I hear Abraham Hicks say that you should be happy here and now, not somewhere else.
But my inner voice keeps telling me that I cannot be that bad a person in the sense that I don’t believe I sowed that bad things related to what I’m reaping now. And yes, I always have an excuse to tell myself that that’s negative thinking. So who to believe, my inner voice (the little voice?) or the reasoning? And it seems I am treating other people very bad, as basically everybody leaves me behind. Something like it seems I don’t listen to other people. But should I be punished so bad for that? I don’t believe it.
And I turned myself inside out to please other people, to make them happy. But it didn’t work out as nobody seems to be pleasing me (and yes, I know they say you shouldn’t do things to please other people).
So what’s going on here? Deep inside I know I’m not a bad person, actually I’m a good person, although especially recently I discovered I also have my bad sides, sides that I didn’t know existed. But should I keep turning myself inside out to please other people, to ‘allow’ them? I’m willing to, but somehow I also believe there needs to be balance, giving and receiving should be in balance. And again, my inner voice says I’m not receiving enough. And yes, deep inside I know I’m not really allowing that.
So what to do, to restore the balance? Any ideas? Recognize something?
I always feel forced…
“I always feel forced to meet other people’s expectations”, that’s the sentence that came up to me after listening to the audio recording “Who are you really” from Morty Lefkoe. I can’t find a link to the audio recording right now, but I guess a related article is You are both consciousness and creation.
And Morty Lefkoe is specialized in helping people eliminating false beliefs. And with what I now know basically, literally every belief is false. And that also goes back to the teachings of Abraham Hicks, as he states that everything started somehow with a thought, with a belief. And that everything in this world are just implemented and executed beliefs.
So somehow I have the belief that I always need to meet the expectations of other people, always need to make them happy, fulfill their needs.
And this post is not yet finished, and I’m not sure if I’m ever going to finish it, but I guess so. And here I bump into some other belief, something I read, something my team members try to tell me: that I need to produce quality content, finished articles and such. And yes, I believe that would be better. But it’s not ‘me’ and I’m starting to believe that I indeed need to follow my own way, find my own followers, no matter what I write about or how I write.
As indeed, I cannot please everybody, should not want to please everybody. As everybody is different with different needs and different ‘gives’. So I guess the gift of my posts, of my writings, of the effort I did to build most of this, might appeal to some people. At least I hope.
And yes, of course this post has a message, a message for you. And the message is to not follow ‘the world’, not follow other peoples thinking and beliefs, but just be yourself. Because you are unique and whether we are here for a reason or not, I still believe we deserve to be happy and enjoy life.
Lee Harvey Oswald
I was just watching a documentary on History Channel on Lee Harvey Oswald. Or actually of course of the murder on president John F. Kennedy. And I saw some documentaries and stuff before. But the whole thing was never presented as clear and straightforward as in this one. No conspiracy theories and such, or maybe a little. But just some straightforward facts and a straightforward police investigation. And while typing something like ‘lee harvey oswald’ and ‘history (channel) kennedy’ I was laughing at myself seeing the results as of course around the date of November 22, 2013, fifty years after the assassination of John F. Kennedy many people would search for the same thing, opening the same pages, reading about the same thing. As many people may be writing right now about it, like I do.
So where does all this conspiracy stuff comes from? If I see the story as it is being presented in this documentary it’s pretty clear that Lee Harvey Oswald murdered president Kennedy, but indeed, it’s not clear why, although even there are some answers about that, as it seems to have somehow been connected to Russia.
But president Kennedy murdered by the CIA or something like that? No, I don’t believe that anymore after this documentary.
So what is this all about. Is most of the ‘news’ and ‘documentaries’ just ‘show’, just for ‘show’, just to keep us entertained? And why are the creators creating it? And why are we accepting that? I mean, to me entertainment is entertainment and information is information. Or not?
Belief
I somehow lost all belief recently, or at least I had put all kinds of negative beliefs, thoughts in my mind. And somehow it all goes back to history, to the things I did in the past and didn’t work out. So in that process I kind of stopped, in a not so convenient way I guess, and didn’t feel like doing anything anymore, as I just believed that the result of my actions would be negative or not be there. And this whole thing just got me in some negative spiral which I didn’t find a way out of. And I’m not sure yet if I’m out of it, but at least I started writing this post now and am trying to share something.
And I’m not sure if you recognize, but my ‘doing nothing’ just made me feel worse, made me feel guilty, especially as Napoleon Hill, and many other ‘self help’ guru’s somehow state that in the end it’s all about action. But I also know or believe that uninspired action doesn’t work either. So yes, somehow stopping is better than doing some kind of action without the right feel, without the right intention, even though I’m not fully sure if that’s correct in all situations. Just doing ‘something’ may also have a positive effect if you feel stuck or blocked or paralyzed. And my main worry(?!) is and was planning, as I still don’t have a proper plan for how to move on with Inspiration for Success, with achieving my personal success through it as described in many posts and especially my desire document related to Inspiration for Success.
So after feeling very bad and kind of helpless for the last few days I finally found some positive answer in the chapter about faith in Think and Grow Rich. And one of the things I found was that negative thoughts are fatal to success. But this was (and is still a bit) exactly happening to me: thinking negative thoughts. So I felt even more guilty as I was doing exactly the opposite of what was needed. But the chapter also gives clues how to get out of this type of thing and the main answer lies in autosuggestion. So my start was follow one of the instructions and reading the self confidence formula aloud. And that made me feel better already. And I just typed it, not copied it, to repeat it to myself in a different way. You may also want to do that, reading aloud and/or typing, as I believe it is a very powerful formula, including things like patience and being careful with one self, not ‘forcing’ action, the thing I was describing earlier in this post.
So where am I right now? Well, getting anxious again about my planning, that I don’t have and don’t know (yet) how to make, how to formulate. Let alone put into action or have others perform action from it.
But I want to share one more thing, as I also read aloud my one million dollar desire document that I made for this project, for the project Inspiration for Success. And this was the first time it really came alive and felt good, as it was one of the first times I read the current version that I made a few days ago. And that’s a bit weird, as many people would say, including me, that it’s kind of a weird, or ‘impossible’ document. But to me it’s proof that indeed the principle of auto-suggestion works, that you can make the mind believe virtually anything you want. And that’s indeed what the principles of success faith and auto-suggestion are all about.
And I’ll stop now, as I made a small step. And going from full-stop to running might not be wise.