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Only now

Yes, there is only now as I sent today in my daily quote e-mail:

“Nothing is more important than that I feel good. And I’m going to find ways today. I’m going to begin my day by meditating and bringing myself into alignment with my Source Energy. And as I move through the day, Im going to look for opportunities to appreciate, so that all day long Ill bring myself back into Source Energy.” – Abraham Hicks

and with my comment:

“Yeah, that’s what we all want, just feel good. That’s all. So better just do that, no matter what, as there is only the Now, only one Now, nothing else.”

And yes, I agree with all that and I guess it’s simple, not easy. And that’s what I’m using a lot lately, the phrase “It’s simple, not easy.” as that is often how things feel to me appear to be to me.

And I realize more and more that most things go right, that most things just work. And that we often mostly or only focus on the things that don’t work. So somehow I, and probably everybody else, or at least most people, are looking for a perfect world. And somehow, on a lower level, I know that our world is perfect as it just follows the laws of nature, the laws of the Universe.

So what is this that humans strive for ‘perfection’ on the material level. What is it that we everything material just want to work. Or maybe the other way around: why do the material things we build need maintenance, why do they break down. Or do things on the smaller scale, molecules and atoms and smaller, or on the larger scale, planets and stars, also break down, are they also ‘imperfect’. Or is it just the level we live our life on, the ‘scale’ we live our life on, that we see the imperfections. Because of course we can never see imperfections in a molecule or a star or even the moon, although with the moon we can see the craters and stuff with the naked eye as far as I know.

And I realize I’m writing quite a philosophical kind of post, which was not really my intention. And I’m not sure what’s the use or what’s the inspirational or success part.

Or is it just still with what I started with: let’s just be happy with what is, as there is nothing else. Let’s just feel good.

Short seminar

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So, a very short seminar would serve you, if you could hear it. And it would go something like this: Find something to be happy about. Goodbye!” – Abraham Hicks

That’s what I found on the first page of the workbook “How to Change Your Life Around In 30 Days that I found on the internet on http://timeandmoney.tripod.com/abraham-hicks_30_day_work_book.pdf. I later also found trans scripts on the site of Abraham Hicks, or actually Esther and Jerry Hicks where you can buy it for USD 7.00. And as I’m in favor of paying for things instead of getting them for free I still consider buying it, but I’m still human so until now I didn’t. And as of ‘now-now-now’ I can’t even buy it as my internet is not working.

And that’s maybe a nice thing to continue with. We have two internet connections as I used to run a full fledged web development company and wanted to be able to help my customers any time, even if there was a problem with my ISP. So we still have those two connections and they’re both not working. So I’m annoyed as I want to use the internet. I want to be able to use the internet any time. So I’ve been focusing on that for quite a while now, my not properly working connection with my most favorite provider and the not so good connection with my second internet provider. And the last few days, especially yesterday I’ve been focusing on the ‘not working internet’. So what do I get, at least according to the Law of Attraction? Exactly, more problems with internet and more non working connection as of the moment it’s not working at all.

And I’m on “Day 10” now in my workbook and it appears there is indeed something about this Law of Attraction as I have seen things change. Not only over the last ten days, but over about a year now since I’ve been focusing on things more consciously. But looking back it is all over my life.

The weird thing is that there is indeed something about this, and other, programs related to ‘focusing’ as my financial situation got worse, something I could have never imagined all my life, and I am more happy than ever. And yes, the especially the last few days I encountered stuff about ‘money’. And it seems there is indeed something very strange around the word, or actually the subject ‘money’. And money is also a major thing in the thirty day workbook and I encountered some very weird things I wanted to share.

You see, one exercise is about spending a virtual amount of money that increases every day. So no matter what you do, the amount increases every day. And somehow I have always focused on money, I wanted more, I wanted to be rich, I wanted to be filthy rich and I still want to be very rich. But look what I am stating here: filthy rich. And don’t get me wrong I just wrote it ‘naturally’ as it’s just a common saying. I had no intention to continue about the ‘filthy’. Wow, and how to continue now, because there is so much in my mind what to tell you what I have found. As that was my intention this morning for now, sharing my experiences in an inspiring way. Well, maybe I should just continue writing as I normally do, as ‘me’ and not worry too much about what ‘they’ say, what ‘you’ say, like it’s chaotic or something. And yes, again, that’s what it’s all about. Just being me, just being you as you are. Just ‘open your valve’ as Lynn Grabhorn calls it.

So what did I found about the money. Well, I have debts at the moment, quite large debts and I don’t like them, I don’t like that as I don’t believe in debt. It’s expensive and such. It’s ‘bad’. So I started the first few days to first put half the virtual spending amount to pay my debt. And it was ok, it was ok. And today when encountering the ‘virtual spending’ I realize that my debt is not really in my mind anymore. Somehow it is not my priority anymore and it should not be as it just costs an awful lot of energy. It puts me down. And don’t get me wrong, I am not saying people shouldn’t pay their debts and I’m committed to pay my debts back including all the interest and such. But just focusing on something negative like debt is very bad; it just puts down your energy, your energy flow. I’m starting to see that now, feel that now.

So that was the first thing I noticed yesterday or so, that I had changed my focus around my debts. The second thing I’m starting to notice more and more is that I don’t know what to spend the money on. Really. And it’s really weird to have an increasing amount of money coming in every day and not knowing what to spend it on. And yes, there are some longer term goals I’m working on like having a car and renovating the house and some holidays, but that’s not the point. Because I started saving for these things even from my daily virtual spending amount, but somehow I’m starting to realize that’s kind of useless: the money is coming in anyhow in increasing amounts, so saving doesn’t make much sense. That car will be there anyhow and that holiday I can do very soon with these increasing amounts. As soon as I reach PHP 30,000.00 per day I can have a holiday by saving one or two weeks or so.

It is really weird noticing that I don’t know how to spend incoming money. So again, from a “Law of Attraction” point of view of course there is no real money coming in. It is because I don’t know what to do with it. I don’t know how to let it flow.

And again, don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying you shouldn’t save or something. That’s not the point. It’s just the weird experience I have that every day I’m starting to have a problem spending the amount coming in. I just don’t know what to do with it as it’s so much. And I know it will keep flowing, so it doesn’t make sense to save it, keep it, or even pay debts with it and the increased amount in the future will do that.

So it’s really mindset that’s blocking us. I’m starting to realize that more and more. Mindset that money is bad, mindset that there is not enough money, mindset that there is not enough of anything. And mindset is just thoughts. And one of the most funny thing I found in the workbook was the following statement:

“And we are wanting so much for you to realize that nothing is just the way it is because that’s the way it is, because everything that is the way it is, is the way it is because somebody thinks that’s the way that it is! There is no fact apart from somebody’s belief. None. So you say, Oh, well, there are all these facts. And we say they’re just beliefs that have been practiced.”

And no matter how logical you are, no matter how practical you are, this statement is just true, just plain true. And it felt very weird when I first read it.

But it’s basically also a similar thing Napoleon Hill writes in Think and Grow Rich: everything begins with a thought.

Leadership

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Well, I think I learnt a lot about leadership yesterday. Major thing seems to be to take charge and make clear what is expected from team members. And thinking further of course being clear about what the direction is (of the project or venture or whatever). I guess this is behind the ‘power’ thing that kind of felt negative to me when I was thinking about leadership. But it’s not really about power in the sense of the fear related stuff, but it seems to be more about being clear about direction and what is to be expected and, as I’m starting to find out now, about consequences if you are not complying.

And that’s a sensitive subject again to me, consequences. As there is some very negative feeling in me related to ‘consequences’.

And now I feel a bit stuck on how to continue with this post as the title is leadership, but somehow leadership is related to fear within me. So it seems my perception about leadership and power and things like team or teamwork have some very negative vibrations about them. And it appears that is all about me, I guess about my experiences with leadership (=being the boss) in the past. Like bosses have power in a negative way.

Not sure where this comes from, but I guess it goes back to how my father treated me (or how I reacted to it). I know these things go back very, very far.

So maybe what is happening now is very good. Maybe I can finally let go of the negative feelings around leadership. And it all makes sense if I relate it also to the things Napoleon Hill writes in Think and Grow Rich about leadership.

And so maybe I can take my leadership role now in various aspects of my life. As I think I’m starting to understand why it all went wrong where I wanted to or was expected to take the lead. With my thinking of leadership as in ‘following from fear’ of course I instilled fear with my followers or staff members or team members (in Inspiration for Success). And that’s not what I wanted, but I guess unconsciously this whole thing played out like that. And of course I lost my followers.

So time for a new start, in business, in private life and in Inspiration for Success: being the leader as a leader should be: lead the project or the team in the right direction in the right way. From knowing where to go and inspiring people to join in that journey.

So let’s see how we can do that in this project further, creating something to inspire people. Maybe indeed first from this website, even though it’s not fully clear to me how.

Prosperity

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I have been reading more about the thirty day Law of Attraction program of Abraham Hicks. And one side of me says ‘just another self help program that made the person originating it rich and famous’. But another part of me says that there is a lot to focusing on the positive, focusing on abundance and prosperity. And maybe the main thing that lets me believe that ‘working hard’ will bring prosperity is not true is that most of my life I have been working hard, harder than average. And it didn’t bring me success, it didn’t bring me prosperity, it didn’t bring me happiness. At least not in the end.

Yes, I had good jobs and earned a lot. And during those days I was financially well of, quite well of. Not rich, but more than average rich, especially as i am gay and had a partner who also worked, so we were in the ‘double income no kids’ group. So yes, basically we were well of and I was happy with it.

But looking back something didn’t add up. As I had to work hard and do all kinds of things that didn’t suit me as a person to keep my job (= my income) and my partner. And because I was doing those things ‘forced’ in the end I lost everything. Yes, that’s what I believe now.

And the same thing happened again to me last year. Again I worked hard to have an income and keep my partner. And again it was not enough. And again it didn’t add up.

And don’t get me wrong, I did like my jobs, my work and I loved and liked my partners. But something didn’t add up and it seems those Law of Attraction type thoughts make more sense than ‘work hard and you will get’.

So no, I don’t have the answers yet and I still feel i’m in a very shitty situation. But I’m going to give this positive thinking, this ‘feeling’, this ‘vibrating’ stuff a chance. As the ‘working hard’ stuff didn’t work out for me, never.

And indeed, also logically, rationally the whole thing of ‘work hard and everything will be OK’ doesn’t add up. Look at nature and everything. Nature is all about abundance, about ‘waste’ about too much of everything.

So there is enough, there must be enough, also for me, for me to do the things I want to do, for me to enjoy life.

To be continued…

Rubber day

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Today I visited a rubber plantation because we are considering starting a rubber plantation, or at least plant part of our land with rubber. And I’m starting to realize it’s business, so these type of things should be run as a business. And that means indeed applying the principles of success in order to be successful.

And even though I want my web development business to be my primary business and to be successful I now realize what mistakes I made with that and why it is not where I would have expected it to be. So with the rubber I want to do better, indeed first have some ideas, which I already have, to be ‘different’ from other rubber plantations, to have an advantage. And then indeed do research, serious research or involve people who already have the knowledge. And then plan and just put the plan into action. And then, also looking to my post of yesterday, it should be very simple to be successful, to just have a rubber plantation.

And I said simple, not easy. There will be still hurdles on the way and in this case as I’m not experienced in anything agriculture I may make mistakes in that area. And persistence will be needed as the whole thing might not be as simple as I thought or expected.

But yes, just applying the simple steps of wanting something, doing some research, make a (good) plan and implement the plan should just be enough for anything. And indeed, looking around it may just be that simple for anything or virtually anything.