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Inspiration or success?

When checking the Google Webmaster Tools I noticed that the word inspiration occurs very often in the site, but the word success is not. And the word ‘mind’ is even at the top, not even the word ‘inspiration’. Next to ‘success’, the word motivation is nowhere to be found in the top 20.

Thinking about it, the above is also logical, as I have focused on inspiration not on motivation or success. Also logical the word ‘mind’ is on the top, as indeed what I found is that it’s all in the mind, everything starts with a thought, with an idea.

So yes, inspiring people, that’s what I want the purpose of this site. Not motivating people, although that would still be someting important to include in the site. And as of the moment I’m not fully clear how to deal with ‘success’ as during my journey building this site until now the word ‘success’ became a very, well, confusing term, especially related to my own life.

You see, I noticed that I am very successful with basically everything I do. Especially lately everything I plan I do and finish successfully. So am I successful, certainly. Does it pay the bills, no.

So why in heavens name did we relate the word success so much to money. Is everything we do only useful or successful if we do it for someone else (and be paid for it (or not))? This is a real struggle for me, something like why I have to do things I don’t like in order to survive, not even live. So what’s the difference between me and people who are successful in a more objective way? Or are really successful people also enjoying what they are doing? Or do they just appear to be successful because they have or earn the money?

So what’s going on here. Has my mindset or my set of beliefs just been built or grown in a way that I keep in this ‘victim state’, that I can’t combine doing what I like in order to do things that other people also like? Am I just in the wrong group or in the wrong place? And if so, why do I stay there, why have I not been able to change that (and I worked on that a lot lately).

Or do these things all just take time. Does it just take more time than I for my subconsciousness to adapt to a better life, to start living or start living again? Or should I do more effort? But to my feeling I already did an awful lot of effort to ‘ improve myself’, ‘work on myself’ in order to live a better life, in order to be happy, in order to ‘fulfill my destiny’.

Or am I just on the wrong path? Somehow, somewhere? Or am I just expecting too much? Do I want too much? But then why did God gave me so much ambition, so much drive to ‘do’ things? And why did He give me things to take them away later on?

And not sure why I am writing this post this way. I’m not sure if and what I’m ‘giving’ here, although if you would recognize the above you must have a similar struggle like me, so we might want to look into it together, maybe in a Master Mind type of way. Maybe then we could find answers and really start living life, really be happy.

As that’s still my goal, enjoy life and be happy.

Slow progress

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Well, it seems I’m in the middle of a dip with this project. I am writing a post every day and traffic is going down, so is visibility in Google. And my team hardly responds anymore, although this morning there was a very positive e-mail from our new team member Christian. Yes, maybe I should start counting the good, counting the things that are working, not (only) the things that don’t work.

And I know every project has a phase or phases like this. And I know that if I just continue in the end it will work out fine, something good will come out of it. But as you may understand, that doesn’t really help me now, as now it’s all a bit down.

Counting the good came from the ‘free signup document’ of Jeannette Seibly. You can go here to get the document. And it starts with counting ‘what worked’ today. So maybe just put here what worked for me today (actually she mentions week or quarter, but for me for now I’ll just use ‘today’):

I did make the bed, the small thing I do every day that made me feel successful (again). So that worked.
I planned to visit Nestlé and I did go. And I didn’t get the appointment I wanted, but I did get some useful information. So my action worked.
My main server kind of works again. It’s not fully ok, but I can use it and the most important data and functionality is there. So picking it up also worked.
I planned to work on a customer project and I did, even though it took me some time to get going. And my five minutes planned became more than an hour or so and I’m almost finished. So again, something worked.
I felt down and called my mother. Often we end in some kind of negative talk, but today it worked and I got kind of inspired by her. So today also this worked.
And I did update my resume and made a cover letter and actually this was beyond my planning. So again, something that worked.
And of course I sent my daily quote and I’m writing my daily blog item here now, so that also worked.

So then the next thing, what didn’t work:

Well, the computer didn’t really work as I want to, but it’s working good enough for what I need right now, so doesn’t really count for ‘didn’t work’.
I took quite a lot of ‘doing nothing time’ to get going, but somehow I needed it, so also, it’s more like a ‘did work’ than a ‘didn’t work’.
And I need to pay some bills, but still the phone and electricity are working. So also here, postponing payments didn’t really ‘not work’.
And I can’t think of anything else that really ‘didn’t work’. Weird.

So yes, weird. I keep on concluding that I’m pretty successful in everything I do, except that it doesn’t pay the bills. Maybe that’s something to analyze, something to think about.

So next thing: what would I want to be acknowledged for? Well, full phrases:

I would like to be acknowledged for not giving up, for moving on, no matter how bad the situation is.
I would like to be acknowledged for my daily posts, my daily writing in this site.
I would like to be acknowledged for sending my daily quote (but I am already by some people, so that’s ok I guess).
I would like to be acknowledged for all the work I do. I do a lot you see, I guess more than what the average person does.
I would like to be acknowledged for all the hard work I do, or actually did, even though the result sometimes is not there or not as expected.
And a private one: I would like be acknowledged for being ‘loving’. I guess this is the most important one as there is a whole story behind it.

So indeed, writing these things down is inspiring as Jeannette Seibly predicted. Maybe you should do the same.

Looking forward to your comments.

Not so inspiring

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Well, not so inspiring was my first feeling today about two things I heard. I visited a business partner of mine today and he told me his father was in bad shape after a stroke. And being Filipino he is spending all his time right now with his father as it seems he is the only one his father recognizes and accepts. And no real hope for recovery, as the family has no money for needed transplants and mentally his father is also not OK, which is probably permanent.

Today I also connected with a childhood friend and one of the first things she told me she had become a widow this year. Through illness of her husband. So you can imagine I just put ‘not so inspiring’ as the name of this post.

Also I didn’t get any response to my latest e-mail to my team. I was suggesting a date for my sample goal and just wanted them to be involved, get their approval. So my team is not yet working as it should and I’m not sure what to do next.

And business wise I still don’t know what to do. It seems I can’t create a team there also. And I’m not sure what to do with some customer requests. So again, I don’t really feel inspired or feel like inspiring you, putting some positive thinking.

And today I didn’t really feel like doing anything. I kept thinking that whatever I did in the past or not did, the result was the same: something not working.

And it’s weird, because somehow I have a lot more self confidence. Somehow I feel like I planted many seeds. Somehow I now know more what to do, how to achieve success, or better, live a useful life.

And somehow I am very successful recently. One of my team members even said to me a while ago that I am very successful, like building this site. And somehow I do have discipline, which I thought I didn’t have. I have been making the bed every day for months now. And I have sent my daily quote for months now, every day! And I have posted two blog items every day for the last few months. So I did achieve success, I did show some discipline.

And it even seems that I am very close to achieving my definite purpose as I wrote down in my personal desire document.

And going back to what I started with, some people in situations related to sickness and death, compared to them I am so much better off as with sickness and death everything stops, while I still have all the time and opportunities to do better, to achieve what I want to achieve.

So comparing, my situation is not that bad. There is life and life means hope. Isn’t that inspiring, life and hope?

What inspires you, what inspires me

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I spent quite some time on Inspiration for Success today but I still didn’t write my daily post as I can’t really think of a subject.

What stays in my mind is ‘what inspires me’ or ‘what inspires you’ or more general ‘what inspires people’. Today I was with a friend and also asked him the question “What inspires you?” and (also?) he didn’t have a straight answer, straight like me, like what I think I was writing about yesterday.

Strange, inspiration is the basic foundation of this site, and I can’t really get hold of it, I can’t really think of how to inspire me, inspire you, inspire people. Most sites I encounter are more about motivation, more ‘self help’ like, but I want this site to be more. To me inspiration goes much further than motivation.

Anyhow, guess I’ll just have to do some more research and/or thinking, but in the meantime of course your thoughts and comments are very welcome.

Inspiration

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Working on this site, and on myself, I keep on ending up in so called ‘self help sites’ and of course I signed up to some of them, so every day I receive e-mails from those sites that certainly give me information that interests me. But somehow these e-mails are also written in a way that I feel the urge clicking on the links to go to the site for ‘more information’. And of course in the end the purpose of those e-mails is to keep me ‘hooked’ and let me buy something.

Nothing wrong with the above, except that it is kind of a negative look on those sites that I think have perfect tools to ‘improve yourself’ or ‘get more out of life’. And also nothing wrong with ‘selling’ stuff, either invite people to go to the site and read more, learn more, etc. Of course in the end I want to achieve a similar thing with this site: help people and earn from it. And while writing this I think I know why I’m so negative, as it may be that ‘earning’ is a very sensitive thing to me. For me ‘earning’ is something like ‘taking money from other people’ and of course that’s wrong, that wouldn’t and won’t work.

But actually I don’t want to ‘help’ people. I want to inspire people as there is something negative to me in the word ‘help’, like someone is needy or there is something wrong with someone.

So how did we end up with this ‘self help’ stuff instead of inspiration? Or is it just me who ends up in those sites the way I do? And of course the biggest question is how to make this site an inspiring site and not ‘just another self help site’? And what’s the difference? Is there any difference?

Of course I and the team will look further into this, but of course we are very much interested in your thoughts on this as of course the purpose of this site is to inspire people, to inspire YOU. And maybe the most important question, what inspires you?