I was just working on an Executive Summary for a partial project in my main internet venture for Cagayan de Oro City. And I had postponed that a bit as it just didn’t feel good to work on, although the feedback I got on it only came to me last week.

But that was an important event for me, getting feedback on that document, as it meant that at least someone believes in my project, that at least someone gives me something like the benefit of the doubt, no matter how crazy my idea may sound.

But in the end the idea has become not as crazy as when I first had it, even though The Philippines, Philippine culture may be completely opposite to doing, creating something like what I have in mind. And yes, I am starting to learn what persistence is, real persistence, not just stubbornness. It is just slowly but surely moving towards a goal, just pushing people you need gently, just giving them time to adjust to the idea, especially if it’s a crazy, very big, idea.

And weird, that it seems to be harder to develop a small company like Active Discovery Designs than it is to create a project with a worldwide impact. Or maybe not that weird, as indeed, it may be true that it is crowded at the bottom and not at the top.

So let’s see what happens, let’s see how far I can get. And yes, the strange thing is that I don’t really care about the money anymore, even though the project might bring me some money. I just care about the people in Cagayan de Oro City, in Mindanao, in The Philippines, in the world. I just want to serve them, just give them proper internet at a reasonable price. And I want to give the people in Cagayan de Oro City just a decent life, just jobs, just some money coming in so they can lead the life I was able to live before, a life with good things and holidays, a life with enough to eat and some money to spare to do fun things.

And weird, as this all came from losing everything, being at rock bottom, having no partner, having no money, having no job that brought in money, having no friends, having the feeling to have nothing. And weird it came from a book, or actually multiple books, but in the end the root of everything happening right now lies in Think and Grow Rich. And while writing this I guess this site wouldn’t have been here without that book.

And yes, I am a bit, or actually very much, disappointed with this site. As it didn’t really bring me anything like fame or people reading it or commenting on it and such. Or using my tools, although I did not check the last recently and I also didn’t do any further development on it recently. And yes, I don’t think they are good enough yet.

But yes, the site brought me discipline and persistence. And it learned me to be patient and I learned to plan recently. And as per indication of Napoleon Hill I can indeed confirm that writing things down, whether it is a real planning or just writing a blog, has helped me analyze things, or maybe actually analyze myself, my actions.

So yes, I can still recommend buying the book Think and Grow Rich and working from it, reading it, having it next to your bed as there is indeed an awful lot of knowledge about ‘success‘ in it. And yes, I am quoting the word success right now, as success is indeed something else than having a lot of money or be famous or something like that, the things I was looking for. And yes, I am still looking for that as e.g. I think it makes life easier if you have enough money. But I see more and more that life is indeed some kind of journey, maybe some kind of learning process and success is just something temporary, something that will pass by, something that is in the moment, something you can’t keep or preserve.

So yes, let’s just be happy, happy on our never ending journey called life.

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