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Flexibility

I was enjoying an evening out with friends and I was thinking about my daily posts. And that it would be probably very late when I would come home and that I had to choose between discipline and, well, yes what. Failure I guess. So I kind of decided not to write my daily posts, but I arrived earlier home than expected and decided still to write something here, although I want to keep it short. And yes, I knew what the subject would be: flexibility. As discipline is good, but I think we should allow ourselves every now and then to skip something, to do something more important, like being with friends, going out with friends.

And writing the last I still see the success video I saw quite a while ago, that video emphasizing doing all the work when others have fun. And yes, I certainly believe there is a point in that, I certainly believe that success is indeed about discipline and perseverance and such. But I’m not sure if overdoing is the right thing, as that what I sometimes feel I am doing.

So please be relaxed if you skip something some day. As life does not end by not doing your thing, your job or whatever it is you put on yourself. As long as you keep going and not use it as an excuse to not continue.

Convert defeat into success

Last Saturday I did not write my posts and I kind of felt guilty about it. And it was even worse, as I kind of planned to catch up yesterday, Sunday, but in the end I also didn’t do it. And it feels like a severe breach in my daily writing habit and I am not sure what to do next, as I just don’t feel like writing anymore.

And the strange thing is that I actually achieved quite some successes. And I wanted to write about it. But I didn’t.

So somehow I have slowly programmed myself for success, but somehow it also affects things, like writing here. So how will I convert this defeat of failure of not writing last Saturday into success? Like what can I learn from it?

And the strange thing is that one or two times before I skipped a day, but somehow this time it feels more severe, it feels like giving up writing here, writing every day. But I made a promise to myself to write here about my road to success, about how I went from my deepest down to my highest up. And I am not up yet, but somehow something changed. As people are starting to listen to me, are starting to support me, no matter how crazy my ideas are. But somehow my subconscious does not seem to accept that I can be successful, can have success.

So maybe that is what I am learning right now, that it is important to keep my promise and that I should keep writing, also now I am starting to become successful. And yes, one of the most important things towards success seems to be persistence, nothing more, nothing less. So maybe people will even start to read this, even though until now I don’t think many people are reading or have read my posts.

And yes, I should go back to the beginning, to why I started this site, this blog. And evaluate where I am standing right now compared to that time. And even though recently I have been complaining a bit again I guess, I may be amazed about how far I have gotten, and maybe how little I still have to go.

Disciplined or stubborn?

Lately I am asking myself more and more why I am writing here every day, yes, except on Sunday’s, as it doesn’t feel that inspiring anymore and it also feels like it doesn’t have any purpose except to kind of show to myself that I can do it, that I can be disciplined or something. Or that I am persistent. But somehow it also feels that I am just stubborn.

So what is it? Or maybe all? And yes, I guess this is the most difficult time in the ‘race’ that I started and that I somehow wanted to continue for at least two years. As two years is somehow the milestone that I consider Google considers the period when a website is really serious. But Google changed and I’m not really sure if that two year mark or something is still there. Or even existed anyhow. And then, should I write my blog, my posts, these words that don’t make any sense to anybody lately, or probably don’t make any sense to anybody lately, because of Google? Or some policy or algorithm of Google?

But yes,  while writing this somehow the answer is still yes. As somehow this is what persistence is all about. Going on when you don’t feel like it anymore, going on when it doesn’t make sense anymore, going on when all the excitement is gone, going on no matter what.

And yes, I know somehow this time is different, this time is more about persistence and less about being stubborn. As somehow I have decided that this time I want to be successful, no matter what. This time I have decided that I won’t give up, won’t give up until I finally have or feel the success that I have been waiting for, struggled for all my life. And right now I’m not fully sure how that success would look like, like how I would achieve it. As I am working on many things right now. And no, somehow I also haven’t lost focus, somehow I am finishing things now, determined to finish things, finish everything, everything I have started and am starting.

So yes, the things I am writing here and in my personal blog may not make much sense recently. But sending the daily quote does and keeping my gratitude journal also. And my persistence in some other projects has brought me closer to some unimaginable goals.

So yes, let’s continue here for now. And yes, let’s celebrate how far I have gotten.

And thank you, Napoleon Hill. As somehow your book Think and Grow Rich has brought me closer to success, big success, than ever.

Love stories

Two days ago I heard a nice love story, yes with ups and downs of being apart and such. And being married after one month of knowing each other.And I know of another love story that started with a one night stand. And that story took a while to take off, but it seems to take off now. And of course I know my own love story, starting on the internet.

And I wanted to tell more, but I’m tired and it’s late. And I know, I haven’t put much enthusiasm here lately. But I feel like I’m getting back on track, so please expect more the next few weeks.

But for today, please give me some peace still.

It’s okay

The last one or two weeks I almost fully left my planning, my daily to-do list. And somehow it feels right, especially as I had not planned a lot, or at least that is what I thought.

And yes, somehow I still follow it. And yes, I will pick it up soon. But somehow I am still myself, my impulsive chaotic self that also knows what to do and not to do. And yes, I needed a break from that strict following of my planning, doing the things I planned to do every day.

And still, I have the feeling something changed, I changed. As somehow I still do the things I have planned to do. Except some things I didn’t do.

Sounds strange, but it feels right. And that’s what I learned from Abraham Hicks, that procrastination can be a very good thing. And I think it was, the last few days, weeks. And it will pass, and I will have learned, again.