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One year inspiration for success

Wow,, one year Inspiration for Success. As what I found a few days ago was that my first post was made on April 4, 2014. So tomorrow it is really the birthday of Inspiration for Success and today, right now it is New Years Eve. Or actually it is already the birthday as it is already past midnight.

What a journey has this been the last one and a half year ago or so. I started with my partner leaving and a book given to me. And my personal blog on http://guus.themalasaghouse.com/, later http://op-weg.inspiration-for-success/. And from that personal blog came Inspiration for Success, this site. And somehow I did manage to change my thinking, something I was never able to all my life before.

And no, the site is not yet successful as how I would call it a successful site. And I didn’t really set a date for it :). But from that deepest down in my life I made quite some journey and somehow I feel better than ever, even though my personal situation is certainly not satisfying and not what I want and need. But it is clearer to me than ever before what I want. And I am more determined than ever to indeed achieve what I want. And I am more certain that I can indeed achieve what I want (in life).

And I keep repeating myself, as my self confidence grew mainly through my desire document, by applying the Principles of Success as researched and described by Napoleon Hill in his book Think and Grow Rich. And this evening was even a good sample of feeling a growing self confidence. As I am able more and more to show others some of the things I learned over the last one and a half year. Things about setting goals, not changing them and keeping going, no matter what. And yes, I believe more and more that that way of thinking can have only two possible outcomes: achieving your goal or dying. And in general the first is much more likely than the second (happening before the first). As most of us would still be pretty sure to have at least ten years to live and it is unimaginable what one can achieve in ten years time. As also in my mind is the saying of Tony Robbins, that you often overestimate what you can do in one year, but underestimate what you can do in ten years time.

So yes, set your goal, write it down, believe, make a plan or don’t and start reading aloud your desire document. And yes, start reading Think and Grow Rich, use it as a workbook. And indeed, just continue doing those things, no matter how weird they feel or no matter whether they give you a feeling at all.

Ah, I can’t explain, but indeed, say something similar to what Napoleon Hill said, that somewhere in his book or other books or this site, you will find the answers that will point you in the right direction, will give you what you want. And yes, also Jesus Christ said the same, something like keep looking and you will find.

So keep looking.

The train driver

So there is this train moving with incredible speed and power. And it is carrying a lot of passengers. And all or most of the passengers are very happy on this trip as it is kind of a holiday trip they were invited on. However, the driver of the train is not really happy, even though the trip is actually part of one of his biggest dreams. And seeing all those happy people in the train of course he doesn’t want to spoil their fun, especially this type of thing is basically the reason why he is on the train. And how much he would like to be happy and be part of the fun. But until now he didn’t find a way to tell the passengers of the train that he had to pay for the maintenance of the train and the fuel for the trip. And that how much he would like to enjoy joining the fun his train still is being needed for other trips, other passengers. And that this trip is a big burden for him. As even though he is the owner of the train and very happy and proud to have it, the last few years he didn’t have enough passengers to even pay the mortgage to the bank, let alone the fuel for this trip or the maintenance of the train.

And the passengers were just invited for this trip. And some are poor and wouldn’t be able to pay for the trip. But others are rich and could easily pay for the fuel and maybe even a little for the maintenance of the train.

So how would this train driver tell the passengers how much he would love to just invite them, just pay the fuel and the maintenance of the train. And of course just let them enjoy the train. But sometimes life just doesn’t work like that, sometimes fuel and maintenance just have to be paid.

And no, he just didn’t find a way yet how to deal with this. And he also doesn’t want to hurt anybody or spoil the fun. But inside he is just hurting. As what is happening seems to be unfair. And that is not easy to hide. But most of the passengers just don’t know, can’t know. And they probably feel something is wrong. And that indeed will spoil part of the fun. But how would the train driver let them know what is going on? Especially as this is just all that he wants?

So he feels trapped, trapped between bad choices. As keeping quiet and pretending will hurt, will spoil the fun. As feeling hurt and showing happiness at the same time is virtually impossible. And opening up will hurt in a different way.

So what would the train driver do? Any suggestions where everybody, literally everybody will be happy, happy on this trip that is created to enjoy, have fun?

IFS Tools

One of my biggest dreams for this website was to create tools for people looking for success using the Principles of Success, so I did and create some: one for working on your definite purpose and one to check where you are on each of the Principles of Success.

So just login or sign up and check what this can do on your road to success.

Mamma Mia!

Mamma Mia!

Mamma Mia!Strange, everything starts with a thought. Or not, as in this case it was a CD that we played in the car of a friend that we used last week to go for a day trip to Iligan. So my thought came from something I heard, from something someone else had. So the CD was a soundtrack of the movie Mamma Mia!, or as far as I remember not the real soundtrack, but at least the songs from the movie. And this made me also play the songs from this movie on my computer as I downloaded it quite some time ago. And next to this I also decided to download the movie as I really like it and like to see it in high quality. So yesterday or so the download was finished, so tonight I decided to watch the movie. And right from the start it caused a lot of memories and emotions boil up. The first thing I noticed was that the music was of high quality, the ‘5.1 thing’ or something. So I decided to move the back speakers on the couch as I wanted to enjoy the full experience of the music, of the technical quality of the music. And the quality of the movie on the screen and the quality of the music made me realize that over the last decades somehow technology has progressed a lot. And that it is kind of a miracle that I can watch a movie on a TV with a resolution of 1920×1080 pixels in high quality sound with six speakers, six music channels. And I downloaded this movie for free over the internet, it is stored on the hard disk of a server somewhere in our office and it is streamed over the network in our house to the TV. And also the music I played earlier this week and that I am playing right now is stored on the hard disk of a computer and I think I also downloaded for free.

Memories

And this music means a lot to me, as my ex-partner was an ABBA fan and seeing this movie brings back a lot of memories from the trips we made together, especially to Berlin, when we played CD’s on the way in the car. And I remember those days as a very good time, as the time I enjoyed life the most, which was probably true when we first met, the first few years, the years that seem to bring back all those good memories. And the movie kind has the same subject, where Donna kind of goes back to ‘the good time’, which of course was also not  really a good time, in perspective. And I did like ABBA before as before I met Nico I also owned LP’s from them. And so many emotions came up watching this movie and even right now, as I’m still crying. One thing that came up, next to the holiday memories, was that Nico once said that most of the songs of ABBA are about lost love, about love that is over. And I never realized that before he said that, and after being confronted with that I was never able to listen to the music I did before. And the song mostly related to that is Our Last Summer, which at that time was just one of my favorite songs, somehow even ‘our’ ABBA song, the ABBA song I related to our relationship. And it is still one of my favorite songs, especially the version from the ABBA Teens and now also the version from Mamma Mia!. And somehow it is still related to my previous relationship in a positive way, as we were supposed to grow old together. But we didn’t, still weird.

Musical

Wow, and so many things in my head now. I just want to keep on writing, tell my story, tell everything that is in my head right now. Like that I really admire how someone was able to use those ABBA songs to make a musical out of it, where those songs fit so perfectly that you would almost believe they were written for it. But of course it must be the other way around and what amazes me most is that many songs are being used in a way different from their original meaning, their original context. And I always thought the musical was written by Björn Ulvaeus and Benny Andersson but today I saw in the trailer that it was written by Catherine Johnson,

Growing (old?)

ABBAAnd it’s so weird to hear all those songs now, that were part of my growing up, my years as a teenager and a student, and later in the years of my first relationship. And weird that that is now so long ago and that things like ABBA mostly are only there for a relatively short number of years, where it was a big thing. And looking back a big thing for me as a teenager, as a student, where now I guess most younger people wouldn’t really know what ABBA is or was. And realizing now that the generation before me had other artists, other music they grew up with. Or not only music, but also other things. And that scares me sometimes, that I just prefer to use Windows XP on a standard computer with a 4:3 screen and don’t like to use a tablet or a mobile phone as a computer or to access things on the internet. And that goes even further, as I don’t like the recent structures for websites as these structures are more focused on mobile use with a relatively small touch screen and less for a computer with a mouse with a normal screen. So yes, somehow I’m starting to feel old, that there are things I’m just used to and comfortable with, where the younger generation seems to prefer other things. And no, not old in the sense of outdated or something or not willing to adapt to newer technology or something. Just old in the sense of being used to certain things and preferring not to change as the stuff I grew up with just suits me well and the newer stuff just does not suit me so well. But somehow weird, realizing to be of middle age and that there is a generation after me, that there are generations after me. And at the same time realizing that there were generations before me.

Amazing

And I know I am often complaining about things not working, especially recently my internet. But being an engineer and knowing a bit about statistics it is amazing where we have arrived as humanity, e.g. being able to produce a TV with 1920×1080 pixels where all those more than 2 million(!) pixels, screen areas are just working, for years, without ever one of them failing. And that’s only part of the story, because that same TV has quite some chips and cables and whatever is needed to produce an image on the screen and to produce sound we can hear, in the case of the movie I was watching tonight even six channel music. And a lot of software, developed by many, many people over many, many years.

And the strange thing of our time is that especially the digital stuff is practically for free, as it can easily be copied, not only from computer to computer, but also over the internet. And copying is already as old as I am, as when I was a teenager I copied music from the radio or borrowed LP’s or CD’s to cassette tapes. And computer programs from floppy disk to floppy disk. Or later from CD to CD. And right now from DVD to DVD.

And another strange thing is that many products are also very cheap, like you can’t imagine how anyone can earn from it (anymore). Which I guess is also true, as we produce very many things with machines and in places were labor is cheap.

Distribution

And related to that I was, and the last year(s) often am, thinking how all these things can be produced while at the same moment paying the people who make or do all those things a decent salary. And this is a subject I wrote about more and will write about more. As being a software developer I am also confronted with cheap labor as software can be developed anywhere in the world now, even though the same thing has been going on for decades or maybe even hundreds of years: growing international competition. And having grown up in an industrialized, Western country I was on the good side of all this. But now living in a so called developing country I also see the other side of ‘Western efficiency’. And looking at the world as a whole, at the world economy, I start to believe more and more that we need some kind of different model to distribute the wealth, to distribute everything that is available in the world, either being products, digital stuff or services. Although the last appears to be the easiest, although with my experience with large companies delivering service type products the efficiency model doesn’t seem to work so well.

And looking at my download of the movie Mamma Mia! or other movies, do I feel guilty? No, not really, especially as I guess it may be very hard to buy that movie locally in the same quality, although that is something worth checking. And in the end I guess I even prefer movies in digital format as they don’t take up space but just reside somewhere on a (very small) hard disk.

But yes, somehow this creates, must create a problem for the movie industry. And my main worry is that if the movie industry can’t earn enough, there won’t be new movies of high quality anymore. But somehow famous actors seem to be still very rich and also movie studios seem to do well.

But somehow I believe we need some other model, as the giving side as the receiving side both seem to suffer. No, maybe not on the highest level with the most famous, large companies. But on the middle and lower levels.

Let’s find a way!

So let’s find a way, as we are close to a time humanity has always striven for: having goods and services without having to work for it. And technically we can, so why not organize it in a way everybody can benefit from it?

What’s next

So what’s next? I’ve learned a lot and somehow I progressed a lot, but still there are some things missing.

But yes, I am making progress and I’m becoming more careful. Especially more careful with people, more careful with choosing people.

As today I received an e-mail in reply to a request from me to meet a previous employee again. As I thought he might be one of the people who could be part of restarting my business. And please keep in mind the goal of my business has always been and still is to indeed support myself, but also to support Filipinos and the Philippine economy. But especially the last has proven not to be easy as it is virtually impossible to find decent staff. As it has been very easy to find graduates who were all willing to be trained, which they were and which I did. But in the end I found myself without customers, without any money to invest and without any people willing to support me, help me rebuild the business. As most of those people willing to be trained decided to look for greener pastures elsewhere after having been trained.

And yes, I made my share of mistakes and of course I am responsible for my business, not the staff, the people I hired. And yes, I guess my management skills and social skills are not the best in the world. But looking back I am starting to realize more and more that it is not only me that is the cause that my business is not flourishing, was not growing and in the end kind of stopped. And no, it was certainly not the fault of the staff I hired, the graduates who were just looking for a start and of course in the end left my very small company that was kind of surviving and in the end couldn’t really survive anymore.

But looking back, knowing what I know now I think the main reason is the culture, the Philippine culture that makes it virtually impossible to start a company that wants to do a bit more than standard stuff, a company that wants to stand out and wants to deliver advanced quality stuff and services. And you can’t do that with graduates. And you can’t do that in an environment where the good people go abroad to work. And you can’t do that in a culture where it seems people only want to work as an employee, work for money.

And yes, I know more what I want now and I am still determined to build the company that I have in mind. And yes, I know that is virtually impossible, here in Cagayan de Oro City. But yes,  I know anything is possible and that persistence in the end normally pays off.

But yes, I was very disappointed with the reply I got today. As for me it was an e-mail to someone who I think might be willing and capable to help me rebuild the company, build the company I have in mind to not only serve customers, but also help Filipinos stay with their family, not going abroad. Build a company that can provide decent jobs to the people of Cagayan de Oro City. Help him earn more, have a nicer job.

And no, apparently he was not the right person to ask. As the first thing he did was demanding for solving issues with his Social Security plan. And yes, of course I know there are and have been problems with the payments to the SSS. But the reason is very simple: the company just never earned enough to fulfill many of its obligations to the government. And looking back I have never really earned anything from this company. On the contrary, I think I invested more than the company ever earned. And yes, my mistake with all my good intentions trying to build a decent company here. And yes, certainly for me, for my own income, for my own money. But also definitely for the staff, for the people in Cagayan de Oro City, in The Philippines. But they didn’t make it easy, just leaving mostly after half a year, after a year, after their being trained.

And yes, I guess this person doesn’t know all this, doesn’t know that I lost most of the money I had when I first came to The Philippines. And doesn’t know I lost a lot more, money I don’t even have a clue how to pay back. And my living in a big house and my supposedly high living standard is only a very small part of that.

And yes, I can imagine he is worried about his SSS. And of course I guess that is my problem, the problem of my company. And of course I am looking for ways to settle all my debts. But is the implicit where is my money really the first thing to mention if you are being invited for coffee or something, being invited to restart or cooperate in a business?