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Know thyself

I am more and more amazed with myself, as it seems I am having more and more self confidence and seem to know myself much better than before. And strange, to put the label ‘visionary’ on yourself, as to me visionaries are very important successful people and I am not, or at least not yet. And also you don’t put positive labels like ‘visionary’ on yourself as ‘doing normal, then you do good enough’ as the Dutch say (and I am Dutch and grew up like that).

But I am more and more confirmed that indeed I am a visionary, like today a friend even confirmed that. And before I always wanted to be a manager, as I thought that was a leader, and as I thought as I know now, that is what I was supposed to be as that is how I feel and felt. But people didn’t see me as a manager and as I know now I am not a manager, at least not a good one. And I am not sure I am a leader, but I guess in the end at least the term visionary fits and knowing that makes me feel much more comfortable as now I don’t ‘have to’ be a manager or a leader. I can just be myself.

So what my partner always said and apparently saw is that indeed I didn’t know myself well enough. And everything around me seems to confirm that my new role, my new title fits me better than anything before. As somehow people are starting to listen to me, are starting to take me seriously. And the strange thing is that my ideas are more crazy than ever, even more crazy than I could ever imagine. But somehow it fits, somehow I am, I have to be this crazy guy with these crazy ideas. And I am not ashamed of that anymore and I understand more why people have difficulty understanding and following these things. As they are just built differently, built to be a manager, or maybe a worker or a leader. And not a visionary, not the crazy guy.

And yes, all of this makes me much happier. And it shows.

Flexibility

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I was enjoying an evening out with friends and I was thinking about my daily posts. And that it would be probably very late when I would come home and that I had to choose between discipline and, well, yes what. Failure I guess. So I kind of decided not to write my daily posts, but I arrived earlier home than expected and decided still to write something here, although I want to keep it short. And yes, I knew what the subject would be: flexibility. As discipline is good, but I think we should allow ourselves every now and then to skip something, to do something more important, like being with friends, going out with friends.

And writing the last I still see the success video I saw quite a while ago, that video emphasizing doing all the work when others have fun. And yes, I certainly believe there is a point in that, I certainly believe that success is indeed about discipline and perseverance and such. But I’m not sure if overdoing is the right thing, as that what I sometimes feel I am doing.

So please be relaxed if you skip something some day. As life does not end by not doing your thing, your job or whatever it is you put on yourself. As long as you keep going and not use it as an excuse to not continue.

No water

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Today I am a bit annoyed as there is no water, still even up to now and it is almost four o’clock in the afternoon. And I am blaming the person in charge of repairing the water system. And I feel a bit guilty about that as according to the teachings of Abraham Hicks blaming does not work, even has the opposite effect. And yes, as the teachings of Abraham Hicks are very important to me I am a bit confused, a bit lost. As somehow yesterday and today things are not moving, somehow today and yesterday nothing seems to work. And in my experience it is the surrounding world that creates that, that is first, but according to Abraham Hicks it is the other way around, according to Abraham Hicks my annoyance comes first. However, in my mind is also the story about the access card, the story that you cannot go from very annoyed to very happy in one setting, that you can’t reach happiness in a state of being annoyed.

So yes, according to teachings of Abraham Hicks it would be best to see what the best feeling place would be related to where I can go right now. But it is kind of funny even, as while I am writing this, this idea just makes me more annoyed instead that it brings me to a better feeling place.

So how does this all work? I still have no clue, as today I also got a nice e-mail and my package from the US arrived with a computer add on card that will probably solve the computer problem I still have. And so also there must be something in the idea that it is best to first change your feeling, instead of first taking action. And that is also kind of how it feels to me now, because I have the feeling that whatever action I would take right now, it would not have the proper result, even though I was able to install the card in the computer and even though it seems to work.

So yes, I can still do things, but somehow I also have the feeling that I have to be very careful with what I am doing right now, as e.g. calling people or something might just not work.

So let’s indeed try to relax a bit and ignore all the things around me that are not to my liking, like the water that still does not work, meaning I can’t take a shower which means that my mood normally is bad. As my morning shower mostly makes me feel alive and makes me happy to start my day. And that didn’t happen for more than a month now, as also the water pressure has been lower than usual.

So yes, let’s try to be thankful that John John is repairing the water system and that I don’t have to do it myself. And that there was water in the shower anyhow the last few weeks, even though the pressure was a bit low.

I guess the last might be the starting point to get going.

Have a nice day!

Every day

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Not easy to write a, or actually two, inspirational posts. And I admire more and more people who really manage to write or e-mail something useful every day, or even every week. And yes, I still make the bed every day, something I kind of started with. But that is a task you don’t really need to think about, that’s just a simple task. But writing something new, preferably inspiring, is something completely different. And yes, somehow I like to write (or to talk :)), as often I write quite long e-mails for example. But those are mostly for business, where I want to achieve something, some result or something. But just writing for you, for readers, well, that’s still something else.

But yes, I guess it’s just too much what I want, writing something good, something inspiring every day, next to all my other tasks, next to my work especially, even though I am not that busy lately.

But like today I was busy, not really with work, but with my project, my internet project, my project to improve The Philippines, internet in The Philippines.

And yes, that project inspires me, that project is easy to spend time on, more than anything else. So would that really be my final success, would that really be something in life where I finally really achieve something, for others, but maybe also for myself?

Well, time will tell, but yes, somehow it feels different than anything I have ever done before. And somehow people are replying now to me and some people even seem to be ‘in’ the project, even though nothing has been formalized.

So let’s see. Exciting times.

Stopping?

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Somehow I am thinking about stopping writing every day, but somehow I also decided to continue to write every day. So I think the main issue is to make my posts, the things I write, interesting again, more interesting or just inspirational. As often I find myself, like now, late at night ‘having to’ write my daily posts, send the daily inspirational e-mail and update my gratitude diary. And this ‘have to’ often has nothing to do with writing for you, with the history and the purpose of this site, this blog.

So yes, while writing I know I am going to continue. As that’s just something I decided. But I have to find a way to make it more inspiring, for you as well as for me. As this is not really working, although I still believe that if I write every day for two years Google will start seeing this site as more serious. And that is also kind of the way I started to write, like ‘anything will do’ as long as it is original content and related to the site, to the subject. And in a way I still believe that is true, but I just want to do more and also enjoy it more.

But not easy with no real feedback (yet). And there may be various reasons for that, but I think still one of the reasons is that the site just doesn’t show up in Google enough yet. And another reason is that the content is just not interesting enough. And still another reason is that the tools are not good enough yet.

But yes, the longer I work on this project, the more I admire all those people, all those bloggers who write all these serious blogs. And write every day, or every week, or at least regularly. Because it is not easy to do that, even though right now I know I have developed the habit of writing every day, here and in my more personal Dutch blog. And the more I am working on the tools, or not working that much on them, the more I realize that also that is not as easy as I thought As today I had planned some small extensions, but it was late and I was only able to work very shortly on it. And I made hardly any progress, even though I worked in my normal working speed. So I also admire all those people making tools in other sites. As that often takes much, much more time and effort than one would think. As it seems it is with most things in life.

So yes, maybe I have been too hard on myself, maybe you have been too hard on yourself. As most things that appear so easy if we see other people do it, apparently effortless, come with a lot of effort and time spent. And come with developing habits. And come with persistence. And yes, I also believe things come easy, or relatively easy if you do it inspired, as Abraham Hicks teaches it. So yes, easy, kind of effortless. But not without effort and a lot of time and a lot of persistence.