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Love what you do

Just read this quote:

“The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle.” – Steve Jobs

And I love what I do, but somehow something is missing and somehow there is too much what I don’t like to do. And while thinking I loved more to be the manager of Active Discovery Designs instead of being the whole of Active Discovery Designs what i am now. As today most of my day was spent on doing all kinds of errands in the city, like doing bank transactions and paying bills. And yes, I kind of like that also, but it meant I arrived home at the end of the afternoon and started working something like 5pm.

Mitsubishi Pajero And looking back I see many of my mistakes, but I also don’t know how I could have done it differently. And that is still what is bothering me, what is keeping me busy thinking: how can I make it work, how can I rebuild Active Discovery Designs in a way that would work. And the image of Active Discovery Designs in my mind is quite clear. I see the building and I see 200 people working there. And I see myself in a black Pajero going there, something like being the CEO, something like managing the whole thing, giving it direction.

But no, I don’t see the management team and the employees. As it seems they are not there, they are not in Cagayan de Oro City, not in The Philippines. So how will I get them here?

It was an honour

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“Thank you for telling me the thuth” makes the HAL 9000 computer in the movie 2010 to continue the countdown, saving the humans on a space mission, but being himself destroyed. And I guess behind that is something like being intelligent, being human like, having consciousness means that you can also sacrifice yourself for the greater good, whatever that may be.

And I am still struggling sacrificing a lot for my partners wants and needs. As I feel many of those things go against me, go against to what I want. And no, it’s not just wanting to be with him or something. Or being scared he will leave me. It’s much more complicated than that, although one thing behind it is that I don’t know how to deal with his anger, which I think is the main thing that makes me give in so often. Or just his capability of destroying things, things that I would like to keep, mostly as I, as we can’t afford to replace and often things we need.

So I am thinking a lot what to do. As reason doesn’t seem to arrive, at least not my reason as he is always ‘right’, at least logically. Telling about my feelings also doesn’t seem to arrive, as he doesn’t seem to realize how his actions, his wants, his needs hurt me, make it very difficult or impossible to do the things I want, prioritize my things.

And as I don’t want to retaliate and as I want to acknowledge his needs and wants I mostly give in, although often it is also to keep the peace. And virtually always my needs are not met and my wants are not being catered to.

And they often say it’s all about communication. And maybe about self confidence. But the last I am starting to develop, and the first my not be my strongest point, but with my partner I seem to be at my worst.

So well, I still have a lifetime to find a way to make us both happy. And I’m sure we’ll get there. But as of the moment I still don’t know how to make that happen. As I am certainly not happy, so my goal of us both being happy is not achieved yet.

But yes, I still believe the truth will set us free and love will prevail. As is trying to do the right thing and trying to somehow communicate what is going on on my side.

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One year inspiration for success

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Wow,, one year Inspiration for Success. As what I found a few days ago was that my first post was made on April 4, 2014. So tomorrow it is really the birthday of Inspiration for Success and today, right now it is New Years Eve. Or actually it is already the birthday as it is already past midnight.

What a journey has this been the last one and a half year ago or so. I started with my partner leaving and a book given to me. And my personal blog on http://guus.themalasaghouse.com/, later http://op-weg.inspiration-for-success/. And from that personal blog came Inspiration for Success, this site. And somehow I did manage to change my thinking, something I was never able to all my life before.

And no, the site is not yet successful as how I would call it a successful site. And I didn’t really set a date for it :). But from that deepest down in my life I made quite some journey and somehow I feel better than ever, even though my personal situation is certainly not satisfying and not what I want and need. But it is clearer to me than ever before what I want. And I am more determined than ever to indeed achieve what I want. And I am more certain that I can indeed achieve what I want (in life).

And I keep repeating myself, as my self confidence grew mainly through my desire document, by applying the Principles of Success as researched and described by Napoleon Hill in his book Think and Grow Rich. And this evening was even a good sample of feeling a growing self confidence. As I am able more and more to show others some of the things I learned over the last one and a half year. Things about setting goals, not changing them and keeping going, no matter what. And yes, I believe more and more that that way of thinking can have only two possible outcomes: achieving your goal or dying. And in general the first is much more likely than the second (happening before the first). As most of us would still be pretty sure to have at least ten years to live and it is unimaginable what one can achieve in ten years time. As also in my mind is the saying of Tony Robbins, that you often overestimate what you can do in one year, but underestimate what you can do in ten years time.

So yes, set your goal, write it down, believe, make a plan or don’t and start reading aloud your desire document. And yes, start reading Think and Grow Rich, use it as a workbook. And indeed, just continue doing those things, no matter how weird they feel or no matter whether they give you a feeling at all.

Ah, I can’t explain, but indeed, say something similar to what Napoleon Hill said, that somewhere in his book or other books or this site, you will find the answers that will point you in the right direction, will give you what you want. And yes, also Jesus Christ said the same, something like keep looking and you will find.

So keep looking.

I am planning better now…

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“I am planning better now and am finding the right way of taking action in a relaxed way”.

In the end I will not share my desire document, but what is stated above statement is part of it. And again, the moment I wrote it, it was something impossible to me. And while writing this, this post, I am starting to realize that it is becoming part of me, has become part of me. So again, creating a desire document and reading it aloud regularly, in the beginning, or irregularly, like today, is something unimaginably powerful.

As today I was at the end of everything as my goal was that everybody, especially me, would be happy today, tonight. And I had no clue how to reach that. So even when the party tonight really started I was kind of desperate, as my own happiness was nowhere to be seen, even though I had talked to some people about what was bothering me. But somehow I didn’t feel good about it as I was scared that it would turn people off, would spoil their experience, their happiness tonight. Still, I was so full of what was going on and I didn’t like that I couldn’t keep my mouth shut. And I guess in the end that turned out to be the good thing, especially as I guess I talked to the right people who appeared to be understanding.

Still, somewhere tonight, just before the beginning of the party I still didn’t feel alright and wanted to withdraw, run away. And somehow I ended up in the bedroom and went back to things like goals. And of course my goals are in my desire document and my desire document has become kind of the guideline of my life. So even though I didn’t feel anything like ‘desire document’ I decided to still read it, even though I didn’t really feel it.

And just like mostly, or virtually always, or always in this type of situation my desire document gives me some kind of direction, some kind of peace, some kind of goal. So also tonight.

As even though I didn’t really feel the stuff that is written in it, it always give me something to hold on, there are always parts of it that I can feel and relate to.

And every time I read it, power is added to it. And power is added to me. Somehow it boosts my self confidence, always, no matter how bad the situation is. And I think one of the most powerful things of a desire document is not changing it, no matter how bad things get. As I see it slowly become reality and slowly all the ‘buts’ and ‘ifs’ don’t seem to belong there anymore.

Humble

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Just half an hour ago or so I saw an e-mail sent earlier today from someone within the Smart/PLDT organization who has been asked to address the concerns mentioned in my letter of February 28, 2014 to the CEO and President of Smart, Mr. Napoleon L. Nazareno. And this made me happy, as the tone of the e-mail was such that my concerns are being taken very seriously. And it confirmed to me the leadership of Mr. Nazareno, as to my feeling he has put the right person at the right level in the organization to address my concerns.

It also confirms that most likely the recent actions taken by the local engineers of Smart are related to my letter. And it confirms that Smart is concerned about the things I have been complaining and writing about, contrary to what i, what we, often feel when dealing with large organizations like this. And yes, I still have some feeling of let’s see where this goes, let’s see if they really want to improve things for everybody, but my first impression of this e-mail today is very good.

And even though I am happy, I also feel humble, as especially the engineers did so much to make it all work and they are still following up if they can do something, as the speed I experience is quite low, lower than before. And yes, I still suspect something in the Smart/PLDT infrastructure is somehow limiting the speed, but I am also not 100% sure what’s going on on my side, as I have quite some computers connected and am running IPv6 tunnels that could generate traffic I am not aware of.

And I also feel humble as I don’t know how to run an organization like Smart and keep everything working and keep so many customers happy. And I know my connection is technically OK now and I am also pretty sure there is not something like a Fair Usage Policy volume limitation implemented.

And the last brings me to the fact that I am very much pro Fair Usage Policy in the sense of sharing bandwidth, especially right now as I have the feeling internet traffic is kind of exploding. And I also know that there are other technical limits that may very well affect internet connectivity and might have put Internet Service Providers off guard. Things like number of connections, as these must have exploded during the last year or the last few years with what I see Google and Facebook implement in web pages.

And related to The Philippines in my experience it is very difficult to find proper staff, technically as well as in management positions or in non-standard customer service positions. So one of my guesses is that large companies like Smart and Globe have difficulty to get and keep their technical infrastructure in order as well as their customer support, especially in cases like mine. As in my case with Smart as well as Globe I still believe all kinds of problems came together where no one took or could take charge as it just doesn’t fit the organization and/or the Philippine culture.

And that is exactly why I have been writing my letters and kept pushing and will continue to try to find ways to improve things in The Philippines, for the Philippines. As it is a nice tropical country where i think families should live together and be able to serve each other and the world business wise with a decent standard of living. just from home and not in some far away country in some kind of low level job because of the higher pay.

Wouldn’t that be nice, The Philippines in the top 10 with all kinds of things, like e.g. best internet infrastructure in the world? Why go abroad if you can make it all happen here use and develop your skills and experience here. And enjoy the company of your family, see your children grow up here, at home?