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Still not easy what I am trying to do here, with Inspiration for Success. I want to inspire people, but don’t feel inspiration myself. And I want to change the world, but don’t know how to get the audience.

So right now I’m not sure what to do with Inspiration for Success, with this website. Somehow I’m still committed to my goals, creating a website to inspire people who need inspiration and create a big change in the world so people can enjoy more of what humanity has to offer in goods and services. But I have no clue how to continue and I’m just tired doing it alone. And I tried to build a team to create leverage, but somehow they were and are too busy to contribute to the project with real content, with real action. And yes, somehow they wanted money, wanted return straight away, which as of the moment I don’t know how to realize. And they didn’t believe in my million dollar type of goals. So somehow they also didn’t get the point of aiming big, as in my opinion there is enough small and mediocre.

So yes, time for evaluation and planning. But the last apparently is not my strength. And that’s also what I needed my team, my Master Mind for. And that appears to be maybe my biggest weakness, inspire other people or motivate them to do things.

So what now?

And yes, still looking forward to your comments, any comments. As that would inspire me and would also give me some more idea of what direction to go, even though the direction is already clear to me.

What is good about this?

I often think of the teachings of Abraham Hicks and one of the things in my mind from him is “What is good about this?”, a question he suggests to ask if things happen to you that are bad or if you are in a situation that is not to your liking.

And the last few days were not really to my liking as it has been raining for days now, or maybe even a week here meaning ‘everything’ is wet, like hard to do the laundry and such. Also last night and this morning there was no internet. Probably also partly because of the weather. And that affects me a lot, business wise and private. So that’s why I am now in an internet cafe doing work and write my posts and such.

So what is good about this I am asking myself. Well, good was that I finally finished my letter to Smart about their misleading Fair Usage Policy that in practice is a volume limit on unlimited plans, where ‘misleading’ is a very nice term for what they are actually doing. And it was kind of funny as I didn’t feel like doing it until I had no internet and couldn’t do the things I wanted to do. So their own service in this case went against them, although I’m quite sure they wouldn’t want their service as bad as I and many other users are experiencing based on this policy.

Another good thing is that while starting this post I realized I didn’t feel as bad as this morning when I woke up and don’t feel as bad as I should looking at the situation I am in right now.

But still, this whole weather and internet thing is not really inspiring and I have no clue why all of this is happening to me. But yes, I am starting to believe that there are reasons why things are happening to me, especially after I realized that all the bad things I experienced last week like delays and missing flights ended up in very good things.

So maybe this letter to Smart is just the road to some good things, to connections I need as not everybody would write a letter like this to the CEO of Smart. Or people would just read it and support me with my cause to find ways to make big organizations serve people again instead of the other way around.

And yes, everything at the moment makes me also evaluate where I am, how I got here and how to get to places and situations and I life that I really want.

But that I would prefer to do in the open, in this site as I promised to give when starting this site, and for that I need internet. Although of course I could also write things down in Word and copy it to the site whenever I have access to internet.

And no real inspiration stuff here right now, but maybe this post might just convince you to give me some feedback, any feedback on what external inspiration would help you achieve your goals in life.

Looking forward to your comments.

Persistence or being stubborn

It is two o’clock in the morning and I was asking myself if I am just being stubborn or stupid doing my daily Inspiration for Success thing or if this could translate into persistence related to achieving success. And there are several related questions in my mind also, as I’m not sure if I would ask from anyone else to spend this one hour or so at the end of the day doing something that’s not that important. Or is it important. Or would I ask it from someone else or would I suggest it to someone else who wants to achieve success, who wants to be really successful, really rich like I want.

But somehow I have been doing this kind of thing all my life and it didn’t work out. Pushing through, keeping doing things. But somehow I also have the feeling that if I just keep going, just keep writing, just keep insisting I want Active Discovery this web development company in Cagayan de Oro City with its own building and with around two hundred people, qualified people, happy people and people making a decent living and enjoying their work and enjoying supporting their customers. And of course a company that serves its customers well and delivers quality services and products that make customers satisfied and happy.

And no, I have no plan for that, at least not anymore. And it seems that’s the main thing missing, but I’m too tired of it all, of trying to build this company, trying, yes, to help myself and trying to help The Philippines, help Filipino people to have decent local jobs so they don’t have to go abroad, away from their family. And I still believe my intention was good. But somehow it all fell apart and I have no clue how to get where I want to get with that.

And yes, that was one of the reasons I felt very down today. As it felt I was coming back to, came back to a place where there is nothing left and a place where I don’t see any future, not anymore. As I tried so hard and it didn’t work out (until now?). With Active Discovery and with The Malasag House. And yes, somewhere deep down I still want all of that, still want the things that I had in mind when we started  Active Discovery and when we moved to The Malasag House. But I have no clue how as I can’t find any Master Mind or something and I have no clue about any plan.

And yes, now there is also Inspiration for Success and even Philippine Insurances and an idea for a Philippine Real Estate website.

And yes, somehow I lost the focus, or don’t have focus or should have more focus. But if you try to find people to cooperate with and you can’t find them for one project then you might want to try something else, wouldn’t you? And yes, you might also want to try to do it alone, but that’s not easy as sometimes it’s just too much work and sometimes it’s just too lonely. And today I wrote in my Dutch post that I have the feeling I do so much, often more than the average person. Like I try to fulfill my promises to other people and even though I sometimes fail, I often feel so much left alone by other people who made promises to me and didn’t fulfill their promise, people who gave me hope and then just didn’t perform, didn’t do what they promised.

So I often wonder if I am that bad, if I also leave other people alone with the things I promised. But somewhere deep inside I feel like I’m doing more, trying more than the people that made promises to me.But it makes me insecure, because of course you never know those things.

So yes, I still want everything, still want success, still want to build this company and still want to rebuild The Malasag House and let it come alive again, but this time for the good, this time better, this time for real. But I have no clue how and I somehow also can hardly find that feeling place as so many things went wrong, so many things didn’t work out and so many things take so much effort to make them work or turn them around.

So yes, maybe this whole blog, this whole site is just me crying for help, crying for people to help me make all these things come true, crying for people who can see that leadership of ideas and hard work in me and are willing to go with me, for me.

You wanna help, wanna be part of those dreams? So much good can come out of all that, out of my dreams. So please let me know if you want to help, so I can also help you and help The Philippines and the Filipino people.

Iwa

Be careful with what you hate or don’t want:

Iwa

You may get it.

Sweet isn’t she?

No way out

There appears to be light at the end of the tunnel, but the torture, the effects of past decisions, partly decisions of hope, are still not over.

And somehow I still see no way out.

Why does life have to be like this? And why is there help for everybody, for disaster victims, for mentally ill, for physically ill, but not for people like me, or people like me in the moment, in the moment of suffering?

And no, there is no solution, because somehow I want the impossible. It seems, it feels, it’s how I think other people look at it.

And it’s just sad.

But it hurts, it hurts, and the pain, the desperation, the stress destroys even more.

So I even asked, begged for a way out. But it was not given, not given yet.