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Busy again

Wow, it’s good to be busy again. At least now I don’t have to worry about what to do next, how to find customers or projects and mainly how to sustain myself and the people close to me and the household and such.

But also a bit tiring as I’m not really used to work for many hours a day anymore. And yes, I know it’s tiring to do the work I do, even for a few hours and then you need a break.

Still no clue though how to continue towards my biggest business dream, an internet company with a staff of around 200 people in Cagayan de Oro City. As I know now it is probably very hard to find people with the mindset and skills that I need to make that company work.

But that’s also why I’m mentioning it here. Because maybe you are the ambitious or not so ambitious person who wants to develop himself, help build a company like I have in mind, help build Cagayan de Oro City and The Philippines into a decent city and country where people can just find decent jobs locally and don’t have to go abroad, don’t need to have their mindset abroad because ‘abroad’ means a decent income in probably a not-so-decent job.

So please help me and yourself and Cagayan de Oro City and The Philippines by helping me serve the customer base I’m developing right now.

And yes, my commitment is there, as that company is one of my life goals and I won’t stop moving in that direction until I get there or until I die. And no, it won’t be easy, because with the current Philippine mindset and education don’t seem to be adequate to compete with other countries.

But yes, I promise I will make it work. Are you joining?

Empty screen

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Still not easy what I am trying to do here, with Inspiration for Success. I want to inspire people, but don’t feel inspiration myself. And I want to change the world, but don’t know how to get the audience.

So right now I’m not sure what to do with Inspiration for Success, with this website. Somehow I’m still committed to my goals, creating a website to inspire people who need inspiration and create a big change in the world so people can enjoy more of what humanity has to offer in goods and services. But I have no clue how to continue and I’m just tired doing it alone. And I tried to build a team to create leverage, but somehow they were and are too busy to contribute to the project with real content, with real action. And yes, somehow they wanted money, wanted return straight away, which as of the moment I don’t know how to realize. And they didn’t believe in my million dollar type of goals. So somehow they also didn’t get the point of aiming big, as in my opinion there is enough small and mediocre.

So yes, time for evaluation and planning. But the last apparently is not my strength. And that’s also what I needed my team, my Master Mind for. And that appears to be maybe my biggest weakness, inspire other people or motivate them to do things.

So what now?

And yes, still looking forward to your comments, any comments. As that would inspire me and would also give me some more idea of what direction to go, even though the direction is already clear to me.

Persistence or being stubborn

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It is two o’clock in the morning and I was asking myself if I am just being stubborn or stupid doing my daily Inspiration for Success thing or if this could translate into persistence related to achieving success. And there are several related questions in my mind also, as I’m not sure if I would ask from anyone else to spend this one hour or so at the end of the day doing something that’s not that important. Or is it important. Or would I ask it from someone else or would I suggest it to someone else who wants to achieve success, who wants to be really successful, really rich like I want.

But somehow I have been doing this kind of thing all my life and it didn’t work out. Pushing through, keeping doing things. But somehow I also have the feeling that if I just keep going, just keep writing, just keep insisting I want Active Discovery this web development company in Cagayan de Oro City with its own building and with around two hundred people, qualified people, happy people and people making a decent living and enjoying their work and enjoying supporting their customers. And of course a company that serves its customers well and delivers quality services and products that make customers satisfied and happy.

And no, I have no plan for that, at least not anymore. And it seems that’s the main thing missing, but I’m too tired of it all, of trying to build this company, trying, yes, to help myself and trying to help The Philippines, help Filipino people to have decent local jobs so they don’t have to go abroad, away from their family. And I still believe my intention was good. But somehow it all fell apart and I have no clue how to get where I want to get with that.

And yes, that was one of the reasons I felt very down today. As it felt I was coming back to, came back to a place where there is nothing left and a place where I don’t see any future, not anymore. As I tried so hard and it didn’t work out (until now?). With Active Discovery and with The Malasag House. And yes, somewhere deep down I still want all of that, still want the things that I had in mind when we started Active Discovery and when we moved to The Malasag House. But I have no clue how as I can’t find any Master Mind or something and I have no clue about any plan.

And yes, now there is also Inspiration for Success and even Philippine Insurances and an idea for a Philippine Real Estate website.

And yes, somehow I lost the focus, or don’t have focus or should have more focus. But if you try to find people to cooperate with and you can’t find them for one project then you might want to try something else, wouldn’t you? And yes, you might also want to try to do it alone, but that’s not easy as sometimes it’s just too much work and sometimes it’s just too lonely. And today I wrote in my Dutch post that I have the feeling I do so much, often more than the average person. Like I try to fulfill my promises to other people and even though I sometimes fail, I often feel so much left alone by other people who made promises to me and didn’t fulfill their promise, people who gave me hope and then just didn’t perform, didn’t do what they promised.

So I often wonder if I am that bad, if I also leave other people alone with the things I promised. But somewhere deep inside I feel like I’m doing more, trying more than the people that made promises to me.But it makes me insecure, because of course you never know those things.

So yes, I still want everything, still want success, still want to build this company and still want to rebuild The Malasag House and let it come alive again, but this time for the good, this time better, this time for real. But I have no clue how and I somehow also can hardly find that feeling place as so many things went wrong, so many things didn’t work out and so many things take so much effort to make them work or turn them around.

So yes, maybe this whole blog, this whole site is just me crying for help, crying for people to help me make all these things come true, crying for people who can see that leadership of ideas and hard work in me and are willing to go with me, for me.

You wanna help, wanna be part of those dreams? So much good can come out of all that, out of my dreams. So please let me know if you want to help, so I can also help you and help The Philippines and the Filipino people.

Worlds top five transporters

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I was just watching the documentary “The worlds top five transporters” on Discovery Channel. And I was amazed (again) at what humans, or actually humanity, can achieve, has achieved. And also how small one human being is. And also how much has been achieved already even before I was born. And how much was achieved when I was a child, grew up.

And somehow I don’t feel part of it, don’t feel part of it anymore at least. And somehow I am thinking more and more about the poor people in the world, which may even be the majority. The people who will never really see the world, will never really experience all those marvels that have been created by human kind.

And I was thinking about the Apollo program, the moon program in the sixties in the US. As one of the worlds top five transporters in the program was the crawler. And about those Apollo rockets (or they are actually called Saturn I think), the largest rockets ever built if I remember correctly.

And again, I was thinking that indeed as humanity we are building an awful lot of things nowadays, computers and tablets and cell phones in mass production and even marvels as shown in those “Worlds top five” programs. But somehow I still believe we don’t do anything big anymore and I wrote about that before. And I guess I’ll be writing about it again. We don’t go to the moon anymore, and we’re not really planning to go to Mars, let alone to the stars, to other solar systems or galaxies. And isn’t that what humanity is about, going beyond anything, exploring everything, everything there is in the Universe? And we just don’t seem to do it anymore.

So where are the heroes making these big ideas, the really, really big ideas come true? Or should I be the one, could I be the one?

And yes, while writing this I know this post has two different, almost opposite views: the poor people not even enjoying the benefits of what humanity has achieved in practical things. And the things that go beyond everything and would cost an awful lot of money and effort, where that effort and money would not be available to bring joy to the poor people in this world.

But yes, in the end I believe it’s about the special, about the one thing that shouldn’t be done, that’s too expensive, too great, too big a dream too impractical.

But are those things, those dreams not what life is all about?

You’re doing it wrong

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I’m not sure what’s going wrong, what I do or don’t do or whatever.

Just five minutes ago someone said to me I did it wrong. And I know he was worried. But it hurt a lot and it still hurts a lot.

And fifteen minutes earlier someone else also told me I did something wrong. And that I ‘should’ do it differently.

And is seems this has been going on all my life, that I did things ‘wrong’ and ‘should’ do things.

So what is this. Am I doing the same to others? Am I somehow evoking these things for others?

And yes, it seems this all goes back to something like self confidence, which apparently I don’t have or at least don’t show.

And I guess it’s all meant well.

But it hurts. So let’s be careful what we say to each other and how we say it. Nobody has the right to judge that what we are doing is wrong. Or tell us that we ‘should’ do something.

Am very interested if you have similar experiences or have a different opinion about this.