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Change in energy

A few days ago I read about a (spiritual) change in energy someone felt. And I think I can also feel it, I also felt it the last few days, the last few weeks. Something seems to have changed for the good, in the world. And it doesn’t change in one setting, it doesn’t change from ‘bad’ to ‘good’ in one switch, in one instant. As the last week I felt kind of terrible and it just started to change back to ‘good’ yesterday or the day before. And yesterday and today I also still didn’t feel fully OK, especially after waking up.

Fish

But tonight, while doing my ‘IFS‘ things I slowly started to feel the peace, the sounds of nature, the insects within the quiet, the things here that are so beautiful, that make this place kind of into heaven. And I still miss to share that, share that again. But now from a positive perspective, from peace, from ‘positive being’ and not from fear and worry as I used to do before. And it’s weird as I have no clue how to get there. I know now more what I want, more than ever. But practically spoken it is further from me than ever at the same time. ‘Reality’ tells me, or better ‘people’ tell me that I need to be real, that I need to be practical. And maybe I should, maybe I’m just heading towards more trouble, more towards things I don’t want.

But somehow I think more and more that I should stick to what I want, to my dreams, not give up, but be persistent, be patient. As I see more and more who I am. And that maybe I’m just a dreamer, someone who doesn’t (want to) see ‘reality’. But where would we be without dreamers, without dreams. We would still walk in animal skins or maybe even be more like animals, like apes. We would not have our daily food and other needs being given to us, and that even applies to virtually all poor people as who in the world still caters for 100% for their own food and clothes and other basic needs? And we wouldn’t have gone to the moon and there wouldn’t be cars and planes, let alone medicines. So yes, the more I think about it, the more I read about it, everything, literally everything we see around us, literally everything we are started with a dream, a thought. So should I stop dreaming, should you stop dreaming, even if it’s about things that people tell us is not ‘reality’. But we create reality, reality consists just of beliefs that have been practiced (Abraham Hicks) or the choices humanity and Infinite Intelligence or God or the Universal Consciousness made, choices you and I make.

So let’s keep dreaming. And in my own experience the more I dream, the more I want(ed) things for myself, the more I also realized in the end I (also) want to give. Yes, I want to stay in this house and yes, I like the house also because I like to show off with a big house. But I also want to share the place, invite friends, family, maybe even strangers as the place is so beautiful and it’s typically a place, a house to share. And yes, I want a big car, a black Pajero, big and that type because it’s expensive and I want to show off. But the more I thought and think about it I mainly want a car so I can move around again and visit friends or go to the beach with the dogs and (sometimes) with friends, just to enjoy, enjoy life. And to just go to the city, to be able to roam around easier, for business and pleasure. And yes, some money, not money for the money, but just money to buy new shoes and new clothes and some new stuff for my partner. And to repair the house as it’s so sad to see such a beautiful house fall apart, a house where there have been so many parties and so many people enjoyed the view and each others company. And yes, some money to just buy the food and drinks to create those parties, as at the moment I’m too embarrassed to invite anybody, in the house as it is and without proper food and drinks worthy of the house, and of course of the people.

And some simple things like a camera. Just a simple one. Not for myself as I don’t like taking pictures. But just to be able to take some pictures to share on this site, like the water system pictures I need for the first real proper page I made and I can’t finish right now because I can’t make the pictures I want to put.

And I feel guilty now, as asking things like this is ‘not done’, especially not for yourself. What crazy world do we live in, that we limit each other for ‘having’ things. What’s wrong with wanting a Pajero, or even a Rolls-Royce, but the last I don’t even want. Or wanting a big house or, indeed a lot of money. Why do we deny these things to each other. These things we all want. Where did we ever create the idea that it’s ‘bad’ to want things, material things. And why would we need to ‘earn’ these things through ‘hard work’. Again, the more I think about it it’s just crazy. Neither of us is even able to create a simple breakfast on his or her own. That is why we organized the world into what it now is. And this is the first time in history I believe we, as humanity, have the (technical) knowledge and ability to produce virtually anything that anybody would want or need. And we stick with this outdated ‘earning’ and ‘work hard’ thing.

I am dying to give my services to people, to develop websites and web applications and do some internet marketing so things can be ‘found’ on the internet by people looking for stuff or information. And all around me I see companies, shops, dying to sell their stuff. Supermarkets are full of food and anything else what anybody could even imagine. And, I think I’m repeating myself, most of the things I see around me I don’t need and don’t even want. So the idea of scarcity, that there is not enough for everybody is just a thought, just a perception. And it may be true there is not enough, as I don’t know figures about needs and wants of people and production capacity available or needed to produce all of that.

But even if it is true I’m quite sure technically we could produce, create everything anybody would want or need. So yes, I’m really to believe in these ideas about abundance, that there is enough for everybody and that that all can be done without harming other people or the environment.

So let’s find a way out of this mess, this way of thinking of ‘scarcity’ and the idea that people are greedy and want ‘everything’. I’m quite sure most people are like me, and don’t want everything that’s availalbe in supermarket or anywhere else.

Alone

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So somehow today, and maybe some more time than I thought before, was an alone day. So I was searching for alone quotes and sent one. And I found another one for this post:

“if you wanted to do something absolutely honest, something true, it always turned out to be a thing that had to be done alone.” – Richard Yates.

So for example with this website, with the project Inspiration for Success, it still feels I’m alone, no matter there is a team. And somehow I’m not good with teams, with people, at least not in relation to projects, to achieving something (together).

And indeed, going back to Inspiration for Success, I have big ideas and big plans for this project and this website. But somehow, until now, I was not able to convey that, the whole idea to the team. And I know somehow I’m trying to do something virtually impossible, something weird, and it even changed and changes over time. And often it feels like I’m not the right person to do this, to make my ideas, my dreams come true, e.g. with this website, this project. As somehow I’m still not able to inspire or motivate people to do the work, to really actually do some more things.

And yes, maybe I’m the wrong person, maybe it’s the wrong team, maybe it’s the wrong time, maybe…

But still, something deep inside me says I should push through with this, try to get my message to the world. And I’m not even sure why or how, even though of course I also have all those voices in my head telling me what to do or not do like everybody seems to have.

So where to go from here? I have no clue actually. But maybe indeed I should use the ideas from the Law of Attraction and focus more on what I have in mind, what the end result should be. And not so much on how to get there.

And maybe this is still also the right post to tell my little story about a project I have been working on for a few days, a few weeks, and check that project against the Principles of Success. Or no, maybe indeed make that a page: sample application of the principles of success. But here I have a problem, as I don’t want to offend our Editor in Chief, who made a stand for delivering quality pages. So the link I have put may not work yet as a page has to be approved by our Editor in Chief.

So yes, somehow I’m trying to do something honest and true with Inspiration for Success. And it seems indeed that it is something I may have to do alone, somehow. As I can’t do it alone and don’t want to do it alone. But maybe indeed being the leader somehow means you are alone and you have to do it alone, even if there is a team supporting you.

Teamwork

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Yes, today I watched another movie. And the more I look around me the more I see that everything is teamwork, literally everything. In everything we do, in everything we receive, in everything that is there, there are many people involved, all contributing to the things we have.

So yes, I’m starting to become grateful for that, that I don’t have to grow my own food or have to shoot some animal for meat. And that’s even the simplest thing. What about the computer I’m using now or the TV I was watching earlier. Or just the electricity to make the lights shine or the simple native bed that I will sleep in later. Even that was made, was made possible by the effort of many people.

So thank you, all the people who make my life easier, even though we don’t always see that, feel that.

Overdoing (or doing?)

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It is twelve thirty (after midnight) and I just arrived home from a party. So I was wondering if I was not overdoing writing a post, or actually two, that I don’t really feel like writing. So while searching for the daily quote I searched for ‘inspiration quote overdoing’ and to my amazement the first thing I found were quotes like “Anything worth doing is worth overdoing” supposedly said by several famous (=successful?) people like Mick Jagger, Steven Tyler, David Letterman and some more people whose names I didn’t recognize.

So unlike what I feel or what I think other people think overdoing might not be a bad thing if you would be able to ‘overdo’ something anyhow. And this site and my other site, or at least especially the posts in my other site are important to me. Especially the daily posts in my other site are kind of sacred to me as they are related to a promise I made to myself.

So here I am, writing my daily post and also realizing what I wrote in the previous sentence. It seems that even while I think I don’t care so much about the opinions of other people, and according to the principles of success I shouldn’t, I still do.

And I think something should change as I think I focus too much on my procedure, my obligation to write a daily post here, especially after the team yesterday pointed out that the site needs a better structure, needs to be better organized and made accessible to people, to you. But somehow the habit of daily posts also keep me going, especially in this for me difficult time as the site doesn’t really has traffic yet. And the traffic will just come with the content and with time, which is my main reason to keep writing, just for SEO reasons. And that has been the main reason from the very start, to get entry points to the site and then point people to the pages part of the site. So I think my ‘still writing’ until now is not overdoing, just doing, just keeping going on the road I started a few months ago.

But the last few weeks, yesterday and also now make me feel that it is indeed time to make some changes, to make better plans, to start creating the real site, start creating the real project Inspiration for Success and that is about inspiring people, not just trying to get people to the site, traffic to the site.

So yes, it’s time for change, it’s time to start the real project. And everything seems to point this is the right time, including the team starting to be a real team, and the last was, as you may know, a real challenge to me, maybe the biggest challenge I ever had in my life.

Making progress

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Wow, it seems I’m really making progress. Today we had the first team meeting with the whole team together, even though we had to fall back to chat as some of our internet connections and/or Skype let us down a little bit. But amazing what you can do in 2013 in the virtual reality of internet connections, like building a virtual team. And you may know that ‘people’ and/or ‘team’ and/or ‘teamwork’ and/or ‘Master Mind‘ are not my strongest points, but today I was really proud of myself that, well, I, have somehow managed to build a team around our project Inspiration for Success.

And I’m starting to believe that patience may have been my biggest issue in cooperation with other people as I know I used to push hard and expected employees, team members and who else to put the same amount of effort and time as I do and expected them to be as intelligent as I am or maybe something like expected them to understand straight away what I want without properly explaining what I want or properly instructing them or give them time to think things over and let it sink in.

So things seem to sink in with my team members and they even start taking initiatives and generate ideas that i had never thought of or could have never thought of. So I may be ‘intelligent’, but other people have their own intelligence and I’m certainly not ‘all knowing’, which I think I presumed I was too much.

So wow, what a day, that started very, very bad as I had a very bad mood as i really didn’t know where to go anymore, but that’s another story.

So yes, I’m starting to become very happy with my team and I’m very proud of them! Thanks a lot for being with me, staying with me, Christian, John and Robin. Thanks for your patience, support and the work you all already have done. Thanks!