Wow, today I started to feel the Power of the Master Mind as described by Napoleon Hill. As you may know the Master Mind principle, so more simple, ‘teamwork’, is one of my biggest weaknesses. So realizing that after my(?!) last formal team meeting on May 7, 2013 there was finally a team meeting today was really progress for me.

So yes, I guess this is my learning process. I am an idea guy and have many and great ideas. And I am very intelligent and a fast learner. But other people have other interests and other priorities and involving them in a project like this as i want is not easy or even ‘impossible’, at least short term. They also don’t have the background in this project, don’t have the feel, the connection with it as I have. And I’m asking also something ‘impossible’ as I want them to do a lot of work while not paying them as I don’t have the money to pay them. If I had I would probably do, so one of my options is even to find an investor for my project. But then, what project? The project Inspiration for Success that is intended to build “The best website to inspire people (for success)”? Or my sample project to make myself successful, make me earn one million dollar?

And of course the last is very egoistic also, even though I want my team members also earn one million dollars each. However, what i am starting to notice is that it is very hard to do ‘anything’ positive to people if you are really in need yourself. And yes, I am in need of quite some things and that makes it very hard to ‘be’ something for other people. So yes, I can understand that mostly or only successful people can be inspiring, share their story. Why would you follow me, with my business down the drain, no money left and quite alone without many friends?

So yes, I need success, you need success if you want to inspire people, guide people, lead people. So yes, I need my sample project to succeed, at least partly, so I don’t need to worry about money, about what I will eat next month or where i will live. As ‘living’ and ‘eating’ are very important for people and indeed, I never knew how important, so I’m very happy with the lesson, feeling like having nothing left. But I don’t want to stay there as it’s very humiliating and indeed, makes unhappy in the sense that “Money certainly does not make one happy, but no money certainly brings unhappiness”.

And yes, why wouldn’t I be traveling again, enjoy life? Do the things I want to do? Just for fun? Who wouldn’t want to? Who doesn’t deserve that? Indeed, I’m starting to believe more and more that life is to be enjoyed, that life is not supposed to be ‘suffering’. And yes, suffering brought me a lot of insight, I have learned much more from suffering than from happiness. But I’m also tired, tired from having no money, from not even be able to go to the beach, from not being able to treat the dogs well with their skin diseases, not being able to visit friends and family. So yes, I can imagine a little bit now what it must be to have children in this kind of situation. It must be heartbreaking if you can’t feed your children, can’t send them to school or just take care of them as you would like to, as they deserve.

So yes, I’m still privileged, basically only having myself to take care of, but it’s no fun, certainly not.

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