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Sick or excuse

Well, yesterday I skipped, not only my blogs, my daily quote and my gratitude page, but I also missed my planning.

And yes, I could have done it. But in the end I didn’t, because I felt sick and exhausted. And spent most of the day in bed.

And i was a bit in doubt, as i am quite well on the way being very disciplined finishing my planning for the day. And this was even the second day in weeks now that I decided NOT to do (all) the things I planned for the day.

So I could have done it, and i guess that’s what some (successful?) people would have done. But it didn’t feel really good to do it as I really felt sick, tired, exhausted. But especially it didn’t feel inspired, inspiring.

And that’s what i miss a bit, or actually a lot. Or something like ‘the most’. Doing things in an inspired way, doing things as Abraham Hicks describes. Doing things in a way described related to the Law of Attraction.

And thinking further, this is exactly also what Napoleon Hill calls desire, desiring things, achieving things in an inspired way.

And i know I have missed this for quite a long time. And it’s kind of bothering me. And I’m not sure what to do about is, to ‘relight my fire’. And I wrote about it before, that I didn’t feel the desire (anymore).

And yes, I am working on it, reading stuff related to that. And every now and then reading my desire document again, yes aloud.

So somehow, yes, I’m getting closer. As I feel myself getting stronger. And more confident. And more capable of ‘learning’ those things, the things like planning and discipline.

So yes, somehow Think and Grow Rich brought me something. And it seems that kind of applying all of those principles, everything in the book, brings you closer. But I often wonder if so called ‘successful people’ don’t have these things more by nature. And why I have to struggle so hard. And why I’m still ‘not there’.

But time will tell. And yes, I’m getting stronger, more confident. And recently even more money came in. So somehow it works, somehow it’s starting to work.

So be confident. And persistent. And keep believing.

No matter what.

About change

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My partner always wanted me to change. And I never understood. And maybe he meant something else than what I understand now. And maybe I am not realistic. But I think I did change, and I did change in a positive way. As before with expensive things I often thought (and said): we can’t afford it. But right now I am much more careful and today’s test drive with a Subaru or maybe even buying one is more of a step on the road to my dream car, a black Mitsubishi Pajero, highest diesel type with manual transmission than something ‘I can’t afford’ or something ‘impossible. So even if I don’t have any clue where to get the money, not ‘even’ for a Subaru or any car at all, I did enjoy our visit to the local Subaru dealer and today’s testdrive with a Subaru XV.

Dreaming about cars

And I enjoyed these visits especially as I realized that Subaru still builds cars in a non-conventional way, with a boxer engine and four wheel drive and only available with gasoline engines. And especially while watching the engine bay a few days ago I had the feeling these cars are really built with love, unlike many other cars available in The Philippines who mostly look like efficient work horses. And driving it today made me realize that the car industry had really matured since I was a teenager as this car I was driving today was smooth and simple and still fun. And it was all even for free. And yes, it made me kind of realize again that I am supposed to drive cars, enjoy cars while driving, as I kind of play with them, they do what I want to do.

And yes, you may think I’m crazy, but indeed, looking at things in a positive way, just enjoying what’s there without really thinking about ‘buying’ or ‘owning’ or ‘money’, made me feel very happy. And i’m sure the people around me felt that.

Persistence again

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Happy Sun Well, today was about persistence again as it seemed that everything that could go wrong did go wrong, even until fifteen minutes ago.

And I am still wondering if this is what all successful people seem to say, that you just need to go on until you’re there, no matter what.

So right now I am kind of asking myself if I’m successful. And somehow I am, as I am writing this post which is something I wanted to do today. And I just worked a little on the tools page, the part of the site that is going to give value to the site in the form of some kind of service. And I did do some work today, also something I planned. And in the mean time my biggest desire, my greatest dream, the impossible thing that I wanted to happen seems to start happening. So yes, somehow I am successful.

But some part of the success is still missing and I have no clue how to get there. And that is still the financial success I am looking for. And that type of success has different stages, where as of the moment somehow my biggest issue is that I have debts that don’t suit me and that I never expected to have. And somehow I just had some kind of discussion about abundance with someone in Facebook where she was pointing out that abundance comes from cost cutting. But to me abundance is about things coming to you and that is quite the opposite to cutting, cutting anything.

And yes, thinking from reason and what everybody believes you would get richer financially by living within your means and indeed cost cutting if you are living beyond your means or want to save for the future. But thinking from the ideas of Abraham Hicks and the Law of Attraction cost cutting wouldn’t bring you anywhere, except from, indeed, cost cutting, not using stuff. And yes, also Napoleon Hill states that living beyond your means will get you in trouble, will be an issue on the road to success, on the way to financial success.

But looking at myself just working hard also doesn’t bring you anywhere in the end. I used to have some very good jobs and made quite some money, and yes, I saved a lot. And most of my life I have been very frugal and that also brought me to the point where I had quite some money in the bank. And in that period I also spent a lot, on holidays and all kinds of nice stuff.

But in the end it didn’t bring me anywhere. And looking back somehow I was going on ‘strength’, not on ‘feeling’. And from that feeling I went down. Yes, indeed, very slowly, but down I went. But recently I go more from feeling and with that it seems I am going up, no matter how frustrated I am with my financial situation. But up I went, at least emotionally and as a person.

So as of the moment I don’t know for sure what to believe, what to do, how to choose between abundance and cost cutting.

So looking forward to your thoughts.

Cold weather

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Today’s post is inspired by a friend of mine who is visiting us at the moment. And the subject cold weather is a bit strange to me as being Dutch cold weather has nothing inspiring to me as the Dutch normally associate cold weather with temperatures below twenty degrees Celsius and with moist or rainy weather that in general quite unpleasant in countries like The Netherlands. But my friend kind of insisted that she considered cold weather quite inspirational or is even inspired by cold weather and when thinking a bit further of course I also knew why.

As my friend is from The Philippines where it is normally quite hot, hotter than most Philippine people like, opposite to the Dutch in The Netherlands. So in The Philippines cold weather is related to cool weather, cooler weather than ‘hot’, where hot means that you can’t do so much and would like to have air conditioning to make the temperature a bit more comfortable than the common ‘hot’. And yes, Philippine people often like cooler areas to relax, to have holiday, to enjoy a weekend or so and where cooler to me has no association with cold, of course Philippine people would associate cold, especially when related to weather, with cool weather, weather that is agreeable opposite to ‘hot’, something like twenty five degrees Celsius that I would also consider a nice ‘cool’ temperature.

So this whole thing made me think that ‘cold’ is really relative and that ‘cold weather’ can mean many things to people like either nice or positive or not so nice or negative. It is indeed a matter of perspective, of where you come from or what association you have with a certain word or condition.

And the message I wanted to pass in this post is that we have to be very careful in interpreting things, interpreting things other people say or mean, as we may fully misunderstand what is being said, what is being conveyed just by words that have a fully different meaning to us than to the other person.

And also that my first association with ‘cold’ in general is negative, because somehow I prefer ‘warm’ over ‘cold’. But only in certain situations, for certain things. As of course I would want my ice cream cold, ice cold and not warm. And I want my refrigerator or freezer also cold. And indeed, when it’s too hot outside I would also want it cooler or want to use air conditioning.

So again, it’s all in the mind, in the thoughts we have when hearing a certain word, a certain sound.

So be careful how to interpret things, whether it is from what others say or whether they are just thoughts in our own mind. As it is all a matter of perspective, of perception.

Tired after a long trip

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I am tired after quite a long travel day where I and many others had to wait quite a long time for the ferry to bring us from Cebu to Negros. But I keep thinking about the teachings of Abraham Hicks, especially where he states that many, many things need to line up to make things happen and I am starting to trust more and more that thing happen for a reason and I am trusting Infinite Intelligence more and more to give and bring me the things I need and want. And today it meant I was not so worried that I woke up a little later than planned and that I was held up a little longer in the hotel than I wanted. And I was right, because the moment I arrived at the bus terminal a bus was waiting for me, a bus about to leave, that indeed left five or ten minutes after I arrived.

And there was more, as I found a seat that was perfect because it brought me into contact with some very nice people that even may be good contacts for the future. But even if it was just for today, or today and tomorrow or something, it was a good contact.

And yes, I was annoyed as there was no ferry, that we had to wait an awful lot of time for the ferry to arrive, only to find out that it didn’t leave because the weather was still too bad. But again, the reason was probably that I had to meet Rony (not sure about the spelling of his name) from Norway, with whom I had a very nice conversation and who seemed very close to me as a person.

And yes, I’m still a bit annoyed as I probably have to extend my stay in Dumaguete, meaning I have to let John wait for my arrival. But yes, there must be good reasons for that, as it seems that if I just listen to my inner voice things just turn out to be right.

So yes, trust your inner voice and follow it and you can’t go wrong.