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Hypocrite

Lately I think quite a lot about how hypocrite I actually am, as I actually run an advertising company and do link building and stuff and yes, am also earning from advertising on the internet and sell links. On the other side I criticize companies, humanity for ‘paying virtually everything’ through advertising.

So yes, I understand it’s not that easy to change the thinking about ‘money’ and ‘earning’, as also I have to live, have to eat and as of the moment I don’t see much other ways than working and indeed, getting some secondary income from advertising and selling links.

And I also still have no idea how my ‘give and receive model‘ would actually work. As people want to distinguish themselves, e.g. through buying different hings, buying a bigger car and a smaller house or the other way around. And it would still be hard to see someone else receive the same amount of money or stuff (or more) and working less than you or me as of course our ‘earning model’ is rooted deeply in society and each of us.

So yes, I realize that there are very good reasons why our society, why our ‘exchange model’ or how you would want to call it, is like it is. And yes, it brought us where we are now, a world that somehow is ‘better’ than it was before.

But I still believe it needs change, indeed something like going back to a very early stage in human development, when there was no ownership of things and no money, just sharing. Or wasn’t it that simple also then?

Persistence (and not stubbornness)

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People have always called me stubborn, especially when I was younger. And I always thought it is and was the same as persistence, as being persistent. But somehow I’m starting to see the two are different, although slightly I guess.

As what I am starting to experience is that stubbornness is just pushing through what you want, regardless of other people’s feelings and stuff. And persistence is more like continuing going against all odds without offending other people, with letting other people be who they are or want to be.

So my big crazy project is helping me to be persistent, be myself, how crazy I may be. And I guess is learning me to be less stubborn, less insisting on my ways.

And the strange thing is that no matter how crazy my original idea was for Cagayan de Oro City, it could really become true. And the strange thing is I don’t even remember how that whole idea came together, like what was first.

Crazy, isn’t it?

Being appreciated

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I am still struggling with being appreciated, with having the feeling, or maybe the confirmation, that I am doing something useful. And I was thinking about that as I was just working on the tool I am developing to help you achieve more success by scoring yourself on each of the Principles of Success. And I was a bit frustrated, as I did not get any real feedback on it, except from one of the team members, who suggested that I should develop a more common tool about achieving goals, like a goal planning tool. But there are many goal planning tools available, probably better than I could ever imagine or build, so I don’t see any added value on that. And I also think I would not do justice to the ideas of Napoleon Hill by ‘just’ developing a goal achieving tool. As his ideas go much further than just achieving a goal, even though I think the Principles of Success could certainly help you achieve goals, any goal.

And yes, I am still confronted with my inability to create a team, to connect to people in a way that I would like, to inspire people to do, to create what I want, what I have in mind. As I believe that is what real leaders do. But no, on the contrary, I still find myself doing things myself instead of having people around me doing at least part of the work. But yes, I am starting to see now that there is indeed some kind of energy you can tap into as a human, an energy that can indeed create universes, so why not a simple website, a simple web application like I have in mind for Inspiration for Success. But until now I was still not able to really tap into that, even though the last few weeks a few times I felt some of the flow that I know belongs to that. So maybe indeed the keywords here are still patience and persistence.

But still, when looking at people like Bill Gates or Richard Branson they must have something I don’t have, as they seem to be able to create really big things. And they started doing that at a very young age.

So how to get my really big project of the ground? Patience? As that is where I feel the energy flow when presenting that or parts of it to people.

And yes, would you be willing to check my tools and use them or give feedback on them? Then at least I wouldn’t feel so alone and it may even help you on your way to success.

Anything is possible

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Today I had a meeting related to my project Internet City of the World and somehow that still feels crazy, where also the idea of becoming the third ISP of The Philippines still kind of feels crazy. But strange how it may all sound, somehow I went from just some crazy ideas to at least talking to people and selling the idea. And not just talking to people, but also having convinced somebody to whisper some or all of it in the ears of the president of MUST and maybe the mayor of Cagayan de Oro City.

So yes, strange how things can go from completely crazy, completely impossible, to possible.

So the next would be plausible, probable and realized.

You have a problem

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I am kind of upset as my partner keeps telling me I have a problem and I’m not sure how to deal with that. And we were sitting with a friend and it seems she kind of agrees and that hurts me very much. And it seems neither of them seems to see how much I am hurting and affected with what is being said and how I feel attacked by what is said. And somehow I don’t seem to get what my partner expects from me as he wants me to have more understanding and I have no clue what he means. And part of this may be cultural, as I am European and they are Asian and it seems there is quite some difference in how culture works, how individual thinking or group thinking works.

So finally my partner asked me to leave as he was about to hit me again. And no, physical violence in a relationship was never in my vocabulary and somehow it still isn’t, but I know now a bit how it works, at least from the perspective of the person on the receiving end.

So what am I doing wrong here, as it seems the two friends seem to agree that it is me who is the problem. And so yes, I am the one alone and making a stand for what I believe in. And indeed, that is different from a while ago, as I have gained a lot of self confidence and now stay with what I believe in, no matter what others say.

So now, while writing and not knowing what to do, not knowing about this ‘you have a problem’ or ‘you are wrong’ as it arrives, I am not fully sure what is next. As the strange thing indeed is that ‘everybody’, as my partner states it, agrees that I have a problem.

So am I really wrong? No, I don’t think so. But yes, there seems to be a problem, except I don’t know what it is. And while writing I realize that somehow everybody wants to solve this problem.

So how to solve a problem where you don’t understand what’s the problem.

And if everybody wants to solve the problem, then why can’t it be solved?