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Listening

I often hear from people I’m not listening. And I never really understood, I never really got the point what they meant as I’m often trying to adapt to what people say, follow what people say, try to learn how to improve things, how to improve myself.

So in my mind, in my experience I’m doing a lot of effort to, well, try to listen to people, as that seems what I don’t do, or not do as most people do or not as good as most people do.

But recently I see a bit more that I indeed do not listen to people, that indeed somehow I’m not interested in other people. And while writing this I’m asking myself what has changed that I seem to somehow get that message better, that message that other people have been trying to pass to me for a long time.

As I am trying more and more to make this site more useful, more useful to you, instead of something like ‘just creating content to get traffic’, which was my main goal at first, based on what I know about internet search, about Google.

But for this I have no answer, no suggestion what has caused me to listen better, or at least now being aware that there is something that needs to be improved, that I want to improve.

Maybe it was the idea that came to me that if I want something from my environment, from the world, from other people, that indeed I have to adjust myself to the system. As the system just works as it works. It’s just the system.

So again, it was about ‘me’, and in my opinion it will always be about ‘me’, as for you it will always be about you. As there is nothing else.

But yes, systems are systems and they just work according to the rules of the system. So if you want the system to work for you, better understand the system and work according to the rules of the system.

So if I want to get what I want, I better understand the rules of the system and I will just get what I want, using the system.

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Confused and disappointed

I am confused and somehow disappointed, but am also gathering some new strength and courage. And one of the reasons that I am confused and disappointed it that I feel completely abandoned by my team (or Master Mind). It seems that no matter what I do or not do, they are not really moving. Yes, the weekly meetings at first they joined and went OK as you may read in earlier posts and pages, but slowly I feel like I kind of lost them. And I still can’t fully figure out why.

And I am disappointed with more people and organizations and all kinds of things. As somehow they don’t seem to respond or don’t want to respond or can’t respond. And I know I’m not perfect and I know I don’t respond to every e-mail and such, but at least I try and I think I manage like 80% or so.

And that’s where things don’t add up. As they say that you reap what you sow, and I thought I was sowing good things, like responding to e-mails as good and as quick as I can. And it seems I reap nothing but an awful lot of spam and hardly any serious replies. Although that’s not fully true, as recently I got some very nice e-mails from people from a long time ago who were checking on me related to the typhoon here.

Same with ‘first give’, start with ‘giving’. And I have the feeling especially the last few years, even the last ten years I have been giving a lot, even more than I feel I had, even more, much more than I could afford, emotionally as well as financially. And also here it seems nothing is coming back as I feel emotionally completely empty and am kind of completely bankrupt financially.

So some things don’t add up and I still can’t fully figure out why, as somehow I do believe in the reaping and sowing thing and the ‘giving’ first thing.

But what if you’re completely empty, if everything seems to be gone, if you have nothing left, if you feel abandoned by everybody?

Still my goals

And of course time will tell and somehow I still have my goals set and somehow I feel I will get there. But it hurts e.g. that I am in debt now, something I could have never imagined as I used to be the most honest person in the world, the most saving person in the world, the most thrifty person in the world. And now I’m in debt where interest payments are adding up and where somehow somewhere I have to face people. And yes, I do want to pay them back, I don’t want this and I know it’s ‘bad’, but looking back I wouldn’t know what I could have done differently. But the frustrating part is that even if I would have some income, and recently I got some, it would take me probably ten years or so to get out of debt, to pay all my debts. And it doesn’t feel fair, as I feel abused by many people who didn’t pay me back, who postponed payments or just didn’t pay. Even people I trusted a lot. But yes, now I am one of those people, not paying their dues.

Debts

And yes, the good thing is I now know that you don’t necessarily need to be dumb or a big spender or someone who intentionally lives beyond their means, even though the last would apply to me. But related to living beyond your means, if you feel like you have an earning capacity of say like a minimum of USD 1,000.00 or so a month, which I consider I have, even a lot more, and you basically didn’t earn anything for years? And yes, I have been too easy with my partner related to money, but still, if nothing, really nothing is coming in, at least not after all expenses have been paid, after all staff salaries have been paid, then it all doesn’t add up anymore.

And made my mistakes and had my share in not running the business properly. But still, customers that unsatisfied that they just refuse to pay, even after you have made a deal how to continue with a project? A customer who doesn’t pay after an initial mistake that you have worked for half a year now to solve in a different way and thought you had a good solution, a good deal and the customer is still not satisfied, still doesn’t want to pay? And especially the last one hurts as this was a trial for me to do ‘anything’ without complaining, the last often people say I do, and just doing whatever needed to be solved, providing solutions, solving little problems, building alternate solutions. And still, no ‘acceptance’, only ‘thank you’.

So where to go

So where do I want to go with this post. Well, for quite a while I have something in my head that I should write a bit more about all those self help sites, all those self help ideas and what it means, what they mean. And one of the things is that they are addictive to a person like me and apparently to many more people. And also all those e-mails I get, you get, after ‘signing up’, which at the moment is mostly some kind of force sign up as most people just fill in the form that pops up that asks for your e-mail address and appears to block the content of the site (which mostly it doesn’t).

And yes, all those e-mails are written very well, as they urge you to click on the link to either visit the blog, the site or to buy something. And after getting some of those e-mails from more than half a year now I notice they are all the same. They are written in a way so I will go to the site and finally buy something.

And nothing wrong with that, don’t get me wrong. As I am in a similar situation as those people, doing work, useful work I think by writing this blog, this site, and I would like to be paid for it, yes, deserve to be paid for it. But until now I decided NOT to follow those common sales tactics as I don’t want to force people to go to my blog, this site and I don’t want to force them to pay me. I want people to like what I read and then have them decide for themselves to give something to me. And yes, ‘everybody’ says that cannot be done. ‘All blogs’ earn from advertisements or selling books or e-books or affiliate links.

But still, is my ideas so weird? Why wouldn’t you want to pay me, give something back for the effort I have put in this site? Of course only if you like what I’m doing of if you got something useful from me. Or maybe just because you like me.

And yes, I know I need to do something more ‘active’. I know I need to do something to make it more easy for you to go to the site, read the stuff that’s here, like an e-mail with a link to ‘today’s post’ or something. And I will, soon. But I was hoping other people, my team would be part of it, do part of the work. But apparently they don’t want to, for whatever reason, so I have decided for now I’ll just continue on my own, like most bloggers seem to do. And just do my own thing, contrary to have things checked by the Master Mind as Napoleon Hill suggests.

But yes, I also read that this type of situation is part of the road of success. Being kind of desperate, feeling alone, even unsure about if you are ‘right’.

But I don’t want to give up, I won’t give up. Not for me, but also because I made some commitment to myself related to inspiring people. Because this situation is exactly what it’s all about. ‘Someone’, ‘something’ inspiring me now, in this deep trench. That would be nice.

And yes, if it’s not there I’ll have to find it within myself, or within the increasing visibility of the site.

Positive

And yes, there is one positive, one that is also sure, related to continuing the work, writing continuously here, no matter what, being persistent, being disciplined, having the habit to write, write every day.

And that is that the site is coming alive. That it is becoming visible in Google. And that means that sooner or later more people will find the site, visit the site and read what I wrote. And yes, there must be some people who like what I write. Or can use it to be inspired or achieve success or maybe just feel a little better if they are down.

As the statistics show that the site is coming alive:

Inspiration for Success coming alive

Creative inspiration needed

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I am thinking now about the page I made related to something like ‘what inspires you’. And the first thing doing research on that was some page about creative inspiration, what to do if you’re an artist and you need inspiration to get started with your art work.

And that’s basically where I am right now, as I want to write something here, something useful, and I don’t really feel like it. It’s very late, after midnight and no subject comes into my mind, let alone an inspirational subject.

And that’s one of the main things that needs to happen right now, putting more inspirational content, more content related to what Inspiration for Success is all about. As one of the main reasons for writing a more or less useful blog post every day was to just become visible in Google, just putting some kind of content related to the site, to the project so Google would index it in the way to reach the target audience. And I still believe that was the right thing to do, even though it may be some kind of a diary type blog if you look at most of my blog posts. But recently I started to see that slowly, very slowly, traffic from Google is picking up, which is also normal as normally a site is started to be taken serious by Google in about half a year time and the site is a bit more than half a year old.

So the pressure is building with me, especially as I started to notice that I’m not that a

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good writer, that it’s not really something i like, writing kind of serious, decent pages in a serious website. And some little voice in the back of my head says now that the way I write is also OK and that there are probably readers who would appreciate my daily ‘shit’. And yes, that’s true I guess. But that’s not what I want Inspiration for Success to be. i want inspiration for Success to be a website, even a project, also outside of the virtual world, to inspire people, for success, or maybe even just to inspire people in general, not even related to success. As slowly i noticed that the main thing I want is that people are inspired to to things, so they would do things naturally and not ‘forced’, contrary to being motivated.

So yes, the goal is clear and basically still the same. So time to plan!

So what would I write?

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Leondardo DiCaprio Today’s quote made me think about what success means to me:

“Define success on your own terms, achieve it by your own rules, and build a life you’re proud to live.” – Anne Sweeney

And it brought me back to my history, where success just meant like finding a job (and I was supposed to have a good job as I’m quite intelligent) and just work and live a happy life, live the life I knew as a child and that was pretty OK with me. How different did my life go, but maybe that’s just how life goes.

So this quote of today made me think of how I would define success today. And I think I wouldn’t define it much different than when I was a child, when I grew up. And today I read this page about what ‘successful people’ do: 10 high performance habits that lead to success. And I know somehow those things are true, but it’s not the whole truth. Because I did win the morning, somewhere in my life. And I did do the hard things. And yes, maybe I didn’t embrace feedback. But I think I did learn from failures, although looking back maybe not enough. And yes, maybe I’m not good at choosing the right attitude. But I did do a lot, an awful lot of one more. And it didn’t work out mostly, so I’m very careful doing one more at the moment, or doing anything. And I think I have a purpose, although the desire might not be big enough or clear enough. And maybe I’m not recommitting every day. And yes, patience has not been my strongest side. But in the end I think I do not fear anyone.

So looking back at this I think I have not done that bad in those success habits. So I should have success. But I don’t. And looking at all kinds of other lists with similar ‘success things’ I think I’ve not done bad on those also. So what’s going on? What’s the secret? Why don’t I have what I think I should have, I’m supposed to have? Something is still missing, and there wouldn’t be so many websites and self help books and training and courses and what else if I were the only one. And it seems also that mostly ‘those who are already there’ benefit mostly of it. And good samples for me in the ‘self help industry’ are people like Esther and Jerry Hicks, Anthony Robbins, Bob Proctor, maybe Joel Osteen and there are many more. It seems they’re doing pretty OK and I guess they do. Or are they mainly keeping up an image? Or is it their personality? Do they have certain treats I don’t have, you don’t have? And the hard part is that it would be hard to ‘counter’ them. As they have made it and I have not. And somehow they have the power and I have not.

And some other successes I also don’t fully understand, where people seem to have achieved success at very young age, like Leonardo DiCaprio and Justin Bieber, although (young) people who succeed (early) in life seem to have one thing in common: having the right support from someone else, which I feel never had. But again, this is basically the reason why Inspiration for Success exists as I want to find a way to give everything that external support he or she needs.

And that’s what has been bothering me for a long time, that it’s easy to say what you should do or shouldn’t do or how to do it when you’re already ‘there’. But if you’re not there, you keep wondering what you’re doing wrong, at least I do. So yes, somehow I still intend to be ‘there’, probably through this website, this project. But as of now I’m not and I’m suffering quite a lot of ‘not being there’. And yes, somehow this is still the answer, that if I keep doing this, keep writing, keep pushing Inspiration for Success, no matter what, I’ll be ‘there’ one day.

But I’m not there yet, and that’s not always easy.

Alone

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So somehow today, and maybe some more time than I thought before, was an alone day. So I was searching for alone quotes and sent one. And I found another one for this post:

“if you wanted to do something absolutely honest, something true, it always turned out to be a thing that had to be done alone.” – Richard Yates.

So for example with this website, with the project Inspiration for Success, it still feels I’m alone, no matter there is a team. And somehow I’m not good with teams, with people, at least not in relation to projects, to achieving something (together).

And indeed, going back to Inspiration for Success, I have big ideas and big plans for this project and this website. But somehow, until now, I was not able to convey that, the whole idea to the team. And I know somehow I’m trying to do something virtually impossible, something weird, and it even changed and changes over time. And often it feels like I’m not the right person to do this, to make my ideas, my dreams come true, e.g. with this website, this project. As somehow I’m still not able to inspire or motivate people to do the work, to really actually do some more things.

And yes, maybe I’m the wrong person, maybe it’s the wrong team, maybe it’s the wrong time, maybe…

But still, something deep inside me says I should push through with this, try to get my message to the world. And I’m not even sure why or how, even though of course I also have all those voices in my head telling me what to do or not do like everybody seems to have.

So where to go from here? I have no clue actually. But maybe indeed I should use the ideas from the Law of Attraction and focus more on what I have in mind, what the end result should be. And not so much on how to get there.

And maybe this is still also the right post to tell my little story about a project I have been working on for a few days, a few weeks, and check that project against the Principles of Success. Or no, maybe indeed make that a page: sample application of the principles of success. But here I have a problem, as I don’t want to offend our Editor in Chief, who made a stand for delivering quality pages. So the link I have put may not work yet as a page has to be approved by our Editor in Chief.

So yes, somehow I’m trying to do something honest and true with Inspiration for Success. And it seems indeed that it is something I may have to do alone, somehow. As I can’t do it alone and don’t want to do it alone. But maybe indeed being the leader somehow means you are alone and you have to do it alone, even if there is a team supporting you.