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Nothing lasts

“Nothing lasts”, that is what the documentary I was just watching about Tom Ford ended with. And I was watching, or kept watching, as I am still kind of jealous of people who are successful in life, or appear to be successful in life. And yes, I often measure that in fame and money as that are things I don’t have and would like to have. Or at least more of that. So also, yes, the negative emotion of jealousy came up again I guess, as somehow I am jealous of those people who are famous and/or rich. And it seems those often go together even though I know that’s not true, or not always true. And begin that famous is probably, or almost certainly NOT what I want as being that famous probably means you don’t own most of your own life anymore, although somehow I do want to be that famous, like that famous that I would be known all over the world. But after that, after being there you can’t go back, you can’t go back to being private again. After that probably all over the world people would recognize you, so you wouldn’t be able to move around anymore, kind of anonymous, which in the end I prefer.

So I guess it’s about the money in the end. That’s basically what I miss most, what I want most. Just enough so I wouldn’t have to work anymore, or at least wouldn’t have the feeling I have to work. And somehow I know this doesn’t really add up, as most of my life I have worked hard and it didn’t really bring me money, especially the last ten years. Last year I think it was even the opposite, or at least the second part of last year, as my working actually has cost me money as my business was losing money. So if I hadn’t had this customer that didn’t pay I might have had more money now. So money and hard work are not always related, although I still believe that it pays off to work hard, or at least that hard work is one of the things that brings in money in larger quantities than if you wouldn’t work hard. But there is more to it, as I know that most of my life I worked hard and long, and it didn’t bring me the money I am talking about. So there is something more that is needed to get money from work. Or a lot of money from working hard. And I’m not fully sure what that is, but I think it has to do with personality and character and/or also with inspiration, with working inspired, in an inspired way.

So how to go on now, as I don’t know how to inspire you to make more money if that is what you are looking for in this page. As I still didn’t figure it out yet. And that’s also one of my problems with ‘success’, with ‘successful people’. Because it’s so easy to talk about success, how to do it, how to get there when you’re already there. But what about those people like me, and probably you, otherwise you might not read this far, who didn’t make it, didn’t make it yet, neither to success or fame or whatever they want or wanted in life. That’s still one of my biggest problem with success stories and telling other people how to do it, how to get there. This even applies to Think and Grow Rich, as of course the stories and samples in the book are somehow self fulfilling prophecies: this guy or girl got what he or she wanted and did this and that. And this one didn’t because… Yes, because of what? Isn’t there some element of luck? And no, I don’t really believe in luck, same as in all those books and what all those gurus tell us. I do believe there is something to being successful, getting what you want in life. But then still, why am I not there yet? I think I did and do all the things that are needed to be successful and I still don’t have my Pajero and I still don’t have enough money to retire, to do what I want without worrying about money, without worrying how I will survive next month.

But somehow that’s the same for everyone. And somehow that’s also what Tom Ford says, what I referred to at the beginning of this post: nothing lasts. So it doesn’t really matter what I have or who I am (in the eyes of the world, in the eyes of others). Nothing lasts.

Hope

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I was so happy today as a request from a customer gave me so much hope. It appeared there was finally light at the end of the tunnel with this customer and that he somehow still trusts me. And hope that finally my investments would pay off, the enormous amount of hours I put in this real estate stuff.

And then it appeared I was not the only one in the race, that I’m not there yet. And it put me down a lot, indeed. As Morty Lefkoe says, it was the meaning I gave to this little extra information. Or maybe also the meaning I gave to the first event, the request for a quote. I thought I was already there, that I’m just the best, and I know I am in this case.

“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.” – Epicurus

So how to go on from here, with this post and with this project I so badly need. Indeed, it seem to be my emotions that are in the way. And I was reading again in Think and Grow Rich this morning. And I read more and more that it’s my weakness, our weaknesses that stand in the way towards success. So yes, maybe my biggest weakness is that I let my emotions, yes, let what?

But that was the weird thing and why I started this post. Napoleon Hill states hope as a positive emotion. And it worked, this hope I felt today from this simple request made me feel so good, made me feel alive, made me feel enthusiastic, it just made my day, it made me move, quite effortlessly, it also made me allow myself to take a break, a very well needed break, this time a real break.

And I was especially happy as this whole hope thing just made my day, confirming everything also about The Secret and such. So maybe better stay in the hope than in the fear, as I realize while writing this that what happened after was just fear.

Still, confusing, but something to think about more as it feels it is important to understand what happened just now and what’s the effect.

Need a kick

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Well, it seems today somebody finally got to me a bit with what I need: a kick. So he gave me a small kick and I feel like moving again a bit more. And actually that’s what this whole site is about, that’s why I started this site: I felt and still feel a bit I had nobody who gave me the right kick, nobody who really inspired me, made me move when I needed it, when I was lost. So thanks Allan for today’s kick as it was really inspiring to me. Even though I think I need some more as I’m still deep, deep down.

So going back to my main question of the last week or so like what’s inspiring to people I can use what happened to me with this virtual kick from Allan to analyze what was the inspiring part, the part that hit me, that touched me, that made me feel inspired, that made me feel like, yes, I need to move, move differently.

I think the most important thing he said to me was “Maybe I’ll try a few more kicks with you, then give up, to focus my time time on people who really will take best action to help themselves and our world”. in that sentence was something like, “I won’t give up on you” and “I’ll give you another chance”. Something else in that sentence that caught my attention was the term “best action” as it made me think that my actions may not be effective. You see, I think the most frustrating thing in my life is that I took a lot of action, did a lot of things, at least during most of my life. And only recently I kind of gave up taking action in a passionate way, as it felt that all my actions had been in vain, even though that’s not reality for all areas of my life. So maybe I took a lot of action, but not the best action possible.

Searching for best action brings me to a lot of action movies and not to best action as I think Allan meant. But maybe he relates to “Next best action marketing”. I’ll check that later and if you’re into business you may also want to check that.

Anyhow, just want you to know that I feel very much inspired with this chat I had with Allan and this is exactly one of the things I had in mind when starting this site: find ways to connect people to inspire each other. As inspiration only through a website or reading in the end is not enough.

Hope again?

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Today was a very weird day for me (again). And maybe I’m learning, something like learning to be myself, do my own thing, making my own decisions and at the same time respecting others, respecting the opinions of others and following others. And maybe i found what I have to give in the sense of what Napoleon Hill states that you have to be willing to give to get what you want. And it hurts, because the thing that seems to be asked for is a high price, higher than I expected it to be, different than what I expected it to be. It is not out of bounds of what I stated that I was and am willing to give to get what I want, to make my dream come true, so I can give it, relatively easy. But it hurts, the price is higher than I thought, in a way. And in a way it’s not. Maybe it’s logical Maybe this is the only simple thing that has to happen, even though I didn’t want to let go of it. But indeed, if this is the thing I will have to give, will have to let go of, then the price is very low, then the whole thing indeed is easy.

So again, not sure how to inspire you with this. Maybe indeed just start with the six steps, defining your desire, your definite purpose, stating what you are willing to give. Make a plan and put it into action and write it down and read it aloud. Twice a day is ok, but sometimes for me less than that was also ok as the whole desire document was and is already in my heart.

And for me patience was important, and ‘no action’ was the action I decided to often take, which was hard, because I’m an action oriented person. Often I take too much action.

Let’s see, my belief went sky high again today.

So how to inspire

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I am still a bit in doubt how to continue with my posts. Main reason to continue writing my quite negative posts is that I believe in the end those pages will attract people in a similar situation like me, so the people searching for success, wanting or needing to be inspired for success.

Of course I hope that when people find those posts I have already moved on and live a much better life or hopefully the life I really want, think I deserve and need. For now that is not the case and maybe that is also good because if will make me write more about my current situation, my ‘down period’, so people, you, will know that it is really possible to go from here, from where i am now, to the life I really want and need.

So maybe just tell you guys what I actually feel at the moment, what is actually happening. Maybe just tell you that last year, the beginning of the second half, my partner left me, my business went even further down the drain and I literally felt I had nothing left anymore, nothing even left to live for. What made it even worse was that ten years before I was in exactly the same situation: my partner left, somehow in a similar way, I had lost my job and couldn’t find another and I not enough money to sustain my lifestyle, so couldn’t afford my house anymore.

So I was devastated and didn’t know what to do anymore and even considered suicide as I had nothing left and found I had not friends even, and no support network. And this time not even any serious financial backup, at least no money I could touch which I did have ten years ago. And no government support also as I live in The Philippines.

Somehow during that period someone gave me the book Think and Grow Rich, together with two other books and somehow that book impressed me. Not because of the ‘rich’ as my partner leaving me was a million times worse than having all the money in the world to me as to me love and relationship are the main things in life, not money or anything else.

So I started from the book and wrote my ‘main desire document’ and started from there. And found that many weird things started to happen, including me now believing that indeed ‘anything is possible’, literally anything. However, it has been a weird journey from then to now and the worst was that things started to become worse, much worse the end of last year until the beginning of this year. It is only recently that I am starting to believe that something positive is coming up, even though I am still very much emotionally distressed.

Anyhow, enough for now about this story I guess, although there is another related post in my mind for a few days now. A post about why I am where i am now and indeed, I think I recently started to realize how it all works.

For now my little inspiration for people in a similar situation like me for more than half a year now is to not give up, even if things are even getting worse. I’m not there yet, but somehow something positive is happening, so that’s what I want to share to inspire you: don”t give up.