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Love

Saw the end of a movie and somehow in the end it’s all about love. And the more I think about it, love is the strangest thing in the world, as it seems to make the most impossible relationships between humans possible, somehow seems to connect everything. Even The Matrix, one of my most favorite movies, I think in the end is about love, something ‘the machines’ don’t even understand.

And who would understand this type of thing called love, even though I believe somehow it’s also a choice, a choice to love someone, no matter what. For quite a while I believed Love is a verb, but still there seems to be more also to it.

So let’s be grateful there is something called like love, dealing with all our failures, mistakes, flaws and whatever we perceive as negative. Let’s celebrate!

Hypocrite

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Lately I think quite a lot about how hypocrite I actually am, as I actually run an advertising company and do link building and stuff and yes, am also earning from advertising on the internet and sell links. On the other side I criticize companies, humanity for ‘paying virtually everything’ through advertising.

So yes, I understand it’s not that easy to change the thinking about ‘money’ and ‘earning’, as also I have to live, have to eat and as of the moment I don’t see much other ways than working and indeed, getting some secondary income from advertising and selling links.

And I also still have no idea how my ‘give and receive model‘ would actually work. As people want to distinguish themselves, e.g. through buying different hings, buying a bigger car and a smaller house or the other way around. And it would still be hard to see someone else receive the same amount of money or stuff (or more) and working less than you or me as of course our ‘earning model’ is rooted deeply in society and each of us.

So yes, I realize that there are very good reasons why our society, why our ‘exchange model’ or how you would want to call it, is like it is. And yes, it brought us where we are now, a world that somehow is ‘better’ than it was before.

But I still believe it needs change, indeed something like going back to a very early stage in human development, when there was no ownership of things and no money, just sharing. Or wasn’t it that simple also then?

Persistence (and not stubbornness)

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People have always called me stubborn, especially when I was younger. And I always thought it is and was the same as persistence, as being persistent. But somehow I’m starting to see the two are different, although slightly I guess.

As what I am starting to experience is that stubbornness is just pushing through what you want, regardless of other people’s feelings and stuff. And persistence is more like continuing going against all odds without offending other people, with letting other people be who they are or want to be.

So my big crazy project is helping me to be persistent, be myself, how crazy I may be. And I guess is learning me to be less stubborn, less insisting on my ways.

And the strange thing is that no matter how crazy my original idea was for Cagayan de Oro City, it could really become true. And the strange thing is I don’t even remember how that whole idea came together, like what was first.

Crazy, isn’t it?

Birthday

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Today felt like the birthday of my biggest project ever. As it seems some people are starting to believe in my ideas, where when I had them and wrote them down and such they kind of felt like crazy and impossible ideas, even though somehow I believed they made sense or could make sense.

And I just had some kind of spiritual experience, seeing, feeling how the Universe lines up or can line up things like what I had in mind one or two years ago. As today it started with a scared dog who I am trying to befriend and shortly after a Jeepney driver or conductor noticing me and offering me a ride in the right direction. And then I was kind of lost with my planning, as my first meeting didn’t push through, but somehow following my feeling, trusting Infinite Intelligence, I ended up, after quite some intermediate things, events, in a meeting where somehow someone seemed to pick up the idea I have in mind, or at least the part that would affect him, would affect his job, his employer.

And then later I realized how indeed everything comes together, like someone giving me the book of Napoleon Hill, me liking the book, my company and relationship in ruins. And then the Limketkai family building the highest building, the largest hotel in Cagayan de Oro City. And all kinds of people building malls in Cagayan de Oro City. And indeed,the Philippines being poor, having many poor people and Cagayan de Oro City begin a bit ‘worse’ than The Philippines in general. As all of those things and I guess many more were inputs to my idea.

Ah, yes, indeed amazing how The Universe lines up. And yes, in the end it even just boils down to love, to me wanting to be happy together with my partner. As for me in the end that’s the driver for everything, the ‘romantic love’ type of thing that I guess we all want and I guess we would all do anything, everything for ‘love’.

Lots of things in my mind

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Rita Hayworth A lot of things in my mind right now. Like I am still a bit sick and could’t sleep last night, mainly because of my coughing. And the result was that I got out of bed very late, also partly because I still didn’t feel well. And next to this I was thinking that last night I wanted to write about the movie The Shawshank Redemption. A fantastic film, especially knowing now the Principles of Success from Napoleon Hill as I see the main character, Andy Dufresne, applying many of those principles to achieve what he wants to achieve. And despite the enormous setbacks he encounters and the enormous amount of time involved, he achieves what he wants to achieve. So that’s what I would call a success story.

And one of the strange things about the movie is that it is based on a short story of Stephen King. And I don’t like the books of Stephen King so much as they are too full of horror type things, horror kind of believable to happen in real life.

Ah, and I now see the story is much older and based on God Sees the Truth, But Waits by Leo Tolstoy. And it seems that story is about forgiveness, something I have been thinking about for quite a while now. So no wonder I am and was impressed by the story and the film as apparently it has a very long history and a deep background.

And yes, thinking about forgiveness I can relate to the film, where it doesn’t seem to make any sense to lock up people for a very long time as you just destroy them. That is a similar thing I am struggling with, as I borrowed a lot of money, which I don’t know how to pay back as of the moment and it feels kind of unfair to me that I have to suffer so much for mistakes I made in the past. Yes, to me it also feels like a lifetime sentence, the situation I am in now with my debts. And it doesn’t make any sense, it even takes away most of my joy in life. And that’s even what people are complaining about, that I should have more fun, join friends more, go out more. But for me there is always that debt that I feel I need to pay back. So I’d rather save money than have fun.

So how can we get out of those things? How can we go out of those lifetime sentences? How can we really forgive people and let them free?