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Flow again

Very weird what is happening lately and especially today. Somehow things are starting to flow again, not that empty feeling of ‘nothing is coming back’, not that feeling that I’m only giving, that only things are going out, energy is going out, but more the opposite, that things are coming in, that energy is coming in.

And the weird thing is that i didn’t ‘do’ anything. It just somehow happened and it is kind of following some more positive stuff that started a few days, or maybe weeks ago. So if this is supposed to be an inspiring post I’m not sure what to tell you you should ‘do’, how you would be able to change your energy when you’re in some kind of downturn.

Or maybe just indeed tell you that those things don’t last forever and that you don’t have as much control as you think you have or think you should have. So that sometimes, or maybe just always, it’s better to let things be, let thing go as they are going.

And somehow I’m not saying like you shouldn’t do anything when you’re in a down mood or in a down period, even though that’s how it sounds like that (and also feels a bit to me now and before).

So very confusing and maybe it’s indeed some kind of shift in energy in the world as I read about a few days ago (and wrote about).

So today kind of started (or ended) with music. And while before I had the feeling only energy went out, and before meaning a long, very long time where I felt I had no control and just remembered something like ‘sowing seeds’ so I could reap later on, which I did, today I felt like I was receiving a lot, just receiving something like ‘energy’.

And while listening to music, somehow starting with playlists I already have and ending playing stuff from artists with ‘T’, I just started crying, thanking The Universe for sending me this music, that special thing that has been created by so many people and, indeed, performed, vocalized by musicians, artists.

And I felt how everything connects together, these old songs, written and sang a long, long time ago and now being played from just my server network. And I was thinking about all the artists who sang these songs, and probably only once for the recording. And about all the people involved in converting this song into a record or CD (or tape). And about the music industry that connected the writers and the singers and the musicians and technicians, etc., etc. And about copyright and how right now all these things are just available to me. Something like 25,000++ songs that I just keep on my hard drive and can just play whenever I want. And for most, like 99.9% or more I didn’t even pay the artists or the people involved in creating and distributing the songs. So I felt this enormous energy, this enormous power of human music history coming to me, being with me, right at that moment, an hour ago or so. And I felt the energy of the artists singing and playing at concerts, something I never attended, but I can imagine with what power musicians ‘do’ their performance.

So yes, that’s what Napoleon Hill talks about when talking about ‘giving’ and indeed, also getting the benefits in the form of the ‘big money’, even though I’m starting to realize that even for most famous artists that’s only temporary.

And yes, I felt like wanting to ‘give back’ let this energy I felt from this music coming to me and all the things around it, all those people, all those years, all that history coming towards me with enormous power. So how quick can your system fill up when you feel empty by just playing music (or using anything else) and realizing how much ‘organized effort’ is behind it. So yes, it also made me feel humble, like one human being can do so little.

So how can i give back, that’s what came to my mind. And I’m not fully sure, as I’m just a simple web developer, not a musician or something. But I guess also the musician can do so much and only for a limited amount of time (in my mind is now Céline Dion who I saw in a movie, backstage). But yes, they gave and give more than I do now, did recently, or maybe all my life. So maybe they deserve more, I’m not sure.

But yes, it’s also a flow, like if the flow is not there, as it hasn’t been there for me for a long time, you can’t do anything. And yes, if the flow is there, like I felt this evening, you can do anything, give anything, even those great performances, in whatever occupation you are.

Change in energy

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A few days ago I read about a (spiritual) change in energy someone felt. And I think I can also feel it, I also felt it the last few days, the last few weeks. Something seems to have changed for the good, in the world. And it doesn’t change in one setting, it doesn’t change from ‘bad’ to ‘good’ in one switch, in one instant. As the last week I felt kind of terrible and it just started to change back to ‘good’ yesterday or the day before. And yesterday and today I also still didn’t feel fully OK, especially after waking up.

Fish

But tonight, while doing my ‘IFS‘ things I slowly started to feel the peace, the sounds of nature, the insects within the quiet, the things here that are so beautiful, that make this place kind of into heaven. And I still miss to share that, share that again. But now from a positive perspective, from peace, from ‘positive being’ and not from fear and worry as I used to do before. And it’s weird as I have no clue how to get there. I know now more what I want, more than ever. But practically spoken it is further from me than ever at the same time. ‘Reality’ tells me, or better ‘people’ tell me that I need to be real, that I need to be practical. And maybe I should, maybe I’m just heading towards more trouble, more towards things I don’t want.

But somehow I think more and more that I should stick to what I want, to my dreams, not give up, but be persistent, be patient. As I see more and more who I am. And that maybe I’m just a dreamer, someone who doesn’t (want to) see ‘reality’. But where would we be without dreamers, without dreams. We would still walk in animal skins or maybe even be more like animals, like apes. We would not have our daily food and other needs being given to us, and that even applies to virtually all poor people as who in the world still caters for 100% for their own food and clothes and other basic needs? And we wouldn’t have gone to the moon and there wouldn’t be cars and planes, let alone medicines. So yes, the more I think about it, the more I read about it, everything, literally everything we see around us, literally everything we are started with a dream, a thought. So should I stop dreaming, should you stop dreaming, even if it’s about things that people tell us is not ‘reality’. But we create reality, reality consists just of beliefs that have been practiced (Abraham Hicks) or the choices humanity and Infinite Intelligence or God or the Universal Consciousness made, choices you and I make.

So let’s keep dreaming. And in my own experience the more I dream, the more I want(ed) things for myself, the more I also realized in the end I (also) want to give. Yes, I want to stay in this house and yes, I like the house also because I like to show off with a big house. But I also want to share the place, invite friends, family, maybe even strangers as the place is so beautiful and it’s typically a place, a house to share. And yes, I want a big car, a black Pajero, big and that type because it’s expensive and I want to show off. But the more I thought and think about it I mainly want a car so I can move around again and visit friends or go to the beach with the dogs and (sometimes) with friends, just to enjoy, enjoy life. And to just go to the city, to be able to roam around easier, for business and pleasure. And yes, some money, not money for the money, but just money to buy new shoes and new clothes and some new stuff for my partner. And to repair the house as it’s so sad to see such a beautiful house fall apart, a house where there have been so many parties and so many people enjoyed the view and each others company. And yes, some money to just buy the food and drinks to create those parties, as at the moment I’m too embarrassed to invite anybody, in the house as it is and without proper food and drinks worthy of the house, and of course of the people.

And some simple things like a camera. Just a simple one. Not for myself as I don’t like taking pictures. But just to be able to take some pictures to share on this site, like the water system pictures I need for the first real proper page I made and I can’t finish right now because I can’t make the pictures I want to put.

And I feel guilty now, as asking things like this is ‘not done’, especially not for yourself. What crazy world do we live in, that we limit each other for ‘having’ things. What’s wrong with wanting a Pajero, or even a Rolls-Royce, but the last I don’t even want. Or wanting a big house or, indeed a lot of money. Why do we deny these things to each other. These things we all want. Where did we ever create the idea that it’s ‘bad’ to want things, material things. And why would we need to ‘earn’ these things through ‘hard work’. Again, the more I think about it it’s just crazy. Neither of us is even able to create a simple breakfast on his or her own. That is why we organized the world into what it now is. And this is the first time in history I believe we, as humanity, have the (technical) knowledge and ability to produce virtually anything that anybody would want or need. And we stick with this outdated ‘earning’ and ‘work hard’ thing.

I am dying to give my services to people, to develop websites and web applications and do some internet marketing so things can be ‘found’ on the internet by people looking for stuff or information. And all around me I see companies, shops, dying to sell their stuff. Supermarkets are full of food and anything else what anybody could even imagine. And, I think I’m repeating myself, most of the things I see around me I don’t need and don’t even want. So the idea of scarcity, that there is not enough for everybody is just a thought, just a perception. And it may be true there is not enough, as I don’t know figures about needs and wants of people and production capacity available or needed to produce all of that.

But even if it is true I’m quite sure technically we could produce, create everything anybody would want or need. So yes, I’m really to believe in these ideas about abundance, that there is enough for everybody and that that all can be done without harming other people or the environment.

So let’s find a way out of this mess, this way of thinking of ‘scarcity’ and the idea that people are greedy and want ‘everything’. I’m quite sure most people are like me, and don’t want everything that’s availalbe in supermarket or anywhere else.

Leading is following?

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Well, today I heard I was kind of too ‘pushy’ with where I want to go, what I expect from the team members and how fast I want to go. And yes, I think we’re going way too slow and I think the team should do a lot more than they do. But indeed, ‘pushing’ doesn’t really seem to be the right way, so I have to find a way to make things move in a different way. And that’s also exactly what I want, because I want the team to do things for Inspiration for Success in an inspired way. And I’m starting to believe, and that’s my message, that the world needs inspiration, not motivation, not ‘earning from hard work’ as at least one of the team members mentions when talking about priority. And not ‘work to make ends meet’ as one of the other team members seems to be doing. And I also tended and tend to do those things. But that’s exactly what I want to change, that’s exactly why I started this project, that’s exactly why Inspiration for Success exists. As I think that humans deserve much more than just work for money to make ends meet with or without a holiday once a year or something.

But yes, not easy with all the things we have learned about ‘earning a living’ and ‘working to live or at least survive’. And yes, that’s how the world works, of course I know that.

But wouldn’t it be nice if everybody could just do the things he likes to do. And wouldn’t it be nice that everybody could just receive what he wants to receive? It sounds like Utopia, but somehow I have the feeling it can be done and that when we achieve that situation the world would be a much happier place.

And the more I look around me, the more I see it could be done, the more I see there is capacity enough, capacity in service, in people liking to give service as well as capacity in products. And no, I didn’t do any research on how much we all would really produce if everybody would just do what he likes to do. But I’m quite sure we do have the technology and the knowledge to make something like that possible, to make something like that work.

It’s just a matter of changing our mindset, changing indeed to mindset of abundance. A mindset where everybody believes that money (=services of other people) does grow on trees. As I believe everybody likes to do ‘something’, everybody has some kind of passion what he wants to do. So why not all do it?

Ah, and the title of this post doesn’t seem to make much sense. But I just wanted to let you know that I’m trying to follow the guidelines that we are discussing as a team, the guidelines for creating better content, so I should have this post checked by someone else before posting. But for today I hope the team will forgive me that my urge to create ‘a daily post’ is higher than to produce ‘quality posts’, as the last is not (yet?) really my strength. So I’m not a good follower yet of our editor in chief, but I have decided to do better. And while writing, yes, I would need to set a date. So from October 31, 2013 or earlier I will follow the rules of the posting as set by our editor in chief.

Also God starts with desire

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Today I was looking for some meaning and didn’t really feel like doing anything as most of the things I did lately were not appreciated very much. So, based on one of the advises of Abraham Hicks I decided not to do anything, except the little things I had planned and just wait, just wait for some inspiration. Or not just waiting, but kind of thinking, letting things sink in. Because somehow I feel like I have some kind of information overload as i read somewhere. And if so a human has information enough to make decisions but just needs time to process it.

And I’m still trying to match this ‘wait until you are inspired’ from Abraham Hicks and the ‘put your plan into action straight away’ from Napoleon Hill, but I think they’re not really contradictory because today I really didn’t know what to do. And I tend to do ‘just action’, but also according to the teachings of I think both, ‘just doing things’ and/or working hard is not really something that brings you success. Maybe you know: I feel like I have worked hard enough in my life, but in the end it didn’t really bring me anywhere.

So my resting and thinking and ‘doing nothing’ somehow brought me to another self help type book I have. The book “Your Best Life Now Journal” from Joel Osteen. And this book, this journal starts with the same thing as where Napoleon Hill starts: with desire, what do you want. So I pondered a bit about that. And I allowed a bit what I wanted. And before I always wanted to be rich, really rich. And I still want to be. And somehow I am starting to believe that I will be. But things have changed over the last year, because I know more why I want to be rich, I know more what I really want in life. And the main things for now are just having a car, and yes, I still want to show off also, so I prefer a Mitsubishi Pajero, not any car and having a holiday, and the last to be specific to Bali. But these things mean more to me than ‘just a luxury car’ and ‘just a holiday’. The car means mainly that I can move around, visit friends and family and the holiday means mainly that I want to have some private time with my loved one as we had when we just met, when we were really in love and the first few years we were together.

And I am crying now, because I still don’t know what exactly went wrong with those things, with my life. We started so well here, being together, starting a business together, moving to our dream house together. And we were so enthusiastic, especially when moving here, ideas about business, parties with friends, holidays indeed. And somehow, somewhere things started falling apart.

And maybe this was all needed to bring me where I am now, start this project, this website, mean something in the world. And yes, I have learned a lot, an awful lot, about life and such. But the price has been enormous and I still don’t fully understand why I deserve where I stand now, feeling like having nothing left, especially financially, especially living the good life, especially just enjoying life. But looking at the ideas that Napoleon Hill describes in Think and Grow Rich it seems that all people, maybe especially successful people, have these deep downs. So I still have hope that it will be alright, that things will be OK soon. But like today and yesterday it’s not easy to see meaning, to be happy, to be positive, to be inspiring. And I’m not sure if I should share what I just wrote right now as sometimes I think you, the world needs leaders who are successful, who look successful and not someone who doesn’t know anymore, at least not yesterday and not until this moment today.

The funny thing right now is though that I am starting to feel better right now as it feels that I should continue this project, that maybe this is the thing that the world needs, as one of my other ambitions, one of my other ideas and maybe my purpose in life is to make the world a better place. As some things, like especially the financial system, doesn’t seem to work. At least not for me right not and not for many people without a job, without any perspective right now. And as I stated in my desire document for this project I want to make people serve each other (again?) in a happy way instead of working for money and focusing on the money as I think most people do, and I did and still do. As that is how the world works, that is what makes the world move right now. And there is nothing wrong with money, but right now, me, an educated experienced person not being able to give services to other people I like to give (and indeed, receive money for that) is plain waste, especially seeing that so many things are not being done, are not being serviced. So money, capitalism, is not the only or not the definite way to make the world go around, at least not in the way we have organized it right now.

So how should it be done, could it be done? I’m not sure, but indeed thinking from ‘giving and receiving’ instead of ‘exchange services for money’ might be a better way of looking how we can do what we like to do and at the same time serve other people. Anyhow, more on that later as we did not prepare the site yet for our ‘receiving’ part. Ah, and yes, I am starting to see more and more that I think most humans have more problems with giving than with receiving.

My desire document

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A very important date in my desire document was September 10, 2013. Maybe the most important day of my life, at least it was when I wrote the initial version of the document which must have been September 10, 2012. And the date passed with not much feeling of success, which was kind of an anti-climax. But maybe it was the same thing a sportsman feels when he passes the finish and just knows that he made it, that he could have made it, and is just tired of the game he played. Because somehow I made my goal, a goal that was impossible at the time of writing. So I don’t feel too excited about having achieved my goal, at least in the spirit of the goal although I reached the goal litterally as I wrote it. So a big success, but there are too many things in my life that I desire to be different from what it is now, so I guess, I know I don’t sound excited right now. But what i wanted to share is that I am starting to see the power of a desire document and that I am starting to believe that I can indeed achieve all the things that i wrote there in the spirit of the Principles of Success.

So several things in my mind and the first is that I want to write my personal desire document for this project. And going back to the origin of the project I have to write it myself and it has to be mine, it has to be a personal desire document. And i am struggling now with my leadership role. As I kind of don’t want it, even though one of my desires is to stand in the spotlight. And somehow I always wanted to stand in the spotlight and I think never really stood, but I am starting to realize what price I, you have to pay when you are standing in the spotlight. So I am also starting to understand more of the problems leaders are dealing with. It looks so nice being famous and being rich and yes, I still want to be that, both. And it’s becoming a real desire now. But I’m also starting to see that there is a price to pay, a price that may be bigger than I thought, bigger than I expected. And so yes, a leader also deserves ‘more of the pie’ than the followers. I can see and feel that more now, even though that’s not really what I want anymore, having more than others, which I also always wanted and what may have blocked my way to riches, to abundance.

Anyhow, today felt like the time to make a desire document related to my desire to have one million dollars through this project. As recently I also went back to the origins of the project which was basically what someone called ‘a get rich quick scheme’. And I guess he was right. And I am very thankful for him saying that to me. As he made me realize what I was doing and I guess it was not really what I wanted. So yes, all adversity carries within it the seed of a greater benefit. I am also seeing the truth of that now, as if this person had not made that remark to me the project would not have been where it is now.

So let’s get to work and take the leadership role by writing my first draft of the desire project for my short term monetary goal with this project. And it may still be a ‘get rich quick’ desire. But I don’t care anymore. As I am also starting to see that there is nothing wrong in wanting something, no matter what other people say. And also the origin of the project and things like ‘the world likes success’ even needs me to be rich. As that’s what success means to me related to this project. That is also the success as described in Think and Grow Rich.

And yes, I keep kind of apologizing for wanting a lot of money. As I am still kind of thinking like the people on the way to poverty. But I want out of it and yes, I also want you out of it. And indeed, me being rich doesn’t harm anybody, doesn’t harm you. On the contrary. Money grows on trees and we have been taught the wrong things for quite some time. The world is abundant, just look around you. And somehow we’re blocking that with all our fears and negative ideas about money.

And I would like to share more of this process of mine, where my current thinking comes from. But maybe it’s just a process and maybe that’s why the call it The Secret.

And keep in mind, about willing to give. I am giving away part of my privacy here. I am willing to state bluntly that I want one million dollars through this project, meaning from you, the people who I am trying to serve. But I’m starting to believe that’s ok, if you’re doing it the right way. But again, that’s about what probably all the rich people know and you and I don’t (yet) as we’re not rich. And if you are rich you will probably not reading this post, but if you are I’m also very happy to see your comments about what I am writing here.