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Reprogramming my subconscious mind to get more money

Public commitment

So let’s do some public commitment by reprogramming my subconscious mind according to the method described in “Reprogramming the subconscious mind” through the idea described in my page “subconscious mind“. And of course checking if what is written in that page actually works.

And I started this post yesterday, November 20, 2018. Today is November 21, 2018, and I have been practicing some things, like keeping focus on the one thing I want to reprogram my subconscious mind for and doing some mantra type things with my “Money is good for me” sentence.

Knowing what I want (rule #1)

Rule number one is knowing what I want and that is where I already got into trouble. Or not really into trouble, but there were several things in my mind that were kind of conflicting as my initial focus was ‘money’, but then I realized in my mind ‘money’ is related to ‘working’ where in real life of course they are not necessarily. Most of my money I guess I did not get by working, even though in my mind money seems to be (mainly?) related to work. Or actually completely related to work.

A second thought came up and that is that I want my emotional pain to stop as that is kind of much more important to me than money. But that is just a feeling, as if nothing happens I will very soon completely run out of money, so I guess money is more important than getting rid of my emotional pain.

The whole exercise teaches me already that it is not that easy to be specific when just thinking about knowing what I want and I think that would be the same for most or all people.

Anyhow, I need to make a decision here I think and I choose to program my subconscious mind to attract more money to me. And I ended up on YouTube related to programming the subconscious mind and one of the things I found is that I need some kind of mantra to reprogram the subconscious mind and the mantra I came up with is something like “Money is good for me”. I also thought about “I am a money magnet”, but I want the money to flow, I want to do something with it, not let it stick with me, even though I like to have a pile of money to feel safe. But “Money is good for me” matches the things mentioned in the video I think.

And why did I choose “Money is good for me”? I think mainly because I think I was taught in childhood that money is not ‘good’, that money is something bad.

And yes, I think it is a subconscious mind thing, not just a goal I can achieve with ordinary willpower and such as I tried many things and can be pretty persistent, but nothing seemed to work, things just got worse in money matters over time, especially the last ten years, but also before.

Reveal the subconscious patterns that stop me (rule #2)

So I have to have a dialog with myself and find related subconscious mind patterns that stop me from having enough or an abundant amount of money. And I did not really work on that yet, as I believe I need some quiet time with myself to find out more about this.

Maybe this is the time to do that, but I don’t feel like it right now. But I guess I can give it a try. Now.

November 25, 2018

And I did, but it is November 25, 2018 now and I didn’t really make progress. Good I made a commitment here though as now I kind of feel obliged to continue and try again.

When I stopped writing I really tried to ask my subconscious mind what stops me from having, earning or getting enough money but I couldn’t really connect. I felt no connection with my subconscious mind. I did do some mantra type repeating of my “Money is good for me” mantra, but also not so much the last few days. So again, good I made a commitment here in this post.

I’ll try again now to meditate and see if I can make a connection to my subconscious mind about it. And I had the feeling I was not really able to as I saw some strange things in my mind, like rotten programs in some kind of eerie computer environment. It made me think there is indeed something really wrong with the programming of my subconscious mind, but I couldn’t really connect to it or change it. So I finally decided to do some meditation related to inner child healing and/or subconscious mind reprogramming: Heal Inner Child Shame and Guilt.

December 4, 2018

It is December 4, 2018 and somehow the mantra “Money is good for me” is still with me and I think of it, well, regularly, but not as often as I want or should(?!). But somehow it is in my mind, so I hope that my subconscious mind is picking it up. And somehow I added some other mantra’s, even though it was advised to just stick with one. The two others are “Traveling makes me happy” and “I would love to see my mom”.

My main thing is trying to be more positive, have positive, good thoughts in my mind, which has proven not to be easy, but I think I have made progress and those three sentences help me. Not easy to keep negative thoughts out of my mind though, but I am trying to learn to let them blow up, let them dissolve when I notice I am thinking any negative thought.

December 25, 2018

Today I felt a bit down and I guess it had to do with the phone call I had with my mom last night. And during that phone call I realized how negative my mom is. As many, many times she says “I can’t…”, like yesterday she told me she can’t use her right arm anymore. And of course that affects me, a lot I guess, as it is not nice hearing she can’t really manage alone anymore. But it is also teaching me that there may be some truth in that as long as she keeps saying “I can’t…” with many, many things, the result indeed must be that she can’t do many things.

And I know the feeling myself, like for a long time I couldn’t do many things emotionally. And that was very hard to deal with, knowing that I can technically do something, but am blocked emotionally. But maybe again, it is all in the mind and I am learning from that that indeed probably my subconsious mind is much more powerful than my conscious mind.

Anyhow, I don’t want to talk about the negative, although it kind of opened my mind (more). I wanted to talk about how I am going with my ‘Money is good for me” mantra. And actually that is going pretty well I think, as every time I have negative thoughts, especially about money, my mind is repeating the “Money is good for me” and mostly makes my mind shift into at least a more positive mindset.

The next thing I wanted to share is that I have two or three more mantra’s in my mind. And even though I read that it is best to focus on one thing at the time, the other two or three mantra’s are in my mind already. And they are:

  • Traveling makes me happy.
  • I would love to visit my mom.
  • Having a car is convenient.

And whenever I have negative thoughts e.g. being in a Jeepney, like thinking I don’t have my own transportation, I am trying to think that at least I am traveling and that traveling makes me happy. And slowly I am realizing that probably indeed I could visit my mom if I wanted to. Main limitation there is that I would like to be in a financial position I could pay for that myself easily. But maybe I can already, as somehow money is coming to me in a more positive way and somehow my financial situation has improved, even though it is not even close to what I want or what I want to manifest.

And the “Having a car is convenient” produces the image of my black Mitsubishi Pajero in my mind. So there is a strong link between car or my car and the car I imagined for so long as being my dream car. And a Mitsubishi Pajero is not really my dream car, as that would be an Aston Martin V8 Volante, but the image is there and I think I am creating positive thoughts around having a car or manifesting a Mitsubishi Pajero.

So I think I am making progress and also started reading “Manifest Now” from “Idil Ahmed”, again, literature producing positive thoughts, a positive mindset.

Rule #3: Apply the subconscious shifting methods before sleep

And I only realize now, December 4, 2018, while I am writing in the previous paragraph, that I missed something.

The site says:

When using those techniques that are presented below to program your subconscious mind, it must be before sleeping time or right when you wake up in the morning.About 15 minutes before falling asleep, the mind and body begin to calm down, the muscles loosen up, the breathing becomes more at ease, the heartbeats start to slow down and the whole system gets into a deeper relaxation mode. At this point, the brain produces alpha waves.Researcher’s EEG studies show that in this 15-minute window between wakefulness and sleep, the brain waves slow down and there are between 7-14 electrical waves each second – those are Alpha waves.

In this stage, according to research, The subconscious mind’s tunnel is “open” to receive messages.



I recently decided to do something with Bitcoin and I thought it might be a good idea to share my experiences here. And many things in my mind now, as I can’t exactly remember why I wanted to start with Bitcoin and while writing here now I realized quite some people must have made quite some money with Bitcoin as the rate has shot up exponentially the last years. And yes, while I started, a few weeks ago, the rate was pretty unstable and (had) dropped quite a bit, as far as I know because China closed down Bitcoin exchanges, but I still believe Bitcoin has a future, even though I don’t fully get the (technical) concept yet.

Bitcoin wallet

Well, I understood I needed a Bitcoin wallet, so I searched a bit and found Bitcoin Core, so I decided to install that on my computer. Kind of a mistake, as Bitcoin Core seems to be part of the Bitcoin network that maintains the transactions, so it started downloading more than 100 Gb of data (and that is still not finished). And I can’t use my Bitcoin wallet until the download is complete, so I was not able to get Bitcoin yet with that.

Slow progress with Bitcoin Core

Anyhow, I normally don’t give up easily if I want something so I started looking for other ways to get Bitcoin, which was much harder than I thought, as I needed to sign up to some site that would exchange Euro or USD for Bitcoin. And being a Dutch citizen living in The Philippines it took me a few sites I found in Google I was able to sign up for. And again, I ended up with something I did not really want, namely the Kraken Bitcoin Exchange, which is more of a currency trading account than a way to just buy Bitcoin. Like I found the charge to get my Euro back would be USD 60.00 or more, which does not make sense as I just put EUR 100.00 in the account to buy Bitcoin.

Savings Box 2

June 2, 2016

I have never written what happened to my Savings Box over the last year or so, and it was not very good, not inspirational I guess, as several times money was taken, stolen from it. And finally two weeks ago or so, it was gone, stolen fully.

Today I started a new one, starting with one peso again. Not sure what’s next or what the lesson was or would be.

Auigust 27, 2016

And today, August 27, 2016, I counted the coins in my savings box. And I knew, I presumed, some were missing, that some days I forgot. And it appeared I forgot more times than I expected, as I only counted like 78 pesos instead of the 86 that are supposed to be there if I am correct. So I missed like 10% of the days, which is much more than I expected. But, as per Napoleon Hill, better know, better analyze those things, so I can improve. Hard to be honest, but honesty seems to be important, especially to myself.

And actually I wanted to know, as I consider saving 5 peso coins again, even though my financial situation is still not that good. But I did before and I think this box is a good symbol for persistence and progress. And of standing up again, as it was very, very hard for me to restart my savings box, after the previous one was just stolen.

And strange, to see the photo with the one peso in the box. Right now there are 86, as I just filled it up to the right amount. But even the 78 pesos saved on so many days are already a lot, so I guess I can be proud of myself.

Self analysis, question 52

Today I still didn’t feel good, but somehow I realized I made some progress as I found a sponsor for my twelve steps program of Coda and somehow I started participating in the meeting again today after quite some time of just listening and not saying anything.

And the progress is related to that I am starting to realize that codependency is a terrible thing, that it is causing enormous damage, not only for me, but also for my environment. And right now, while writing, I am starting to realize that it is not my fault that I am codependent, that it is not (all?) my fault what has happened in my life, what is happening in my life.

Yes, strange that codependency is so little known where I presume it is omnipresent and that many people suffer from it, either directly or indirectly. And believe me, the damage is enormous, more than I could ever imagine. But they say there is a cure, so it is time to start working more seriously on dealing with it, even though I may never be cured, like an alcoholic always will be an alcoholic. And that is hard to deal with, but somehow today I felt hope again.

But I didn’t want to write about codependency. I just wanted to continue with the self analysis questions and today’s question is “What is your greatest worry? Why do you tolerate it?.

And of course I have seen this question before, and answered it. But right now I am not sure what is my greatest worry. I guess right now my greatest worry is to get old and have nobody to take care of me. As right now my partner is not here and that has been for quite a while already and that makes me realize how important family is, no matter how you define family. As when you are old you need people who take care of you, at least I guess most people who get old in the end can’t take care of themselves anymore like cooking or shopping or washing or dressing.

So why do I tolerate it? Well, I’m not sure if I ‘tolerate’ it, but recently I have been thinking a lot about what to do and where to go if my relationship doesn’t work out. And I can’t really decide on that until now. Somehow I just want to ‘run away’, but of course that doesn’t work. You always bring yourself with you. And that also made me decide the last few years to just stay here, in Malasag, as running away doesn’t solve anything.

And that brings me to my second worry: no money. And that is a very serious worry as for quite some time I have not been able to earn money or acquire it in other ways, even though until today I was always able to eat and pay my daily needs, or actually more, as I don’t really live a very poor lifestyle.

So why do I tolerate that? Well, I don’t really tolerate it, but I just don’t know any solution to solve my ‘money problem’. But while writing I realize I am not as worried about it as I was before, even though my cash and/or incoming funds would only last me for one or two months, and that is not a lot.

And If feel a bit like writing bullshit above, but this is just what came into my mind. So I guess this is my self analysis for today.

And yes, still looking forward to comments or other thoughts, but somehow that didn’t really happen a lot yet, except from some friend(s).

Why have you forsaken me?

“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” is something that is in my mind the last few days, as it seems nothing seems to move. And I got the message that help is on the way, a lot of help, more help than I could ever imagine, but it feels like I am back to square one again, no income, no customers, no future plans, no progress, nothing.

And that often brings me to the subject of ‘money’, as it seems without money nothing seems to move. As because I don’t have any income as of the moment (and not enough for quite a while), I feel like I can’t make plans for a holiday or something. Or even go to the city with friends. Or visit family.

And based on the ideas of Napoleon Hill I have worked very hard on all kinds of things lately, among others my internet project. And yes, you can do a lot of things virtually without money. As I just put time and had coffee with people and called and e-mailed them and such. And I came very far, further than I or anyone could have ever imagined. But right now the lack of money, the lack of an investor or investors is starting to hurt. As I really want, or actually need, to go to Manila to meet some people. And I want to formalize the company. And I would like to put some people to work, do some research. And until now I didn’t find anybody who really put some time and effort in the project, except for meeting me, talking with me, at least that’s how it feels or looks from the outside. As they are all busy, mostly because they ‘have to pay the bills’.

And yes, I guess I am not really a team person, a team building person, a people person. But I am good with ideas and I have also converted these ideas into writing, partly even into plans, even though the plans are basically still on the conceptual level. And I can work hard and am very persistent. And I am determined to make this internet thing work.

But while writing I realize that Napoleon Hill states that one needs ‘practical workable plans’, so maybe my plans are not practical or workable enough, at least not good enough. So maybe I should follow the advice and develop new plans. As Napoleon Hill also states that when you are or feel defeated, your plans are not sound enough, not good enough.

But I learn more and more that I can’t do it alone, that I need help.

So who is interested and/or willing to help me develop practical workable plans to achieve my goal:

”Improve internet, starting in Cagayan de Oro City“?

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