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Everything is connected

The last few days of course I also couldn’t get around ‘Mandela’ as all news channels put a lot of time to (the death of) Nelson Mandela. So this morning I was watching the news or one of the documentaries about Nelson Mandela and it reminded me of some character site putting me in the same category as Nelson Mandela and some other famous leaders like Mother Teresa. Something like the ‘craftsman’ personality type or something. And me being me of course I thought about the fame those people have, like I guess most people in the world know their names. And somehow I also still want that. Egoistic? Maybe. But I didn’t want to write about myself now, I wanted to write about how everything is connected. As I felt like writing about Nelson Mandela, about how Apartheid came to be. And about power, as I understood Mandela used power, even in the form of violence, which I am so much against. But I also remember the phrase “Great achievements as for Power” or something like that that Napoleon Hill refers to.

And I was thinking indeed on how everything is connected, because it felt quite natural to write about Nelson Mandela and/or his story or everything his name is connected with. But of course it’s not, as ‘everything’ on TV is somehow connected to or showing ‘something Mandela’. And it influences everybody;s thoughts, including mine. And it’s not really the power of television or newspapers or something, it is more. It is indeed the Energy Abraham Hicks is writing so much about, it is the Infinite Intelligence that Napoleon Hill mentions, it is maybe The Secret that other people refer to.

And what I heard in this documentary about Nelson Mandela, about what he did to achieve what he wanted to achieve, it really sounded like he applied the Principles of Success. And yes, I don’t know what was or were his heartbreaking struggles, but something like twenty seven(?!) years in prison is not nothing, especially if your communication is limited to the absolute minimum. And I was struck by the statement that he said that he was willing to die to achieve what he wanted to achieve: democracy in his home country.

And of course I was thinking about myself again, looking at myself. And about the word, the term charisma I have been thinking about a lot lately. As it seems that’s what I don’t have, at least not towards other people, that’s the main thing missing in my struggle to fame, to achievement.

But after some quick research about charisma I just found there is a second meaning to charisma, a meaning not related to inspiring people, and that is using some personal talent. And that’s something I have, something everybody have: talents. So there is hope and it seems somehow I also stopped learning somehow have closed my mind. And that is what I encountered lately also a lot: open your mind, have an open mind. And I didn’t know what the people meant, what people were trying to tell me, but I think I’m starting to get it. Because mostly I seem to be stuck in my own opinion, in my own ‘being right’ and forget to listen and look around, meaning I will miss opportunities, miss other solutions, miss the contribution of other people (which may be more valuable than I always thought).

And this is becoming a bit chaotic post I guess, but maybe that’s also just who I am, maybe that’s also just my style. And probably, over time, people will find me, the people who like my style, who like what I write. And yes, somehow I’m writing all of this for you, not for me, even though I often get feedback, often tell myself even ‘that it’s all about me’. But it’s not, as if it were all about me I wouldn’t be writing here, I wouldn’t push myself to write here every day. And believe me, that’s not always easy as I sometimes can’t find the time or the inspiration. But no matter what, I wrote, I posted virtually every day. And somehow I know my persistence will pay off.

And don’t forget, it’s all a weird combination of doing things yourself, of ‘action’ and just waiting for the world come around, waiting for things to fall into place.

So there is hope, for you, for me, for everybody. As everything is connected.

Living in the now

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Before now

For the last one and a half year or so I have been kind of living from day to day, something like living one day at the time. And I never fully understood what that meant, never really did that before, but yes, it is a way to get through anything. And yes, I had my happy moments, maybe even happier than ever before, but somehow it’s not satisfying, this ‘day-by-day’ living thing. Somehow a human being, or at least me and I guess most or many other people, wants to look forward, achieve something ‘in the future’. And that’s what I remember, what I want back, ‘my good life’, the life I had before when everything was still ‘normal’, when I grew up in kind of a normal family, when I studied and finished my study, when I found a job, when I traveled and saw the world, and even when I moved here, to The Philippines, to this beautiful house.

So somehow I’m not living ‘day-by-day’, but also living in the past. As I want those things back. As I remember the good things. And yes, there were the good things, especially the travel, the money that made it possible, the partner I was with, the house I lived in, so basiclally my ‘normal life’ with work, evenings, weekends and holidays.

Past

And yes, there were downs, very deep downs, but somehow not so long downs, although I’m starting to doubt that while I’m writing this. I grew up very lonely, partly because it’s my character, but also partly because I’m gay and neither was able to find partners nor role models until I was like in my twenties. And during my study I ended up with a psychologist and was about to kill myself as I felt so unhappy with everything. It also took me quite a while to find a job after I finished study, so that period was also not very smooth. And then I found my first job and things started to go better, as then I also found my first partner. And that’s also the time I remember, the time I miss. But the weird thing is that indeed that time was ok for me, but there were still very important things not really OK. As my partner and me had some big issue that I still can’t fully understand. And most of the time I had problems at work and was scared losing my job, which also actually happened a few times.

So then, about ten years ago I had a deep down, the deepest of my life ever I think, although I’m not fully sure now. I lost my partner, lost my job and couldn’t afford my house anymore, so also lost my house. And yes, when my partner left me, I again considered committing suicide, like I did when I was in my early twenties.

But somehow when I lost my job for the first time, in a very bad way, I was able to find a new job, against all odds. And even quite quickly. And yes, it had everything to do with persistence and desire, with the Principles of Success as Napoleon Hill describes them.

And after losing my first partner, after my first partner left me, I found a new partner very quickly in a similar manner I had found a new job after losing my first job.

Next past

And then weird things began to happen. As the start of my second relationship was very good, even though looking back it may have been way too soon. And the start of our business was also very good. And moving to The Malasag House felt also very good, although it was kind of risky, but it was exciting.

The Malasag House as it must be.

And then slowly the whole thing started falling apart, and I still don’t fully get why, although maybe it’s indeed about my learning process in this life, the “The Other and I” thing. But still, I’m not happy about it and it took away my joy, the fun in my life.

And then about one and a half year ago, the middle of 2012, my second partner left me and my whole life fell apart in a similar way as ten years before. And again I didn’t want to live anymore, wanted to commit suicide, felt fully alone in a strange country without family, without friend, without a job, basically without and income, so nothing to live for anymore and nowhere to go. And yes, this was the deepest, the lowest point in my life, not the first time when my partner left, when my life fell apart. No, the second time was much worse, as I had lost all hope, all courage, just lived from day to day.

Future

And then something changed. And that was also basically the start of Inspiration for Success, of this website. And of my current life, a new life, a somehow different life. And I’m not there yet, just read my posts, that are often based on the problems, the practical problems I encounter, like money and earning. But yes, while writing this I realize something has changed. And it has indeed to do with desire, with a decision, with a purpose, even though I often don’t see and feel it anymore. And yes, somehow it is based in the Principles of Success of Napoleon Hill. But there is more, although what’s in my mind now is also there and it’s called Infinite Intelligence. And it’s something also like ‘letting it happen’, ‘letting it be’. Don’t know how to explain that right now.

Now

And writing this post is starting to become strange, empowering to myself. As I see how far I have come since the events that started around one and a half year ago. And I still feel down, and I’m not there yet. But somehow now, while writing this, I’m starting to feel stronger. And yes, the last weeks, the last months things started to improve, basically without my conscious effort.

And I’m a bit in doubt what to tell you know, as some things are very private. But I want you to know that the whole thing started with a decision, a decision to achieve the impossible, a decision founded in a very deep desire. But it also started with someone giving me a book, the book Think and Grow Rich. And it started with following my feelings, following my Inner Being, somehow.

And just now, right now, I’m starting to believe again that I’m very close, very close to what I really want, very close to real happiness, the happiness that I and everybody else so much longs for and deserves.

Things are ok now

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Today and the last few days a lot of things happened. Good things, like money came in, a lot of money even, though I’m not fully sure I should say yes to everything. As it was tempting and I was quick to say yes but my partner indicated that the problem was still not solved. And he was right.

So yes, my ‘grabbing’ thing is still there, although I’m seeing more and more of it.

And I see this post is going nowhere, so I”ll just stop.

Have a nice day!

Worlds top five transporters

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I was just watching the documentary “The worlds top five transporters” on Discovery Channel. And I was amazed (again) at what humans, or actually humanity, can achieve, has achieved. And also how small one human being is. And also how much has been achieved already even before I was born. And how much was achieved when I was a child, grew up.

And somehow I don’t feel part of it, don’t feel part of it anymore at least. And somehow I am thinking more and more about the poor people in the world, which may even be the majority. The people who will never really see the world, will never really experience all those marvels that have been created by human kind.

And I was thinking about the Apollo program, the moon program in the sixties in the US. As one of the worlds top five transporters in the program was the crawler. And about those Apollo rockets (or they are actually called Saturn I think), the largest rockets ever built if I remember correctly.

And again, I was thinking that indeed as humanity we are building an awful lot of things nowadays, computers and tablets and cell phones in mass production and even marvels as shown in those “Worlds top five” programs. But somehow I still believe we don’t do anything big anymore and I wrote about that before. And I guess I’ll be writing about it again. We don’t go to the moon anymore, and we’re not really planning to go to Mars, let alone to the stars, to other solar systems or galaxies. And isn’t that what humanity is about, going beyond anything, exploring everything, everything there is in the Universe? And we just don’t seem to do it anymore.

So where are the heroes making these big ideas, the really, really big ideas come true? Or should I be the one, could I be the one?

And yes, while writing this I know this post has two different, almost opposite views: the poor people not even enjoying the benefits of what humanity has achieved in practical things. And the things that go beyond everything and would cost an awful lot of money and effort, where that effort and money would not be available to bring joy to the poor people in this world.

But yes, in the end I believe it’s about the special, about the one thing that shouldn’t be done, that’s too expensive, too great, too big a dream too impractical.

But are those things, those dreams not what life is all about?

Listening

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I often hear from people I’m not listening. And I never really understood, I never really got the point what they meant as I’m often trying to adapt to what people say, follow what people say, try to learn how to improve things, how to improve myself.

So in my mind, in my experience I’m doing a lot of effort to, well, try to listen to people, as that seems what I don’t do, or not do as most people do or not as good as most people do.

But recently I see a bit more that I indeed do not listen to people, that indeed somehow I’m not interested in other people. And while writing this I’m asking myself what has changed that I seem to somehow get that message better, that message that other people have been trying to pass to me for a long time.

As I am trying more and more to make this site more useful, more useful to you, instead of something like ‘just creating content to get traffic’, which was my main goal at first, based on what I know about internet search, about Google.

But for this I have no answer, no suggestion what has caused me to listen better, or at least now being aware that there is something that needs to be improved, that I want to improve.

Maybe it was the idea that came to me that if I want something from my environment, from the world, from other people, that indeed I have to adjust myself to the system. As the system just works as it works. It’s just the system.

So again, it was about ‘me’, and in my opinion it will always be about ‘me’, as for you it will always be about you. As there is nothing else.

But yes, systems are systems and they just work according to the rules of the system. So if you want the system to work for you, better understand the system and work according to the rules of the system.

So if I want to get what I want, I better understand the rules of the system and I will just get what I want, using the system.