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Thrown off balance and inspirational movie

And I wanted to stay positive, but I was just thrown off balance again with my Globe connection. As quite some things on the internet don’t work through the Globe connection I have, like the sending of the daily quote. Somehow connections are being cut or Globe is messing with stuff they shouldn’t be messing with as I wrote about in my post about Globe inserting malware/spyware in websites. Like right now I didn’t get the result about if the quote was sent or not, often meaning that the system I am using somehow tries again, meaning sending quotes in duplicate to some people. And yes, I have an alternative, but I did not realize right now I was using Globe, meaning also the Globe malware script is inserted again in the page I am using right now. And the system doing that must be interfering quite heavily with the TCP/IP packets that are being sent and received, as it’s not that easy to insert a script like Globe manages to do. As you somehow need to buffer the webpage and find a way to interfere with TCP/IP stuff and somehow pass things on, both ways. And as that’s quite complicated it’s probably that our quote sending system does not work as it should.

But enough about that now, as it has cost me already too much time. But yes, I want to do something about it, and most Filipino’s won’t even support me with something like this. And I still don’t fully get why, because to me these kind of things are just unacceptable and companies should be held accountable for doing things they’re not supposed to do. But yes, maybe this is about leadership again, going on trying to do something about these things without people supporting me. And indeed, most people just oppose me writing letters to the management of Smart and Globe. But again, if I don’t do it, who will? But again, enough; it seems I’m violating one of the Principles of Success, like controlling my emotions, which I’m not doing properly right now. As I have planned my next step about this tomorrow or the day after, so I shouldn’t write about it right now. So while writing I’m even considering deleting it, but that would be also wrong or unfair, as I promised to achieve my success, my road to success, in the open. So the above is something that is not helping me to achieve success, as it’s just emotional talk and no real action, although I mostly put some links related to the issue that may help find supporters to stop the malpractice of Globe.

Movie Flight So after the intermezzo above I actually wanted to write that it seems that indeed the movie industry appears to mostly produce perfect movies. And that most movies have some kind of inspirational story, some kind of message. And I often oppose things like ‘industry’, but somehow the movie industry in Hollywood indeed has the function to only allow ‘good’ movies to be produced and be successful.

And yes, the movie Flight is another sample of a very good movie with indeed also a message. And indeed showing things from various angles, as I found out that there is no black and white in life. Many things are mostly grey, like there is no ‘right’ or ‘wrong’. And so is the story, the message in the movie. As what the flight captain does is extraordinary, at least related to flying the plane, saving most of the people on board. And yes, I guess it’s true that if you are an alcoholic you can indeed have a very successful career as the flight captain in the movie shows. But at the same time he has a drinking problem, and I recognized part of it, even though I never really lived with an alcoholic. But I had a friend who was an alcoholic, so I came quite close to it and I recognize part of the denial. And no, I don’t really know what addiction is, like an addiction to smoking or alcohol, although I have kind of an eating addiction. But I guess that’s still a bit different and it doesn’t affect my life so much. Or does it?

But yes, I liked the story, the plot in the movie very much. And the end is very inspiring, as it gives some kind of hope to alcoholics. As I guess the scenes at the end of the movie may be a little step towards acceptance, acceptance that they have a real problem.

And yes, it also makes me think, like if my eating problem or my debt problem isn’t also kind of a similar denial thing. Or my career problems or business problems.

So what about you?

And yes, I can certainly recommend watching the movie as it’s just a good movie and it even has a message.

Planning and discipline

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Implementing the Principles of Success or at least working on planning and discipline seem to start to pay off as even today, when I started kind of late and had the feeling I had planned too much for the day I still managed to do everything I planned,even though, again, I ended very late. Like right now it’s almost 2 am, so actually time to relax and sleep.

And maybe the most important thing I am doing the last few days is NOT doing things. Like I was very much affected with what Globe and Smart, my Internet Service Providers and the two biggest. and in many areas basically only, Internet Service Providers in The Philippines are doing. And it kind of ruled my life, like everywhere. When doing work, when doing private things on the internet,when reading my IFS e-mails, when reading and writing in Facebook.

And it still kind of does, as right now I am too scared to open my IFS e-mail and I am too scared to open my Facebook account. As I know I am easily carried away with this stuff, unorganized writing and complaining. So yes, I am not opening it from fear, but maybe even more to make sure I won’t be carried away with it and ending up being very emotional about it.

So I am planning my actions more about it. And other actions. And I started to plan further in the future. Like the last one and a half year I have kind of been living from day to day, planning from day to day, too scared or whatever to look in the future, towards the future. But yes, I organized my days through the segment intending and daily to-do lists. And a few weeks ago, somehow in a kind of natural way, I started to look further ahead. Plan things a few days away. And actually it is starting to work out fine, as now I just plan things, things I like and things I don’t like. Like I didn’t feel like writing my second letter to Mr. Cu of Globe and Mr. Nazareno of Smart. But I planned some things around it, like creating a draft a week ago or so and an updated draft two days ago and today I had planned something like to finish it. And I just did, even though I didn’t feel like it anymore.

So yes, I need to plan reading my IFS e-mail and my Facebook. But not NOW, just tomorrow or Sunday or Monday. And I am more careful what to plan, what to write on my to-do list for a day. And how to write it, like often I write also things like ‘maybe do this’ or ‘if it fits my schedule’. So I won’t pressure myself into ‘impossible’ plannings. And yes, sometimes I just skip things, don’t do things I planned. But not so often anymore. And it’s a good feeling.

So yes, I’m on the way, on a better way.

Unreasonable and angry

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My partner was just very angry and unreasonable and fortunately I was able to stay calm, even though I gave in in the end to something he wanted, even though I did not agree. And I always give in as I don’t know any other way (yet).

So I found myself kind of frustrated and also with some kind of withheld, even though slowly I see that this is just what he believes, his view how the world should be, like me supporting and serving him in everything. And I know in general I do much more than he does. And mostly I don’t mind as that’s how he feels (and I feel). But no, not easy if you feel there is so little coming back, that many of my needs are not being met.

But yes, I’m learning how to deal with things better. And my recent actions around planning, learning to plan, sticking to my daily plans, just doing the things I planned for today and not doing the things I planned for tomorrow or next week, help me. So yes, applying the principles of success like sticking to decisions and making a planning and writing things down and trying to listen to Infinite Intelligence, my inner voice, are slowly helping me to be more happy. As I guess in the end that’s what it’s all about.

So while sending my daily quote I played some music I liked. And I realized that this music, this kind of violent, aggressive music has been made by people who are ‘in flow’. So I saw the drummer and the singer and the mixer in my mind doing their thing, creating this beautiful thing they call music that I can play right here, just touching some buttons and dials. And I tried to suck in the energy that had gone out while taking in the anger of my partner an hour or so ago. And at first I tried to let it flow,flow out again, but it made me even feel more empty. But then I realized I was just empty and that it was OK to just let it in, suck it in, filling up the energy that had gone out while taking in the anger and unreasonable demands of my partner. So apparently taking in anger takes energy, an enormous amount of energy.

And yes, I know that just giving anger in return, getting angry at the other person, especially with my partner, just will make things worse, like fighting fire with fire, which in general is not a good idea, although of course sometimes it can be an option.

So then, while resting a bit from work, I tried to find some diversion and thought I might just check quotes related to ‘deal with anger’. So I ended up in Google seeing something like:

“The first key to leadership was self-control, particularly the mastery of pride, which was something more difficult, he explained, to subdue than a wild lion and anger, which was more difficult to defeat than the greatest wrestler. He warned them that “if you can’t swallow your pride, you can’t lead”.” ― Jack Weatherford.

And it appealed to me so I went to quotes about anger management and found the quote I sent today:

“The best fighter is never angry.” ― Laozi.

And of course the ‘never angry’ is unreasonable, as humans are humans. And I guess I still have a lot of pride. But it seems I’m on the right way, becoming a better human being, maybe able to lead others to a better world and more happiness.

But it’s not always easy.

So what do you want to be? A leader or a follower?

Busy again

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Wow, it’s good to be busy again. At least now I don’t have to worry about what to do next, how to find customers or projects and mainly how to sustain myself and the people close to me and the household and such.

But also a bit tiring as I’m not really used to work for many hours a day anymore. And yes, I know it’s tiring to do the work I do, even for a few hours and then you need a break.

Still no clue though how to continue towards my biggest business dream, an internet company with a staff of around 200 people in Cagayan de Oro City. As I know now it is probably very hard to find people with the mindset and skills that I need to make that company work.

But that’s also why I’m mentioning it here. Because maybe you are the ambitious or not so ambitious person who wants to develop himself, help build a company like I have in mind, help build Cagayan de Oro City and The Philippines into a decent city and country where people can just find decent jobs locally and don’t have to go abroad, don’t need to have their mindset abroad because ‘abroad’ means a decent income in probably a not-so-decent job.

So please help me and yourself and Cagayan de Oro City and The Philippines by helping me serve the customer base I’m developing right now.

And yes, my commitment is there, as that company is one of my life goals and I won’t stop moving in that direction until I get there or until I die. And no, it won’t be easy, because with the current Philippine mindset and education don’t seem to be adequate to compete with other countries.

But yes, I promise I will make it work. Are you joining?

Planning

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I thought I was not good in planning, but it seems that I am starting to learn. And it is weird to see that it appears that planning makes my life easier, more relaxed. As e.g. when I am finished with the plan for the day I am just finished.

And my planning comes with some decision power. As for the last few months I try not to change decisions after I make them. And also that makes life easier, as I don’t have to think so much, I don’t doubt so much anymore. As when I have planned something, decided to do something, I will normally just do it, even though it sometimes feels weird. And yes, I still tend to plan too many things, too many things in one day. So I still get tired from overload. And then indeed I sometimes just stop, don’t do anything anymore, which still kind of makes me feel guilty.

But somehow the ideas of Napoleon Hill as written down in Think and Grow Rich are starting to make sense to me, are starting to help me. And recently even make me feel much stronger.

And still, one of the most powerful things I experience is the coming alive of my desire document. And no, I didn’t make all the dates there. But yes, it helps me keep on track and it is very weird to see it come alive. Very weird.

So yes, recently I also started reading it aloud again. And sometimes I don’t feel it, don’t feel anything. But mostly I see and feel the things written there come alive. And yes, it is kind of a self fulfilling prophecy, as one of the weird things that is happening around that is that it gives positive meaning to events that I would normally consider negative.

So yes, again, I can certainly recommend to make a written statement on your definite purpose or your goals and dreams in life. As one other major thing I also got from the ideas as written down by Napoleon Hill: if you just have one goal or definite purpose and stick to it, only two things can happen: you reach your goal or you die while being on the way to it. And talking about lifetimes the first is much more likely to happen than the second. As most people overestimate what they could achieve in one year and underestimate how much they can achieve in ten year. And being fifty now I can state that ten year is not that long. And that in one lifetime there are mostly multiple periods of ten year.

So yes, better just stick to your goal and reach it. And yes, if you failed, or better say you were defeated, just set your sails once more on the way to your goal(s) and with this type of mindset it is very unlikely not to reach your goal. I promise you.