Strange, I was thinking about that basically I don’t want to live, meaning I seem to have a very negative mindset and today’s question is “Does your presence have a negative influence on other people as a rule”?
And I know I read the question before, or at least that was in my mind, so I must have thought about it earlier or somehow it stuck in my mind.
And still, even though I have the feeling my presence in general has a negative influence on other people I can’t really confirm that, as today e.g. I had two positive experiences, like people seeming to like my presence.
And I am not really sure how to continue right now as I am very tired and need some rest.
Maybe the most important lessons I learned recently is acknowledge more what is going on, especially allowing negative feelings and thoughts just to be there.
Ah, today’s question is an interesting one: “Do you tolerate negative or discouraging influences which you can avoid?”. And the interesting part is the ‘you can avoid’, as somehow related to anything ‘success’, relating to successful people I have the feeling that they just made it through their own effort. And even Think and Grow Rich states something like that. But this question implies there are things you cannot avoid. Or could it be it is just challenging you, challenging me to also think about what you can avoid and what not?
So do I tolerate negative or discouraging influences. Yes, I certainly do, as I consider my partner as a negative influence on my life. But he is my partner and I don’t want to leave me. And somehow my house is a negative influence as it is too big and too expensive to maintain in my current situation. And the place where I live somehow has a negative influence on my life, but as I love the house I want to stay here and rather make the place a positive place than moving elsewhere because that would be easier.
So this is a very interesting self analysis question as it makes me think again about how I choose in life, what I chose, somehow whatever the consequences. And those two things, my partner and my house, are life choices for me that I don’t want to change. And somehow they go back to what I learned about definite purpose and sticking with decisions, or at least change them slowly if ever.
And still, no matter how bad my situation is, no matter how bad I often feel, somehow I have gotten stronger, much stronger the last two years since I started reading Think and Grow Rich and working from it.
So yes, I choose some negative influences I can avoid as I don’t want to run away anymore. This time I want to stick around and make it work.