Inspiration for Success
About inspiration, motivation and success
It seems there is only so much you can do.
Today I was fully exhausted and also one of my team members already indicated she needed rest.
So what about persistence and pushing trough and going the extra mile?
I could have gone the extra mile (and push for another meeting), but it jus didn’t feel right.
Same as writing here, today, but I thought I still wanted to share this.
Yes, habits are very powerful I am starting to notice.
But what is the cost?
Tired again. And a bit the feeling I’m back to square one, even though I am quite sure some things have changed, but not the most important things. And this morning I read my desire document again, which gave me hope and courage, but right now, late in the evening and with another day I was out most of the afternoon I am very tired again, and a bit in a down mood also, especially as I did not stuck with a decision I made about two weeks ago and broke a promise to someone.
But maybe this is just the right circumstance to answer the question “Do you choose, from your daily experiences, lessons or influences which aid in your personal advancement”? And I guess the answer is ‘no’ as I often don’t evaluate days. Mostly I am just tired, very tired, at the end of the day. And mostly I am dissatisfied at the end of the day, as it seems I don’t make any real progress. And of course that is not true, but often it just feels like that.
And I am just tired of people often telling me that I have a negative mindset. And maybe I often talk about things negatively, but I also know I am doing an awful lot of things, put an awful lot of effort to make things work, probably more than most other people. And that is why I feel so frustrated, as I believe I deserve more, but maybe there is indeed something like Infinite Intelligence, or God, that in the end decides who gets what.
And I don’t regret my life and the choices I made. I just feel treated unfair (by life), that’s all.
So what lesson or influence would I choose today that would help me in my personal advancement? Well, maybe that I am still very impulsive and when I feel cornered I take any opportunity that looks somehow feasible, the thing my partner often calls ‘you grab anything’.
But what if you feel you don’t have much options (left)?
Another question I don’t like and don’t fully understand: “Do you encourage people to bring their worries to you for sympathy”? And that raises the question if I am answering these questions for someone else like ‘what do they mean with this and what answer would they expect’ or that I am just answering the question just by myself to know more about myself.
And the answer to the last is that I want to answer this question to ‘score well’ on, yes, who’s scoreboard?
So I am asking myself if it would be a positive or a negative (towards leadership, towards success) to answer ‘yes’ or ‘no’ which of course is completely out of the question. Or isn’t it?
Anyhow, I guess the real answer is that I don’t encourage people to bring their worries to me (for sympathy). At least that is what I think right now. But (some?) people do bring their worries to me, like my mam. And I don’t like it, as it just feels she is complaining (instead of helping me, being there for me).
And no, I don’t have much sympathy for people I guess. I do admire people when they are successful, but I merely pity people who are not successful.
So implicitly I pity myself as I don’t consider myself successful.
And all of this makes me think I may want to change something here like be more open to other peoples worries and such.
As I think that would be an improvement.
I was, and still am, a bit in doubt what to write here, as I had a pretty busy day ending with a few hours without electricity which is why it is pretty late right now. And my doubt is about whether I will continue with the next self analysis question or if I just write a short post ‘just to write a post’. But actually I decided already: I just want to write a short note here that at least I am alive and am still fulfilling my daily task of writing here, which has helped me to become more disciplined.
And it is strange writing about doubt here, as often when I am tired I am still in doubt whether to write a short post, even one line or something or just skip the day. And mostly I decide to write and often I write even more than I was planning to, just like now, but the doubt keeps haunting me and also confirms to me right now that I could just make a decision on that right now for future posts, for future days when it is late and/or when I am tired.
And somehow I don’t want to, somehow I can’t make that decision right now for the future, even though implicitly I already made it, as mostly I just decide to write, no matter where I am, no matter the circumstances and no matter what time it is. And I am thinking now about two weeks ago, when I was on holiday in Siargao and even a few days on a very remote island with virtually no internet access. And I did send the daily quote most of the days, but writing posts I mostly skipped as it just felt like ‘too much’.
And well, even today I was able to write quite a bit, much more than just the one line that I felt actually was appropriate for today. It does even feel likes it makes some sense, so not bad I guess. And the last ‘I guess’ of course includes doubt, which is to be avoided related to success.
I just decided to do some paid advertising for Inspiration for Success on Facebook and it feels a bit strange, as I am kind of against advertising and I kind of decided not to put money in Inspiration for Success. But traffic is not increasing, on the contrary, a few months ago it went down quite a lot and only the last week or so it has stabilized and goes up a little bit now, but it is nowhere to what I wanted and expected when I started this site, this blog, this idea.
And I have no clue to earn from it or something, or even what the site means as it all got lost in not meeting my expectations, traffic not increasing, people not commenting and the team leaving me long time ago.
And I know I am persistent and together with the ideas from Think and Grow Rich that keeps me going, but for a long time it has been no fun anymore, where I started so enthusiastically sharing the stuff I found about inspiration and success, the Principles of Success.
Anyhow, something needs to happen and a few days ago I started paid advertising for one of my customers as I thought that would be a good way to promote his businesses, and I think I was right, as the advertisements at least produced “Like’s”, which means people are following those pages now. So well, why not do it for Inspiration for Success, and The Malasag House, so I decided to spend a little money on that just half an hour ago or so.
And it is kind of against my ideas, supporting big companies like Facebook, as they seem to have the power and earn more and more. But maybe they deserve it and maybe this works for me (and customers/interested people).
And I also want to become rich through something like Facebook, so somehow I am the same.
Anyhow, strange to do this and it was kind of an impulse, but keeping doing the things I did before doesn’t seem to work, so I have to do something else.
And Facebook works, so why not for me?