I was tired and slept. And then woke up. So I sent the e-mail, but maybe made a mistake. But I did it!
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How far I have gotten
There is a quote in my mind right now, and it goes something like that we often look at how far we still have to go instead of how far we have gotten. And I think I have gotten much further with my crazy internet project than I could have ever imagined. As yes, people confirm it is a crazy project. But yes, they also kind of support it, believe it would be or could be doable. And that is also what I see more and more, that people want other people to succeed, no matter what they want or how big or how small the item is they are looking to achieve. So yes, if I want to put Cagayan de Oro City on the internet map, make it the Internet City of the World, it is still some kind of crazy idea. But it is also not, as there is no real internet city as I have in mind in the world and why could Cagayan de Oro City not grow into something bigger, something big. And who wouldn’t want that?
And yes, I believe more and more that Napoleon Hill is right, and with him many other great thinkers. It all starts with service, with giving service to other people, with giving, with giving to other people. As it seems the more about giving something to the people, the people of Cagayan de Oro City, the people of Mindanao, the people of The Philippines, the better my project, my venture feels. And of course there is something in me that still says like ‘what’s in it for me?’, but if that part shows up, the good feeling becomes a little less good. As that is ‘taking’. And I believe more and more that you can only give, and receive. But you can’t take, you can’t force, you can’t force or expect other people to give you something. Or maybe you can expect, but you really have to fully let it go, you really have to fully let it up to the other person what he wants to give you.
And maybe you can ask, but I’m not fully sure how that exactly works. As if I ask the wrong way, again, I am kind of taking. It seems you really have to ask without expecting, without demanding. You really have to ask in an open way and be satisfied with whatever is given or not given.
So yes, I am learning I think. And it’s not easy, as many of my needs are not fulfilled, there are many things I am missing very much, like having enough money to live, have a car, have some holiday, visit my mam in The Netherlands and many more things. But again, you can’t force it, you just have to wait for The Universe to give. And maybe ready to receive. But you can’t force.
Inspired action
I guess I’d rather call this post ‘inspired non-action’ as I didn’t feel like moving the last days, weeks. So also today, even though I did start moving a bit and even though some things ‘came to me’, I didn’t really feel like moving.
And even my planning, my daily to-do list is suffering from it.
But it just doesn’t feel good, it just doesn’t feel i should, or even could, move more, put more action.
So I’ll just wait, wait until I feel inspired for the right things, now.
Courage inspiration
I am still wondering if I, or you, are the same as the 14 year old boy who my partner and I are supporting to go to school. As he is often guided by fear, meaning he does not move or achieves the things that appear so easy to achieve by me.
But maybe the answer is already given, at least for me. As often I doubt if I should guide him in the direction I want him to go, away from poverty, partly away from Filipino culture. So yes, my doubt is related to fear, fear if I am doing the right thing, like ‘who am I to teach this boy, this young man the teachings of Napoleon Hill and such’. And things like ‘he is only a 14 year old boy, what can he handle’? And ‘am I not doing the same as my father did to me, pushing me in a direction that didn’t suit me’?
And yes, of course those are valid questions. And I guess they should be asked, I should ask them to myself. But I guess there are also no answers to those questions. As who decides what a 14 year old Filipino boy can handle?
And question that comes to me now is more like ‘what is wrong with trying to pass on my knowledge on how to live life, or how not to live life’, to the next generation? And also something like that of course we are all influenced by the people around us, by our surroundings, whether culture or people or whatever.
And right now the story that you cannot decide what are ‘good things’ or ‘bad things’ happening to someone. As over time good things may turn out to be bad things and the other way around.
And again, while writing, I realize that I did not really make a decision whether to support or guide this guy in life. And again, this means that I am easily thrown off balance if things go wrong or don’t go the way I have or had in mind.
And of course deep inside I know the answer, the answer that I should support this guy, keep supporting this guy finding his way in life, no matter what. And there is no real reason why I should not, except maybe guilt, guilt that I cannot do more cannot support more children of his age to raise above the poverty he was born in, raise above the culture to accept ‘everything’ as it comes to you and not, well fight, to escape poverty.
So yes, while writing this I guess it is time to find the courage myself to make that decision to really support him, support him the best I can. So exactly the thing I was teaching him about today, to fight fear with courage. And maybe add for myself to fight doubt with decision.
Your dream
I was (accidentally) watching the movie Gattaca, a movie I have seen quite some times. And it is a movie I like very much, I don’t exactly know why.
And before today I never really saw what I saw today, that the movie is all about determination, the determination to achieve something. And another thing that struck me today was that there were more people knowing what was really going on than I thought. And all those people supported Vincent, even help him when the odds are against him.
So yes, somehow the movie is about the principles of success, and I think many of the principles can be recognized in it.
And yes, certainly watch this movie (again), and learn from it, see how the principles of success are applied, are being used.
And yes, it is all about determination, definite purpose, the determination of one man, Vincent Freeman.
