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Convert defeat into success

Last Saturday I did not write my posts and I kind of felt guilty about it. And it was even worse, as I kind of planned to catch up yesterday, Sunday, but in the end I also didn’t do it. And it feels like a severe breach in my daily writing habit and I am not sure what to do next, as I just don’t feel like writing anymore.

And the strange thing is that I actually achieved quite some successes. And I wanted to write about it. But I didn’t.

So somehow I have slowly programmed myself for success, but somehow it also affects things, like writing here. So how will I convert this defeat of failure of not writing last Saturday into success? Like what can I learn from it?

And the strange thing is that one or two times before I skipped a day, but somehow this time it feels more severe, it feels like giving up writing here, writing every day. But I made a promise to myself to write here about my road to success, about how I went from my deepest down to my highest up. And I am not up yet, but somehow something changed. As people are starting to listen to me, are starting to support me, no matter how crazy my ideas are. But somehow my subconscious does not seem to accept that I can be successful, can have success.

So maybe that is what I am learning right now, that it is important to keep my promise and that I should keep writing, also now I am starting to become successful. And yes, one of the most important things towards success seems to be persistence, nothing more, nothing less. So maybe people will even start to read this, even though until now I don’t think many people are reading or have read my posts.

And yes, I should go back to the beginning, to why I started this site, this blog. And evaluate where I am standing right now compared to that time. And even though recently I have been complaining a bit again I guess, I may be amazed about how far I have gotten, and maybe how little I still have to go.

Disciplined or stubborn?

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Lately I am asking myself more and more why I am writing here every day, yes, except on Sunday’s, as it doesn’t feel that inspiring anymore and it also feels like it doesn’t have any purpose except to kind of show to myself that I can do it, that I can be disciplined or something. Or that I am persistent. But somehow it also feels that I am just stubborn.

So what is it? Or maybe all? And yes, I guess this is the most difficult time in the ‘race’ that I started and that I somehow wanted to continue for at least two years. As two years is somehow the milestone that I consider Google considers the period when a website is really serious. But Google changed and I’m not really sure if that two year mark or something is still there. Or even existed anyhow. And then, should I write my blog, my posts, these words that don’t make any sense to anybody lately, or probably don’t make any sense to anybody lately, because of Google? Or some policy or algorithm of Google?

But yes, while writing this somehow the answer is still yes. As somehow this is what persistence is all about. Going on when you don’t feel like it anymore, going on when it doesn’t make sense anymore, going on when all the excitement is gone, going on no matter what.

And yes, I know somehow this time is different, this time is more about persistence and less about being stubborn. As somehow I have decided that this time I want to be successful, no matter what. This time I have decided that I won’t give up, won’t give up until I finally have or feel the success that I have been waiting for, struggled for all my life. And right now I’m not fully sure how that success would look like, like how I would achieve it. As I am working on many things right now. And no, somehow I also haven’t lost focus, somehow I am finishing things now, determined to finish things, finish everything, everything I have started and am starting.

So yes, the things I am writing here and in my personal blog may not make much sense recently. But sending the daily quote does and keeping my gratitude journal also. And my persistence in some other projects has brought me closer to some unimaginable goals.

So yes, let’s continue here for now. And yes, let’s celebrate how far I have gotten.

And thank you, Napoleon Hill. As somehow your book Think and Grow Rich has brought me closer to success, big success, than ever.

Inspiring, again

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As you may have noticed I guess my posts were not that interesting lately and probably not really inspiring. But slowly I am getting into a more inspiring mood, so I hope soon I will add some more inspiring stuff to this site again.

And I guess this is not the easiest period in a web project, as I know it takes about two years for a website to kind of take off. And it is only like one and a half year ago that I started Inspiration for Success, so I can’t really expect a lot, especially as I have been doing most of it alone and as my ambition like writing a post every day and creating inspirational tools and those things just take time and effort.

So yes, often the statement of Abraham Hicks about people who seem to have nice things coming to them quite easily sticks in my mind. As I still don’t know how that works, I still don’t know how I would allow that to happen to me. As when I started the project I thought I had some people working with me to make this site, this project a success. But they all backed out, they hardly put any time in the project, except the weekly meetings, the weekly conference calls. And yes, a few times a few hours or something. At least that is what I know about. But I have been writing every day, sending an inspirational quote every day, so I have put quite some time and effort. And yes, I made the start with the inspirational tools. So did things come easy to me? Well, not really in my opinion.

So while writing this right now I’m thinking something like ‘what’s next’. As I am not planning to give up on this, even though this project did not really bring me anything yet, at least not the thing I was looking for, the thing I was asking for. And yes, the site, the writing brought me a lot, like writing everything down, having something to look back to. And it taught me about persistence. And it taught me about leadership, like accepting more that probably a leader is often alone, that he or she has to set the pace, guide the team and not be part of it.

And yes, while writing this right now, I am thinking of my original goals with this site, with this project, where I think the main original goal was to achieve success fully in the open using the Principles of Success as described by Napoleon Hill. And this thinking brings me back to the beginning, to the start of Inspiration for Success, where I did a lot more work with a lot more enthusiasm and I guess a lot more result.

And yes, of course I am thinking also of stopping, like where does this whole thing lead, as Inspiration for Success certainly does not have the traffic, the users I originally had in mind. And while writing I have no clue how I would get everything to the quantity and quality of inspiring people, motivating people I originally had in mind. But that is maybe also where I should go back to right now, just redefine, or better revive my dream: offering inspiration for people like me, people who didn’t find inspiration all their life within their environment.

So if that applies to you, please let me know. And maybe I can help you, and probably others, if I know where you stand, what you want and what you are going through. So please let me know.

Relax

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Today was a bit a weird day as I didn’t feel doing a lot of things. Still I managed to get my development server running and found out that my new hard disk is not okay, so I’ll have to change it.

And it is very much time to evaluate this site, the site and project Inspiration for Success, as it didn’t bring me much success yet, at least not the success I’m looking for. And I’m not sure if my habit of writing every day a post is a good habit as I don’t really feel inspired recently

So yes, while thinking of all the readings about success I should continue, as success is just beyond the point where you kind of lose hope. But I’m getting tired and as of the moment I don’t really see where this site, this project is going and I don’t have a lot of energy going on, as it feels like nothing is coming back.

So yes, somehow I would love to finish and extend the IFS Tools, but without any users, even including me, it’s not much fun (anymore). As yes, I still feel alone with this, as with many things in life.

So what’s this all about?

And I’m thinking about what John said, that I should give solutions here. But I don’t want to be like all those other sites and bloggers, as there is already so much of the same self help stuff annoying people with pop-ups asking for e-mail addresses and then sending you e-mails regularly, sometimes even every day. And no, nothing wrong, as I’m doing the same with the daily quote, but in the end it seems mostly about selling and not about helping people.

So yes, I could use some feedback here.

You have a problem

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I am kind of upset as my partner keeps telling me I have a problem and I’m not sure how to deal with that. And we were sitting with a friend and it seems she kind of agrees and that hurts me very much. And it seems neither of them seems to see how much I am hurting and affected with what is being said and how I feel attacked by what is said. And somehow I don’t seem to get what my partner expects from me as he wants me to have more understanding and I have no clue what he means. And part of this may be cultural, as I am European and they are Asian and it seems there is quite some difference in how culture works, how individual thinking or group thinking works.

So finally my partner asked me to leave as he was about to hit me again. And no, physical violence in a relationship was never in my vocabulary and somehow it still isn’t, but I know now a bit how it works, at least from the perspective of the person on the receiving end.

So what am I doing wrong here, as it seems the two friends seem to agree that it is me who is the problem. And so yes, I am the one alone and making a stand for what I believe in. And indeed, that is different from a while ago, as I have gained a lot of self confidence and now stay with what I believe in, no matter what others say.

So now, while writing and not knowing what to do, not knowing about this ‘you have a problem’ or ‘you are wrong’ as it arrives, I am not fully sure what is next. As the strange thing indeed is that ‘everybody’, as my partner states it, agrees that I have a problem.

So am I really wrong? No, I don’t think so. But yes, there seems to be a problem, except I don’t know what it is. And while writing I realize that somehow everybody wants to solve this problem.

So how to solve a problem where you don’t understand what’s the problem.

And if everybody wants to solve the problem, then why can’t it be solved?