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Worlds top five transporters

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I was just watching the documentary “The worlds top five transporters” on Discovery Channel. And I was amazed (again) at what humans, or actually humanity, can achieve, has achieved. And also how small one human being is. And also how much has been achieved already even before I was born. And how much was achieved when I was a child, grew up.

And somehow I don’t feel part of it, don’t feel part of it anymore at least. And somehow I am thinking more and more about the poor people in the world, which may even be the majority. The people who will never really see the world, will never really experience all those marvels that have been created by human kind.

And I was thinking about the Apollo program, the moon program in the sixties in the US. As one of the worlds top five transporters in the program was the crawler. And about those Apollo rockets (or they are actually called Saturn I think), the largest rockets ever built if I remember correctly.

And again, I was thinking that indeed as humanity we are building an awful lot of things nowadays, computers and tablets and cell phones in mass production and even marvels as shown in those “Worlds top five” programs. But somehow I still believe we don’t do anything big anymore and I wrote about that before. And I guess I’ll be writing about it again. We don’t go to the moon anymore, and we’re not really planning to go to Mars, let alone to the stars, to other solar systems or galaxies. And isn’t that what humanity is about, going beyond anything, exploring everything, everything there is in the Universe? And we just don’t seem to do it anymore.

So where are the heroes making these big ideas, the really, really big ideas come true? Or should I be the one, could I be the one?

And yes, while writing this I know this post has two different, almost opposite views: the poor people not even enjoying the benefits of what humanity has achieved in practical things. And the things that go beyond everything and would cost an awful lot of money and effort, where that effort and money would not be available to bring joy to the poor people in this world.

But yes, in the end I believe it’s about the special, about the one thing that shouldn’t be done, that’s too expensive, too great, too big a dream too impractical.

But are those things, those dreams not what life is all about?

Blogger and alone?

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Confused and disappointed

I am confused and somehow disappointed, but am also gathering some new strength and courage. And one of the reasons that I am confused and disappointed it that I feel completely abandoned by my team (or Master Mind). It seems that no matter what I do or not do, they are not really moving. Yes, the weekly meetings at first they joined and went OK as you may read in earlier posts and pages, but slowly I feel like I kind of lost them. And I still can’t fully figure out why.

And I am disappointed with more people and organizations and all kinds of things. As somehow they don’t seem to respond or don’t want to respond or can’t respond. And I know I’m not perfect and I know I don’t respond to every e-mail and such, but at least I try and I think I manage like 80% or so.

And that’s where things don’t add up. As they say that you reap what you sow, and I thought I was sowing good things, like responding to e-mails as good and as quick as I can. And it seems I reap nothing but an awful lot of spam and hardly any serious replies. Although that’s not fully true, as recently I got some very nice e-mails from people from a long time ago who were checking on me related to the typhoon here.

Same with ‘first give’, start with ‘giving’. And I have the feeling especially the last few years, even the last ten years I have been giving a lot, even more than I feel I had, even more, much more than I could afford, emotionally as well as financially. And also here it seems nothing is coming back as I feel emotionally completely empty and am kind of completely bankrupt financially.

So some things don’t add up and I still can’t fully figure out why, as somehow I do believe in the reaping and sowing thing and the ‘giving’ first thing.

But what if you’re completely empty, if everything seems to be gone, if you have nothing left, if you feel abandoned by everybody?

Still my goals

And of course time will tell and somehow I still have my goals set and somehow I feel I will get there. But it hurts e.g. that I am in debt now, something I could have never imagined as I used to be the most honest person in the world, the most saving person in the world, the most thrifty person in the world. And now I’m in debt where interest payments are adding up and where somehow somewhere I have to face people. And yes, I do want to pay them back, I don’t want this and I know it’s ‘bad’, but looking back I wouldn’t know what I could have done differently. But the frustrating part is that even if I would have some income, and recently I got some, it would take me probably ten years or so to get out of debt, to pay all my debts. And it doesn’t feel fair, as I feel abused by many people who didn’t pay me back, who postponed payments or just didn’t pay. Even people I trusted a lot. But yes, now I am one of those people, not paying their dues.

Debts

And yes, the good thing is I now know that you don’t necessarily need to be dumb or a big spender or someone who intentionally lives beyond their means, even though the last would apply to me. But related to living beyond your means, if you feel like you have an earning capacity of say like a minimum of USD 1,000.00 or so a month, which I consider I have, even a lot more, and you basically didn’t earn anything for years? And yes, I have been too easy with my partner related to money, but still, if nothing, really nothing is coming in, at least not after all expenses have been paid, after all staff salaries have been paid, then it all doesn’t add up anymore.

And made my mistakes and had my share in not running the business properly. But still, customers that unsatisfied that they just refuse to pay, even after you have made a deal how to continue with a project? A customer who doesn’t pay after an initial mistake that you have worked for half a year now to solve in a different way and thought you had a good solution, a good deal and the customer is still not satisfied, still doesn’t want to pay? And especially the last one hurts as this was a trial for me to do ‘anything’ without complaining, the last often people say I do, and just doing whatever needed to be solved, providing solutions, solving little problems, building alternate solutions. And still, no ‘acceptance’, only ‘thank you’.

So where to go

So where do I want to go with this post. Well, for quite a while I have something in my head that I should write a bit more about all those self help sites, all those self help ideas and what it means, what they mean. And one of the things is that they are addictive to a person like me and apparently to many more people. And also all those e-mails I get, you get, after ‘signing up’, which at the moment is mostly some kind of force sign up as most people just fill in the form that pops up that asks for your e-mail address and appears to block the content of the site (which mostly it doesn’t).

And yes, all those e-mails are written very well, as they urge you to click on the link to either visit the blog, the site or to buy something. And after getting some of those e-mails from more than half a year now I notice they are all the same. They are written in a way so I will go to the site and finally buy something.

And nothing wrong with that, don’t get me wrong. As I am in a similar situation as those people, doing work, useful work I think by writing this blog, this site, and I would like to be paid for it, yes, deserve to be paid for it. But until now I decided NOT to follow those common sales tactics as I don’t want to force people to go to my blog, this site and I don’t want to force them to pay me. I want people to like what I read and then have them decide for themselves to give something to me. And yes, ‘everybody’ says that cannot be done. ‘All blogs’ earn from advertisements or selling books or e-books or affiliate links.

But still, is my ideas so weird? Why wouldn’t you want to pay me, give something back for the effort I have put in this site? Of course only if you like what I’m doing of if you got something useful from me. Or maybe just because you like me.

And yes, I know I need to do something more ‘active’. I know I need to do something to make it more easy for you to go to the site, read the stuff that’s here, like an e-mail with a link to ‘today’s post’ or something. And I will, soon. But I was hoping other people, my team would be part of it, do part of the work. But apparently they don’t want to, for whatever reason, so I have decided for now I’ll just continue on my own, like most bloggers seem to do. And just do my own thing, contrary to have things checked by the Master Mind as Napoleon Hill suggests.

But yes, I also read that this type of situation is part of the road of success. Being kind of desperate, feeling alone, even unsure about if you are ‘right’.

But I don’t want to give up, I won’t give up. Not for me, but also because I made some commitment to myself related to inspiring people. Because this situation is exactly what it’s all about. ‘Someone’, ‘something’ inspiring me now, in this deep trench. That would be nice.

And yes, if it’s not there I’ll have to find it within myself, or within the increasing visibility of the site.

Positive

And yes, there is one positive, one that is also sure, related to continuing the work, writing continuously here, no matter what, being persistent, being disciplined, having the habit to write, write every day.

And that is that the site is coming alive. That it is becoming visible in Google. And that means that sooner or later more people will find the site, visit the site and read what I wrote. And yes, there must be some people who like what I write. Or can use it to be inspired or achieve success or maybe just feel a little better if they are down.

As the statistics show that the site is coming alive:

Inspiration for Success coming alive

 

Change in energy

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A few days ago I read about a (spiritual) change in energy someone felt. And I think I can also feel it, I also felt it the last few days, the last few weeks. Something seems to have changed for the good, in the world. And it doesn’t change in one setting, it doesn’t change from ‘bad’ to ‘good’ in one switch, in one instant. As the last week I felt kind of terrible and it just started to change back to ‘good’ yesterday or the day before. And yesterday and today I also still didn’t feel fully OK, especially after waking up.

Fish

But tonight, while doing my ‘IFS‘ things I slowly started to feel the peace, the sounds of nature, the insects within the quiet, the things here that are so beautiful, that make this place kind of into heaven. And I still miss to share that, share that again. But now from a positive perspective, from peace, from ‘positive being’ and not from fear and worry as I used to do before. And it’s weird as I have no clue how to get there. I know now more what I want, more than ever. But practically spoken it is further from me than ever at the same time. ‘Reality’ tells me, or better ‘people’ tell me that I need to be real, that I need to be practical. And maybe I should, maybe I’m just heading towards more trouble, more towards things I don’t want.

But somehow I think more and more that I should stick to what I want, to my dreams, not give up, but be persistent, be patient. As I see more and more who I am. And that maybe I’m just a dreamer, someone who doesn’t (want to) see ‘reality’. But where would we be without dreamers, without dreams. We would still walk in animal skins or maybe even be more like animals, like apes. We would not have our daily food and other needs being given to us, and that even applies to virtually all poor people as who in the world still caters for 100% for their own food and clothes and other basic needs? And we wouldn’t have gone to the moon and there wouldn’t be cars and planes, let alone medicines. So yes, the more I think about it, the more I read about it, everything, literally everything we see around us, literally everything we are started with a dream, a thought. So should I stop dreaming, should you stop dreaming, even if it’s about things that people tell us is not ‘reality’. But we create reality, reality consists just of beliefs that have been practiced (Abraham Hicks) or the choices humanity and Infinite Intelligence or God or the Universal Consciousness made, choices you and I make.

So let’s keep dreaming. And in my own experience the more I dream, the more I want(ed) things for myself, the more I also realized in the end I (also) want to give. Yes, I want to stay in this house and yes, I like the house also because I like to show off with a big house. But I also want to share the place, invite friends, family, maybe even strangers as the place is so beautiful and it’s typically a place, a house to share. And yes, I want a big car, a black Pajero, big and that type because it’s expensive and I want to show off. But the more I thought and think about it I mainly want a car so I can move around again and visit friends or go to the beach with the dogs and (sometimes) with friends, just to enjoy, enjoy life. And to just go to the city, to be able to roam around easier, for business and pleasure. And yes, some money, not money for the money, but just money to buy new shoes and new clothes and some new stuff for my partner. And to repair the house as it’s so sad to see such a beautiful house fall apart, a house where there have been so many parties and so many people enjoyed the view and each others company. And yes, some money to just buy the food and drinks to create those parties, as at the moment I’m too embarrassed to invite anybody, in the house as it is and without proper food and drinks worthy of the house, and of course of the people.

And some simple things like a camera. Just a simple one. Not for myself as I don’t like taking pictures. But just to be able to take some pictures to share on this site, like the water system pictures I need for the first real proper page I made and I can’t finish right now because I can’t make the pictures I want to put.

And I feel guilty now, as asking things like this is ‘not done’, especially not for yourself. What crazy world do we live in, that we limit each other for ‘having’ things. What’s wrong with wanting a Pajero, or even a Rolls-Royce, but the last I don’t even want. Or wanting a big house or, indeed a lot of money. Why do we deny these things to each other. These things we all want. Where did we ever create the idea that it’s ‘bad’ to want things, material things. And why would we need to ‘earn’ these things through ‘hard work’. Again, the more I think about it it’s just crazy. Neither of us is even able to create a simple breakfast on his or her own. That is why we organized the world into what it now is. And this is the first time in history I believe we, as humanity, have the (technical) knowledge and ability to produce virtually anything that anybody would want or need. And we stick with this outdated ‘earning’ and ‘work hard’ thing.

I am dying to give my services to people, to develop websites and web applications and do some internet marketing so things can be ‘found’ on the internet by people looking for stuff or information. And all around me I see companies, shops, dying to sell their stuff. Supermarkets are full of food and anything else what anybody could even imagine. And, I think I’m repeating myself, most of the things I see around me I don’t need and don’t even want. So the idea of scarcity, that there is not enough for everybody is just a thought, just a perception. And it may be true there is not enough, as I don’t know figures about needs and wants of people and production capacity available or needed to produce all of that.

But even if it is true I’m quite sure technically we could produce, create everything anybody would want or need. So yes, I’m really to believe in these ideas about abundance, that there is enough for everybody and that that all can be done without harming other people or the environment.

So let’s find a way out of this mess, this way of thinking of ‘scarcity’ and the idea that people are greedy and want ‘everything’. I’m quite sure most people are like me, and don’t want everything that’s availalbe in supermarket or anywhere else.

Pause and think and plan

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Well, Inspiration for Success is still in kind of stand still mode and so seems to be the rest of my business life, but maybe this is the time to pause and think and plan. And as far as I know a proper plan is one of the major things missing at the moment. And maybe some more realistic goals for the team as I think I lost them with my one million dollar goal. And I can understand they can’t follow me and it may be a crazy goal, but for now, and probably for the rest of (the start of) the project I’ll stick with it. Because the more I follow the Principles of Success as described by Napoleon Hill also the more I understand why it is important to stick to decisions and to write things down. Because indeed, that’s how they can be analyzed, even after failure, or especially after failure. As I know I didn’t make my first goal of one million dollar this month. But at least I know and I can exactly see when I planned it and what was the goal and what actions I did or didn’t do. Or what principles of success I didn’t follow or apply.

So I may be defeated and my goals may seem crazy, but as I understand Napoleon Hill, and many other successful people, well, this is exactly what it’s all about. Stick to the goal and indeed, set sail once more until you reach the goal.

And I started reading again in several books, especially Think and Grow Rich and amazingly I found new things. On all kinds of place the book suggests to re-read chapters later and indeed, it makes sense as I’m starting to see all kinds of details I missed at first (or second or third) time reading. Like yesterday I re-read the chapter on specialized knowledge and it was the first time I understood more the meaning of the word specialized in specialized knowledge. So the principle of applying specialized knowledge is not just applying knowledge. There appears to be a whole world behind this principle that you will only understand after studying and re-reading the book again and again.

And the same thing I experienced with the principle of the Master Mind and now also with organized planning.

Alone

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So somehow today, and maybe some more time than I thought before, was an alone day. So I was searching for alone quotes and sent one. And I found another one for this post:

“if you wanted to do something absolutely honest, something true, it always turned out to be a thing that had to be done alone.” – Richard Yates.

So for example with this website, with the project Inspiration for Success, it still feels I’m alone, no matter there is a team. And somehow I’m not good with teams, with people, at least not in relation to projects, to achieving something (together).

And indeed, going back to Inspiration for Success, I have big ideas and big plans for this project and this website. But somehow, until now, I was not able to convey that, the whole idea to the team. And I know somehow I’m trying to do something virtually impossible, something weird, and it even changed and changes over time. And often it feels like I’m not the right person to do this, to make my ideas, my dreams come true, e.g. with this website, this project. As somehow I’m still not able to inspire or motivate people to do the work, to really actually do some more things.

And yes, maybe I’m the wrong person, maybe it’s the wrong team, maybe it’s the wrong time, maybe…

But still, something deep inside me says I should push through with this, try to get my message to the world. And I’m not even sure why or how, even though of course I also have all those voices in my head telling me what to do or not do like everybody seems to have.

So where to go from here? I have no clue actually. But maybe indeed I should use the ideas from the Law of Attraction and focus more on what I have in mind, what the end result should be. And not so much on how to get there.

And maybe this is still also the right post to tell my little story about a project I have been working on for a few days, a few weeks, and check that project against the Principles of Success. Or no, maybe indeed make that a page: sample application of the principles of success. But here I have a problem, as I don’t want to offend our Editor in Chief, who made a stand for delivering quality pages. So the link I have put may not work yet as a page has to be approved by our Editor in Chief.

So yes, somehow I’m trying to do something honest and true with Inspiration for Success. And it seems indeed that it is something I may have to do alone, somehow. As I can’t do it alone and don’t want to do it alone. But maybe indeed being the leader somehow means you are alone and you have to do it alone, even if there is a team supporting you.