Lately I am asking myself more and more why I am writing here every day, yes, except on Sunday’s, as it doesn’t feel that inspiring anymore and it also feels like it doesn’t have any purpose except to kind of show to myself that I can do it, that I can be disciplined or something. Or that I am persistent. But somehow it also feels that I am just stubborn.
So what is it? Or maybe all? And yes, I guess this is the most difficult time in the ‘race’ that I started and that I somehow wanted to continue for at least two years. As two years is somehow the milestone that I consider Google considers the period when a website is really serious. But Google changed and I’m not really sure if that two year mark or something is still there. Or even existed anyhow. And then, should I write my blog, my posts, these words that don’t make any sense to anybody lately, or probably don’t make any sense to anybody lately, because of Google? Or some policy or algorithm of Google?
But yes, while writing this somehow the answer is still yes. As somehow this is what persistence is all about. Going on when you don’t feel like it anymore, going on when it doesn’t make sense anymore, going on when all the excitement is gone, going on no matter what.
And yes, I know somehow this time is different, this time is more about persistence and less about being stubborn. As somehow I have decided that this time I want to be successful, no matter what. This time I have decided that I won’t give up, won’t give up until I finally have or feel the success that I have been waiting for, struggled for all my life. And right now I’m not fully sure how that success would look like, like how I would achieve it. As I am working on many things right now. And no, somehow I also haven’t lost focus, somehow I am finishing things now, determined to finish things, finish everything, everything I have started and am starting.
So yes, the things I am writing here and in my personal blog may not make much sense recently. But sending the daily quote does and keeping my gratitude journal also. And my persistence in some other projects has brought me closer to some unimaginable goals.
So yes, let’s continue here for now. And yes, let’s celebrate how far I have gotten.
And thank you, Napoleon Hill. As somehow your book Think and Grow Rich has brought me closer to success, big success, than ever.
I am still subscribed to some of the kind of self help sites from the beginning of my journey with Inspiration for Success. And while I somehow believe often they are a bit too commercial, sometimes I click a link to ‘read the full story’. So today I got an e-mail from 
And it inspired me to re-read my desire document. And while reading it I realized that it needs some updates. As I missed some date. Yes, you read this well, I missed some dates. But no matter what, it is still the most important document I ever wrote. As I am starting to live it, it is just me, now, nothing more, nothing less. AND I WON’T CHANGE IT, at least not the basics, not the original idea, the original thing I stated as my definite purpose, the original thing I decided to give, even though I adapted the ‘giving part’ a little as the very first original statement was just too much, like fully giving myself away, which is not the right thing to do. And I won’t change the plan, the ways to achieve my original purpose, even though they don’t really sound like a plan, but more like another goal or definite purpose. BUT THE DOCUMENT IS MINE, I OWN IT NOW. And keep in mind, what I wrote here quite some time before, when I wrote it, my definite purpose were completely impossible. Literally impossible, at least that is what I believed when I first set my basic goal.